"Mother…"

That's what I want to refer to her as. Mother… But I can't. No matter how much I don't want to love her, no matter how much I want to think of her as a mother I can't. There was no way I can keep myself from loving her, at least not anymore…

Everything about her was just so easy to adore from her cheery attitude to her warm smiles. Every time she looks at me I can feel my heart skip a beat. That's what she does to me but there is nothing I can do about it because she loves… Kyo. I have no chance next to Kyo. Kyo is everything I want to be…

Ever since the day Tohru found out about Kyo's true form and how she chased after him, I told myself not to fall for her. That day I forced myself to think of her as a mother. I realized that day that she would never love me like that. It worked for a little while; I guess I wanted to believe I didn't love her so much that I actually believed it.

Not anymore though, my heart feels like it'll burst anytime… I should be grateful she even accepted me for who I am and how much time I got to spend with her already. But why isn't that enough? Why do I want her to love me so much? Why do I love her so? These questions never leave my mind.

I sigh staring up at the roof for a few more minutes before I got up out of bed. Slowly I made my way to the bathroom washing my face with some cool water. I dry my face with the white towel and make my way back to my room pulling on a clean uniform. Sloppily I fix my tie and button my shirt. As I walk down the stairs I run my hands through my hair in an attempt to fix the silver mess. A delicious aroma drifted around the room.

"She must have made breakfast already…"

I smile to myself, she always works so hard. As I near the kitchen I could hear her giggle at something. She turned around as soon as I entered.

"Good morning Yuki-kun!" she greeted a blush coating her cheeks.

I force a polite smile noticing that Kyo sat next to her at the kitchen table. It seemed like I interrupted something. I could hear Kyo mutter, "Damn rat…"

Now I'm sure I interrupted something.

"Good morning Honda-san," I return her greeting softly.

"Would you like some breakfast?" she offered with a wide grin.

I took a seat across from them nodding. Tohru stood up walking back into the kitchen to get some dishes. Kyo seemed extra pissed, his usual scowl across his face, his eyes burning fire. I don't even want to know why she was even laughing. Tohru came back setting down plates in front of me and Kyo, serving the food to us.

"Thank you Honda-san. It looks delicious," I reply picking up my pair of chopsticks.

"Yeah…. Thanks Tohru," Kyo grunted.

"Tohru…"

How much I wanted to call her that. By her first name… But I'm too nervous. I've called her Honda-san for too long already…. It's too late to change now…. Besides, it's not like she'd care if I called her by her first name anyways… I ate the food in small bites. It was wonderful as usual.

"Yuki-kun? Are you okay?" she asked, worry in her eyes.

"Yes, I'm alright. Is something the matter?"

"You seem a little depressed today….."

"Don't worry about the damn rat. He can take care of himself," Kyo muttered as he gulped down the rest of his breakfast.

I pushed aside my food with a smile. I shouldn't worry her needlessly. That was just selfish of me.

"I'm just not too hungry this morning,"

"Was the food bad? Would you like me to make you something else?" she suggested frantically.

"No… It was fabulous….." I smiled at her honestly.

"Ah well…. Be sure to eat more at lunch then!" she reminded.

"I will…….."

She smiled one more time before running up the stairs to get changed. Kyo followed her grasping her hand in his. I frowned slightly shaking my head and looking at the floor. I felt devastated. Anyone would think I'd just get used to it but it hurts even more each time. Like a sword that repeatedly continues to stab into my heart. Deeper each and every time and no one is there to save me….

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…. Is this the sign of jealously?"

I look up at the obnoxious eyes of Shigure.

"Idiot…." I mumbled rolling my eyes.

I hear foot steps growing closer. It was no other then Tohru. I hoped she didn't hear what Shigure said. It didn't seem like she did.

"Yuki-kun? Are you ready to go?"

"Yeah…"

"Ok then….. Bye Shigure-san!"

"Bye Tohru-kun! Have fun at school children!" he laughed to himself.

I didn't even bother to hit him. Kyo glared at me as I grabbed my backpack.

"What?" I ask in a sharp tone.

"Stop making her worry about you, it's annoying," he quietly snapped at me so she wouldn't hear.

She slipped on her shoes, not paying attention to Kyo and I. That's good, our fights only made her worry.

The three of us walk to school in silence. I felt like an outsider, like I was in their way….. We entered the classroom together, ignoring the looks from the girls in the classroom. Uo and Hanajima walked up to us immediately.

"Hey Tohru! Orangey… Prince Charming," Uo greeted with her usual smirk.

"Yes, good morning, Tohru-kun," Hanajima added in her monotone voice.

"Good morning Uo-chan! Hana-chan! How are you?" Tohru responded with a huge smile.

"Yeah yeah… Yankee…"

"Good morning Uotani-san, Hanajima-san," I added with a faint smile.

Before we could say anymore the bell rang signaling the beginning of school. Mayu Sensei entered the classroom slamming her books on her desk, silencing everyone. We took our seats ready for another day of learning. I sat there with my head rested on my arm staring out the window, not interested in today's lessons. Lazily I scribbled down a few notes that I wouldn't look at again anyways. Lunch came and went pretty soon. Like always I sat with Tohru, her two friends and a sulking Kyo. I didn't say much at all.

My thoughts seemed to drift back to Tohru. It took all I had not to stare at her. My love for her was like a curse. I couldn't tell her how I felt, and even if I did, I would never get to hold her. Why would I want her in such a terrible relationship like that? That was just cruel…. And extremely selfish of me.

"-ince Charming! Prince Charming!"

"Huh?"

I look up at Uo oddly.

"Lunch is over. You coming?"

"Yeah…" I muttered standing up and following the rest of them back to the classroom.

Luckily the rest of the day passed quickly. I was ready to leave this place but I had a student council meeting. For her, I went outside and watched her and Kyo go home together. When Kyo thought I had stopped watching he grabbed Tohru's hand in his. I glanced away. Tears fought to break through. It took everything I had to keep them from falling.

"So you're in love with Tohru-kun?"

"Is it that obvious?" I asked, looking up at Haru dully.

"You were my first love…. I tend to notice these things…"

"Would you stop saying that like its normal?"

I stared at him; he took a seat beside me on the grass.

"Yuki, who wouldn't notice? You're always watching her, though you pretend like you aren't. I know you Yuki. Stop hiding your feelings and tell her," Haru said calmly like it was nothing.

For a minute we sat there in silence. How did Haru always know what I was thinking? It was like he was the braver side of me, because I'd always be the coward.

"No… I could never come between that………" I murmured, looking back at Kyo and Tohru.

"Yuki…"

"She loves him…. I don't stand a chance…."

"You don't know that-!"

"You know as well as I do… They love each other…"

"There's nothing wrong with loving someone…" Haru muttered.

"Yeah but… Isn't true love wanting that person you love to be happy even if you aren't?"

Haru looked at me for a moment before saying anything.

"Well I want you to be happy too….."

His words hit me deep down. I know he was being his honest self but those words made me want to cry even more.

"I have to go……"

I got up slowly and made my way into the school for the student council meeting. It appeared like I was the last one to arrive. In reality I didn't want to be here, I wanted to be far away. Away from all my pain and suffering, then maybe I could manage to get over her.

"Yun Yun!"

I cringed at the hearing of my nickname. That stupid nickname, I hated it so much, so childish.

"Where were you? The President should be first to arrive!" Kakeru declared pointing at me.

"Manabe! Yun Yun is a delicate person like Kimi! Don't yell at him!" Kimi scolded jabbing him in the stomach.

"Is that what I seem like? A delicate person who needs protecting?"

Everything seemed to irritate me today. I was sick of being a fragile creature.

"What's the matter Yun Yun?"

"Stop calling me by that ridiculous nickname!"

They all looked surprised by the way I was acting. No one understood what I was going through. I stood up angrily glaring at them all. The door slid open with a loud thud. I turned around to see Haru leaning against the door with an expressionless face.

"I knew you were going to be mad… But don't take your anger out on them…." Haru advised seriously.

"Was I taking my anger out on them?" I asked in a bitter sarcastic voice.

"Yuki, what's the matter? If you're mad, do what Kyo does and go fight each other some more."

"No…….. I've had enough of that……"

"Really? I always thought you'd never get enough."

"You and Kyo are the one's obsessed with fighting, not me."

"Then go talk to her."

"It's not my place to take away another's happiness… It's not right…." I said softly.

I couldn't hold back the tears anymore; I took off, running from this place as fast as I could. Nobody stopped me but I could hear them calling me but I kept going. I skidded around a corner dodging a teacher or two and ran out of the school. I let the tears fall, clouding my vision they streamed down my cheeks. There was nowhere I could go, I didn't want to go home; I couldn't go there… She would be there….

I stopped after a while dropping to the ground tiredly. Trees surrounded me, I was somewhere in the forest behind our house. I didn't care where I was, just as long as I was alone. Tears continued to flow like an endless river. All the pain I had held back wanted to come out, I wasn't holding it in anymore.

How long I was there, I had no idea. I mustn't have been too far from the house though; I heard some voices in the distance. One was a female and the other was male. Curiosity got the best of me; I silently stood and headed towards the direction of the voices. I recognized one of the voices immediately as Tohru's. The other was Haru's. Quietly I stood amongst the trees.

"Honda-san, have you seen Yuki?"

" No…. I thought he was still at his student council meeting… But Kyo-kun is up on the roof…"

"I don't remember asking about Kyo…. Kyo, Kyo, Kyo! Is that all you can say? Did you ever think about how others might feel?!"

Tohru backed away slightly bewildered by Haru's reaction. She looked so scared and confused, not yet adjusted to Haru's black side. I wanted to just pull her to safety but I hated myself for eavesdropping. This was wrong, but I couldn't leave. My feet were glued to the ground.

Haru continued in a sharp angry tone, "Do you think its right for you to act all innocent? You keep saying you care about all the juunishi but you keep trampling on someone's heart!"

"Hatsuharu-san…. I don't understand…." She whispered in a small voice that I could barely hear.

"Yuki!"

I flinched. For a moment I thought he had seen me but he continued talking.

"He LOVES YOU!!!! Don't you see? He loves you! I'm begging you! Please…. Please stop hurting him……"

My eyes widened at this. I couldn't help but look. Haru had dropped down to both of his knees tears brimming in both of his eyes. Tohru looked just as surprised as me.

"Yuki-kun loves me…?" she half asked to herself.

I couldn't take her reaction. I ran away from there as fast as I could. There was no possible way that I could stand her rejection. Anything but that… Even if she doesn't love me as much as Kyo I don't care. I just don't want to hear it from her…

I lost track of time. The next thing I knew it was dark out. Not an ounce of sunlight was left out. My stomach was growling. I hadn't eaten since lunch, I was starving.

"I need to eat…" I muttered to myself.

I took a deep breath and decided to sneak back into the house. Everything was planned out in my mind. I would grab something to eat and go up to my room quietly so nobody would notice me. There was no way I could face her. I was too embarrassed.

Slowly I made my way out of the forest and towards the house. Carefully I slid open the door so I wouldn't make a noise. The house was completely dark. I took off my shoes and gently set them by the door.

"Good… Everyone's asleep…"

I opened the fridge rummaging for some leftovers. The first thing I saw was one of Shigure's old take out boxes. It didn't even resemble food anymore. Suddenly I didn't feel so hungry anymore. But I was still exhausted. As quietly as possible I walked up the stairs.

Creeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaak!!!!

I cringed, I forgot about the loose floor board that creaked in the hallway between Tohru's room and my room. Her door immediately flew open. She stood there half behind her door waiting for her eyes to adjust to the darkness.

"Yuki?" she asked shyly biting her lip.

"Yeah…." I replied softly.

"Where were you? I was so worried!!!" she cried coming over to me almost hugging me.

She stopped when she remembered the curse.

"I lost track of time…" I answered which was half true.

We both stood there in awkward silence for a moment. Even in the pitch black I could tell she started to blush. I knew what she was going to ask.

"Yuki-kun…. Hatsuharu-san said you loved me……… Is it true?"

She looked so beautiful tonight her long dark strands draping across her thin shoulders. Her wide brown eyes looked up at me with her adorable innocence. I couldn't help myself I just smiled and pulled her as close as possible without hugging her and kissed her gingerly on the lips. She flinched almost shocked by my response. She didn't pull away though. I broke the kiss immediately realizing what I just did.

"I'm sorry….. I know you love Kyo…. Please forgive me…. I'm sorry…" I apologized.

The sweet taste of her lips lingering on mine made me smile. I looked at her apologetically for a second before turning around to go to my room. It would definitely be awkward tomorrow. I placed my hand on the door knob. Somehow… Things were changing, things would never be the same between us anymore.

"Yuki-kun…. Wait…."

I turned around.

"I love Kyo-kun yes but… but I also love Yuki-kun…. Please don't go…." She looked down at her feet sadly like she was going to cry.

"Don't cry…" I told her softly cupping her chin in my hand so she was looking in my eyes.

"I'll always love you and watch over you… but you don't have to worry… I won't force you to love me… I won't stand in Kyo and yours way…"

A tear slowly fell from her eye. I wiped it away with my thumb sweetly. She snaked her arms around my neck getting on the tips of her toes bringing her face closer to mine. My eyes widened. What was she doing?

"But…. I want to love you…I love you, Yuki-kun……" She murmured to me before she pressed her lips against mine.

She loved me???? She loves me! I was ecstatic. Yet, I couldn't help but think I was imagining things. Tohru, a perfectly normal girl loves me? A cursed person? Her kiss did convince me though. I never knew how sweet a kiss from someone you love is, not until today…

I wrapped my arms around her waist returning her kiss. Her lips parted half way letting the kiss get more intimate. Soon we broke apart lacking air. We stared at each other embarrassedly still holding on to each other. I can't even begin to explain how I felt at that moment. My heart was racing faster then it ever did before. And spread across my face was probably the widest smile ever seen on my face.

The soft moonlight wrapped us in its gentle white glow. In my eyes there was never a day before that she looked more beautiful then tonight. The addition of the lighting and shadows just made her look even more radiant and angelic. Her cherry colored lips curved up in a joyous smile.

She slowly lowered herself back to her heels. I felt her wince and wobble slightly. Worriedly I swiftly grabbed her waist steadying her.

"Does something hurt? What happened?" I asked full of concern.

"I'm okay…. I just hurt my ankle…." She smiled at me.

I didn't believe her. She looked like she was really hurt.

"I'm fine……………." She tried to reassure me.

"How did you get hurt?"

"I fell…. Earlier…. When Hatsuharu-san came over….. We went to look for you but I ended up causing him more trouble…. He didn't get to kept looking for you because he had to help me back… And then he had to help me wrap it up……" she explained briefly.

I released her crouching down by her legs lifting the bottom of her pajama pants slightly to look at her swollen ankle.

"Are you sure you're okay?"

She nodded. I released the hem of her pants letting it cover up the bandages.

"We should get to bed…….. It's late…." She added shyly.

She took a step back flinching again. I scooped her up in my arms holding her up bridal style.

"Yuki!" she exclaimed with a surprised expression.

"Shhhh…." I murmured to her.

She giggled wrapping her arms securely around my neck trying her best not to hug me. I used my foot to gently kick open the door the rest of the way. Thankfully she didn't completely close it. I set her down on her bed gently. She beamed leaning forward and kissing my cheek whispering, "Thank you…" before she released her hold around my neck.

"No problem… my princess…..I'll be waiting. Until tomorrow when I'll see you again…."

I gave her one last look before pulling away. Her grip on my hand tightened. I looked back at her. She stared down at her legs not letting go of my hand.

"Please…. Stay with me………."

I stared at her in complete shock before smiling warmly at her. She scotched over closer to the wall on her bed. I brought her hand to my lips planting a soft kiss…

The next thing I knew the sunlight shone across my face. I looked around the room disoriented. This brightly colored room was definitely not mine… Something warm snuggled up against me. I looked down at the smiling face of Tohru. She wrapped her thin arms around mine still fast asleep. I nearly jumped up but slowly I remembered what previously happened.

I smiled to myself half wondering if it was a dream.

"SCHOOL TIME! WAKEY WAKEY TOHRU-KUN!!!!!!!!!" Sang Shigure barging into the room without a knock.

I fell off her bed hitting the cold wood floor surprised by the unpredictable dog. Tohru sat upright confused entangled in her covers. Shigure switched his glances from Tohru to me then back to her, a mischievous grin growing across his face. We instantly blushed darkest shades of red.

"Ooooooooooooooooooooooh… Did I interrupt something??? Huh??? Huh???? What did you do to our little flower Yuki???? Ooohh!!!" He shrieked gleefully in one breath.

"Shut up you old hack! It wasn't what you thought it was!" I snapped at him.

"Then what was it????!" He smirked.

"Nothing!!!!" I yelled at him getting up and shoving him out the door and slamming it shut.

We stared at each other still the darkest shades of red either of us had been in our entire lives combined.

"I guess we should go get ready…." She whispered breaking the silence.

I smiled at her walking over to her bedside and stealing on last kiss before we went to get prepared for school.

THE END! Basically Asan-chan wanted to write something romantic! Review please!