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"I just.. I can't believe I didn't know sooner. How could I have not known you were so ill? You're my best friend and I didn't know" Michelle wept as she sat beside the hospital bed, desperately trying to look at Carla's face, the tears blurring her vision as she did. The feeling of a hand grasping hers made the tears flow even more. She felt guilty, she had known there was something, but had believed her when she had said she was just trying to look after herself and keep her weight down. In hind sight they had been feeble excuses and how she hadn't seen straight through her was what was troubling Michelle deeply.

"Chelle I didn't want.. I couldn't tell any of you, I couldn't just come back and spring this on you all, for what it's worth I am sorry though, I never wanted to hurt you, you know I normally tell you everything" she squeezed her best friends hand that bit tighter. Watching Michelle cry made her heart ache and was more painful than what she was going through at this moment.

They both sat in silence for a while, as Michelle composed herself and wiped harshly at her eyes, the tears finally subsiding as she gathered her thoughts. She looked over at Carla and her heart broke all over again, she looked like a shell of her normal self and in that moment Michelle realised just how urgently she needed this transplant.

"I want to be tested" she suddenly blurred out, watching a frown etch across Carla's face as she diverted her eye contact and played with the drip placed in her hand.

"You don't have to do tha-"

"I want to. I mean it Carla, I will do whatever it takes for you" she fights back the tears, the thought of losing her best friend being too hard to bear

"Aidan and Kate are already being tested, honestly Michelle I could never ask you to be put in that position, it's bad enough I can't stop Aidan and Kate from trying" she still avoided all contact as she spoke. She hated the fact her family were having to put themselves in danger to save her. After everything she had been through, she couldn't help but think this was partly her fault, all the close calls with death she had already faced, she couldn't help but think this was a sign that this would be the end.

"If they aren't a match, I am getting tested and there is nothing you can say to change my mind, I will find you a match one way or another, I promise you I won't let you down" Michelle moved closer, grasping Carla's hand desperately, forcing her to look at her, the tears that pooled in Carla's eyes instantly made Michelle embrace her tightly, her hand rubbing soothing circles on the base of her back, she could feel the sobs of her best friend crying onto her shoulder and she felt so useless and in that moment she decided to speak to the staff on the way out about being tested, without Carla knowing yet.

An hour or so later and Michelle had managed to soothe Carla to sleep, and as she gently removed her hand from Carla's she slowly stood up, taking a moment to observe her beautiful face, even when she was so very ill, she still managed to look perfect, leaning down and pressing a lingering kiss against her forehead, Michelle savoured the moment.

"I love you.." she trailed off, feeling her eyes burn and the feeling of tears threatening to fall once again.

Leaving the room she went in search of a doctor who could help her gather more information and let her do something productive in saving Carla.