Loki and me

by Lilly Potter ml

Girl met a boy. What she didn t know that he is a god. What she found out was that, Loki was a Swich. He where his triskelion with pride. Before 1. move. (Loki as Collage student wich like BDSM) This is my first story. Mostly AU.

It is raining. It's dark night and I am standing on top of the hill. I have no idea how did I get here. Only thing I remember is pain. I don't known for how long I was standing here in rain, but I don't really care. Only think I can feel in this moment is the pain. And is not the good type of pain. It is the pain when you can feel knife in your chest.

I wasn't sure if I was crying or it was the rain, falling down my on my cheeks. I know he wasn't mine, I know he didn't belong with me but it still hurt. I know I couldn't have stopped him, because he was a free spirit. You couldn't catch him, you couldn't hold him for too long. He was like an ocean and you couldn't stop an ocean even if you tried. And he wasn't even mine, so there was nothing I could do, nothing I could say. He has his"girls buddies" for whatever he had them. But I knew I couldn't ask why he want to go visit one of them after nine, in night when we were going home. Not together, to one home but still it felt bad. But he was not mine. So there wasn't anything I could do.

I start to scream. In the middle of night I scream, I scream so hard, from top of my lungs. But it didn't help I was still in pain and angry. Angry at myself, angry at him. Angry because I wasn't brave enough to come to him and just kiss him. Because I was coward, because I was scared. Because even my heart and my brain were telling me to go I was to scared. And he wasn't helping eider. With his sandy hair and changing eyes what could see your soul. It was hard to think, to stop smile. And with his silver tongue it was hard, it was hard to think clearly. All what everyone want was to listen his voice. What could you say, Loki was like that. To smart, to brave. But I know he had his mistakes but I didn't like perfect. Perfect was boring. All I wanted was mine Lokisek. And there in the middle of the hill, I decided that no matter how much he will avoid me, how much he will try send me away. I was not going to go anywhere. Because I cared for Loki and we would have that conversation no matter how much he wants to avoid it. Because I am like that. To stubborn, to dominate, to caring. And I am never giving up. I went down from hill and decided to go home. Tomorrow is a new day and I decided to enjoy it.