April 8th, 2011

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Hello! Rain Here!

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Full Summary -

It's been three months since Graduation, everyone's lives in the real world are beginning and the gang starts their teaching positions at St. Vladimir's Academy. Rose is going through a whole bunch of stuff – between being Dimitri leaving calming he changed his mind about Tasha's offer and leaving Rose heartbroken to Rose finding out something that is supposed to be impossible – her getting pregnant by Dimitri – is actually possible for her. To teaching and becoming Lissa's Sanctioned Guardian. When Dimitri leaves Rose and the gang after Graduation, what is he thinking? What is real reason did he have to leave in the first place? Can Rose survive without Dimitri? Will he come back to her? If he does come back, will she forgive him and let him into her and her child's life? If he comes back, what will he think of Rose's little surprise? And can she trust him again with her heart?

Three months. It's been three fucking months.

It's been fucking three months since he left. Since Dimitri left. Since he left me for Tasha. Tasha fucking Ozera. The person he said he didn't – no couldn't and wouldn't– ever love and leave me for.

It's also been three months since I got pregnant. With his child.

Something I – we all - thought, no, knew was genetically impossible for Dhampirs. We knew it was impossible for a Dhampir to conceive with another Dhampir. But about a little over a month after he left, I found out I was pregnant. And I knew it was his because I'd only had sex twice in my life.

The first time being the time in the cabin and the second being on Graduation Night. Both with him.

With… Dimitri.

It hurts to even think of his name.

Once I found out, I told everyone everything. Let's just say they got the full report of things.

~~**~**~~**~~ Two Months Ago, Telling Everyone ~~**~~**~~**~~

Lissa was angry at me at first but then was royally – not sure if the pun was intended there… I guess the pun was intended – pissed off at Dimitri.

"I can't believe you, Rose! Why didn't you tell me? Don't you trust me?" Lissa asked firing off questions before I could answer.

"Lissa, I do trust you. I didn't tell you guys before because he would've been fired and I could've been expelled. And before you ask how long this has been going on it, has been going on since we arrived back at the academy from our little 'vacation', Lissa. We fought it at first but it kept getting harder and harder as time went on." I paused looking up at every one. Then I turned to look out the window as I continued.

"When Victor kidnapped you, it wasn't an attack charm like we told everyone. It was a lust charm, and for a lust charm to work there has to be an attraction between the ones that it's intended for. At first it was little things like staring at each other... or him occasionally playing with a strand of my hair whilst moving it out of my face when it would fall in the way... And then there was the night you were kidnapped. That night I saw what happened to you, but after they gagged you there was this sudden urge, I had to obey it. I didn't know what it was. I knew you were in trouble but I couldn't remember what had happened and I was confused. It was like there was static in my brain. But I still could remember that whatever what I couldn't remember had to do with you, Lissa. And while trying to remember what that was, this…voice – yeah I guess you could call it that – a voice in my head that kept telling me to go to Dimitri." I paused again trying to get my emotions under control again.

"I felt like I had to be there. With Dimitri right at that moment. I figured he could help me remember what I forgot; he always told me I could go to him if I needed to talk, so I went to his room. When he opened the door he was just in his pajama pants, as if he was getting ready to go to bed. He had asked me what was wrong but I couldn't answer him, I couldn't think of anything at that moment other than wanting to touch him and kiss him like I had wanted to for so long before. And I felt like I was finally going to be able to that. The way I was acting he thought I was drunk. I briefly thought 'Oh, don't I wish.'" I chuckled at that part of the memory.

"I was about to kiss him but he grabbed me as if to stop me. But as soon as he touched me a feeling like an electric current sparked through me and him. I could tell by the look on his face he forgot everything before him touching me; he looked like he felt the same way as I did, and as if he could think of nothing but touching and kissing me. He did kiss me. And it felt wonderful. Like I was whole – I found the other piece of myself that I had been missing for so long. Still kissing me he picked me up and took me to his bed. When we broke apart I asked him 'Do you think I'm pretty?' He answered in utter seriousness, like he always did no matter what. 'I think you're beautiful. You are so beautiful, it hurts me sometimes.' We almost went all the way that night. If you're wondering what I mean by "almost", I mean when Dimitri took the necklace that Victor had given me off, Dimitri realized what had happened and threw the necklace out the window. As soon as it was outside everything I couldn't remember before came rushing back and we went to get you. We lied to everyone by saying it was an attack charm that delayed us. In a way – if you really think about It – it was an attack charm, I just didn't attack him in the way you guys think I did. Later when I confronted Dimitri about it, he told me to report him but I told him that if I did that he would get fired. He also told me that he didn't think of me that way and that it only happened because of the spell." I told Lissa and everyone.

"I had finally gotten up the nerve to visit Victor in the cells where he was being held for the time being. I had asked the Guardians to see him; telling them I wanted to talk to him about what he had done to you, Lissa. One of the Guardians had ridden with me in the car to go get you and allowed it, taking the other Guardian with him. When they left, I demanded that he break the spell, and finish it off. He played dumb and asked what I meant. 'The spell you placed on me and Dimitri' I demanded. He said 'That spell is done. It burned itself out.' And that we, Dimitri and I, both had to feel something for the spell to work. I, of course, told him he was lying and that it was still there and that Dimitri doesn't feel that way about me. He then told me that Dimitri was lying. When Victor finished saying that Natalie came in, at this point she was a Strigoi. She and I were fighting – I was trapped with no weapon and could get passed her – and I was losing. She'd thrown me up against the wall, making me slam my head pretty hard. Dimitri came in at that point charging down the hall. I remember thinking that he looked like Death in a cowboy duster. He killed Natalie and took me to the clinic. On the way I asked him about what Victor had said. He admitted that he was lying and that he did feel that way, but was trying to refuse to let himself feel that way about me. He said that the reason that we couldn't be together – wasn't because of our age difference or that he was my mentor, though those were both valid reasons, but the real reason – was that we were both going to become your Guardians, Lissa. And that you need two Guardians fully committed to guarding you. And I quote, 'If I let myself love you, I won't throw myself in front of her. I'll throw myself in front of you.' Those were his exact words."

Feeling guilt flow through the bond, I quickly told her – whilst still looking out the window. "Don't worry and don't feel guilty, Lissa. We don't blame you, we figured out a way to be together and we had a plan. The plan was when we finally did get to court, I would guard you and he would be reassigned to be a court guard because that way it would have been more flexible with the shifts and stuff. But that's not going to be happening now."

"Oh and let's not forget the time that we did go all the way." I blushed lightly. "Do you guys remember that time Lissa was attacked by Jessie and Ralf, just before the attack on the school?" I turned slightly to see Christian, Lissa, Adrian, and Eddie nod their heads before turning back to the window. "Well let's just say when Dimitri took me to calm down in the cabin that Tasha Ozera used to use, me calming down wasn't the only thing that happened. And before you ask, Lissa, yes that was my first time." I told them now blushing bright red.

With a sigh I looked away from the window, to look at everyone and to see what reaction I was getting. They were all staring at me wide-eyed, their mouths hanging open in shock. Probably because when we were in court for Victor's trial we lied about the charm whilst under oath to tell the truth. Or could it be that they hadn't really expected that all of that to have happened.

After they all regained their composure from being shocked, they all had different expressions and emotions showing on their faces.

Christian looked pissed. It wasn't till he spoke that we found out he was pissed at Dimitri and Tasha. "So that's why you were acting funny towards Aunt Tasha when we were on the ski trip!" You could tell he was getting even more pissed off because his hands were starting to glow red from restraining his fire magic.

"Yes. I had found out about Tasha's offer to Dimitri. Before I went to get you, Christian, to go after Mason, Eddie and Mia, I had told him to take it. The thing is, I was completely sincere about it. But when we got back to the school from the trip and after I got my marks, he told me that didn't – no couldn't – take her offer because of me. Because he loved me. And because he and his heart belonged to and with me. Until the cabin we tried our best to stay away from each other and the farthest we went was a handful of stolen kisses here and there. The last time we did 'it' was Graduation Night and that was the second time ever. That's how I know for a fact that this is his child. Guardian Dimitri Belikov's child." I finished looking down at my stomach and putting my hand over my small but almost non-existent baby bump.

I wasn't completely used to the idea of me being a mother, but I was getting there. And even if he wasn't here to help me, I was happy I was going to have a child with the man I always have and always will love, no matter what.

Looking up I continued to read the faces of my friends and family.

Adrian, well, he looked like he figured Dimitri leaving me was going to happen sooner or later. He also looked like he was hiding something; I couldn't tell you what, just that he was hiding something.

Both Eddie, my mother and father – who I met at Graduation – looked like they wanted to kill someone. And I believe that someone was Dimitri.

I had to convince my father and mother not to... Though they said if they ever see him again then they are going to have a nice long "talk" with him. As they said that Eddie was nodding along, agreeing with them.

After that we discussed me being pregnant and we figured that I got pregnant by Dimitri because I'm Shadow Kissed. That when Lissa healed me she healed that genetic quirk, thus allowing me to get pregnant by another Dhampir.

~~**~~**~~**~~ Back To The Present ~~**~~**~~**~~

So here I am three months pregnant, living at court with Lissa as her guardian, and no Dimitri.

The funny thing about Dimitri leaving is that when he left, he said that he changed his mind and was going to guard Tasha. So when Tasha showed up a month ago with no Guardian and told us all that Dimitri never accepted her offer, and didn't know what we were talking about; we were all understandably confused. And thing that did – does – it for me? She was telling the truth... because according to both Lissa – who finally got the hang of auras – and Adrian, her aura would show if she was lying and/or hiding something or not.

We couldn't help but wonder what he was doing.

Sitting on my bed, whilst leaning against the window and looking out it, I could help but wonder what he was doing right now. I couldn't help but wonder why he left. And I couldn't help the tears that started to run down my face.

I remember the day that he left like it was yesterday.

But before we go in to the gloom and doom let's recap other events.

At Graduation, when Lissa was called up to get her diploma, Christian ran up to the stage and proposed to her right then and there in front everyone. And of course she said yes.

Christian had told me beforehand that he wanted to propose on Graduation Day, but he didn't know how to do it.

~~**~~**~~**~~Three Months And Two Weeks Before ~~**~~**~~**~~

"Rose!" I heard someone call me.

Turning around I saw Christian running towards me.

"Hey, Sparky. What can the awesome Rose Hathaway do for you?" I asked with a smirk. I couldn't help it, I enjoy teasing him.

"Very funny. Anyway I need your help with something. I'm going to ask Lissa to marry me on Graduation Day but I need help with the how. So will you help me? Also since you're basically her family, I was wondering if you would give us your blessing."

When he said Lissa's name his eyes lit up like Dimitri's did when he's around me. I could tell he really loves her.

"Sure, I'll help you. And yes, you have my blessing. But if you ever hurt her physically or emotionally I will hunt you down – Royal Moroi or not – I will hunt you down and hurt you so badly that you will regret it for the rest of your life. Do you understand me?"

"Yes, I understand. But not because you're threatening me. But because I would never hurt her. I love her too much. I would protect her as well – no matter what, even if meant I would have to die to do so." He spoke with complete sincerity.

"Okay come on, I got a plan." I said giving him an evil smile and acting on the plan that just popped into my head. It was absolutely perfect.

A few minutes later we were knocking on Alberta's door.

"Come in!" Alberta called from the other side.

When we walked she was her behind her desk doing something on her computer. As we walked in she looked up.

"Rose, Christian, can I help you with something?" She asked Guardian Mask in place.

"Yes you can Alb- Guardian Petrov. Christian here wants to propose to Lissa on Graduation Day and asked me to him plan. And I was wondering if when Lissa gets up to get her diploma, while she is up there Christian could go up and ask her there. I have not asked Kirova yet, but since you both will be doing the ceremony, we thought we should ask you as well."

After I was finished speaking she took a moment to think it over.

"Very well. Okay, you have me on board, but you have to ask the headmistress and get the okay from her too." She had a genuine smile across her face as she turned to face Christian. "Congratulations Christian. I know she will say yes." With that she dismissed us.

After leaving her office Christian and I made our way over to Kirova's. When we arrived there, her assistant was shocked to see me there for something over than for being in trouble – if I'd been naughty we'd have a Guardian escorting us.

After checking Kirova's diary and telling us that she was not busy, I went and knocked on her door.

"Come in!" I heard Kirova call from the other side of the door.

The door opened to reveal her doing some kind of paperwork. When she looked up and saw us, she seemed taken aback that we would willingly come to see her.

"Lord Ozera, Miss Hathaway. What did you do this time?" She said giving us both a look of disapproval.

"We didn't do anything. Christian has something to ask you." I said while gently elbowing Christian in the side.

He looked at me confused till I raised my eyebrows and looked between him and Kirova to hint at him.

"Right! Headmistress, I on Graduation day I'm planning on asking Lissa – Princess Dragomir – to marry me. And I didn't know how I was going to do it so I asked Rose here to help me. She suggested that I do it when Lissa goes up to get her diploma while she is still up on stage. So do you think it will be possible?" He asked as he pleaded with his eyes.

As she was thinking about it I added. "We already asked Guardian Petrov about it, since you're both conducting the Graduation Ceremony. She said it was alright with her as long you agreed to it as well, but we were already planning on asking you anyways."

With another look between the two of us and moment to think it through, she nodded her head.

"You have my permission. As long as it is relatively quick I have no problem with it. If that is it then you may go." She said turning her attention back to the papers she was working on before we came in.

We were about to walk out the door when she called to Christian. "Lord Ozera."

As he turned to face her, he looked just as surprised as I was at the tone she used. It was soft, happy and genuinely sincere, but what shocked us the most was that her face – it matched her voice.

"Yes?" Christian answered caught completely off guard.

"Congratulations because I know she will say yes to you. I can tell that you both love each other very much." She said nodding to us and turning her attention back to the paperwork again. With that, we left. Still in the state of shock from before.
Once we were outside the admin building, Christian broke the silence. "Well that was shocking. For one I didn't think she would agree. And secondly, was it just me or was it just me or was she actually nice?"

Sitting down on a bench and staring blankly ahead I answered him. "No it wasn't just you. I can't believe I'm doing this, but the day that we actually agree on something has finally come. I also agree with you on the fact that I can't believe she agreed to it. I thought she was going to turn us down or give us a hard time or both. Wow."

So when Graduation came, Christian did as we planned. And when Lissa said yes to him, he picked her up and spun her around; everyone who was there stood up and applauded. Even if they didn't like the idea of the Dragomir Princess getting married to him, when his parents willingly turned Strigoi, they didn't show it.