Your face was pale as a corpse
As the corpse you wished to be
When you asked me to do the impossible
To do nothing
To let you die
You were halfway gone already
The will to live long since departed
Every breath brought you closer to death
Death you desired
Moment by moment
You were slipping away
But I couldn't let you go.
I made a deal with a devil
And sentenced you to hell
Believe me
It gave me no satisfaction
When you clung to me
Your body racked with pain
Pain worse than death
Death you desired
Your knuckles gripped white
Clutching my shirt
Stained with your blood
With my blood
With our blood
Now inextricably mingled
And you couldn't let me go.
And when the shaking
And the screaming
Finally stopped
You looked up at me
One bright, haunted eye holding my gaze
For just a moment
Before consciousness mercifully left
Left your body
Your body drenched in sweat
In blood
In tears
Your body that continues to live
Contrary to your desire
You will hate me when you wake up
And I can't blame you for that
But for now
Just for now
I'll carry you in my arms again
I'll hold you close
Damn me to hell for my selfishness
But I just can't let you go.