Ok This is a What if song fic. I think that this is the first What if song fic but basically I set a situation and the feelings to song lyrics. Its easier if you just read it.
Situation: Rory kissed Jess (after There's the rub (Not really but in this fic) and told him that it didn't mean anything to her and that it was a mistake blah blah. Your basic Rory. Anyway, these are Jess's feelings.
Song: Blurry by Puddle of Mud
Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is
So messed up
The kiss. A kiss that I will never forget, and kill me if I do. That kiss was one of the most amazing experiences that I've ever had. Then the sting, those words. "Jess, about the kiss, I was just wigging after my fight with Dean, let's just forget it ok."
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world
Surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that
I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
She thinks that she needs him, she thinks that this love, this need its not love. She's just afraid to try something new. I heard her say it once "Most change sucks." But this change, if she changed it wouldn't suck. I wish I could tell her.
I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
I can't take this. She hurt me, that hurt and for some reason I can forgive her. Easily I can forgive her. She can do nothing wrong in my eyes. It makes me angry that I can't be angry at her, that I can't hate her.
Everyone is changing
There's no-one left
That's real
To make up
Your own ending
And let me know
Just how you feel
'Cause I am lost
Without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world
Surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
Everything has been moving in slow motion lately, the world is black and white when she isn't here. Then all of a sudden she'll stream into the diner and everything will freeze and start moving again in colour.
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that
I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
He doesn't deserve her, he doesn't deserve a girl as perfect as she does. I don't either but I think that I deserve her more than him. I wouldn't freak out about a bracelet, I wouldn't not let her befriend another guy, sure I'd be afraid to lose her. Who wouldn't?
Oh
Nobody told me
What you thought
Nobody told me
What to say
Everyone showed you
Where to turn
Told you
Where to runaway
Nobody told you
Where to hide
Nobody told you
What to say
Everyone showed you
Where to turn
Showed you
Where to runaway
No one wants us to be together. No one but me.