weeeeeell, first of all, english is obviously not my mother tongue, so I'm sorry for the huges mistakes you can find in the story. (I really needed to write somethinf in english :S)
The characters belong to Ubisof (too bad ¬¬)
enjoy :)
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You are not here. You are gone. And it's for good. I don't understand…what? I can't speak. I'm trying to…. Why I'm not able to think clearly? I'm paralyzed. I see people around me. Maybe they are talking to me? I don't say anything. My thoughts are puzzled. But I…Slowly. Very slowly I realize what it's all about. Something takes form in my mind. A feeling. I don't like it…I know it will hurt.
The time stops. Is all is clear now. You are gone…GONE! The tears start to drop without my consent. I'm crying. Crying like a baby. I want to stop them before it's too late. No. Please God no. No…where did you go? Why did you go? I'm not able to retain the tears anymore. It hurts. Finally I give up. I allow them to fall freely. They are hot. They are burning my face, suffocating me painfully. I close my eyes. I cover them with the hands. Maybe if I can't see…maybe in that way everything will finish. It's useless. Useless.
The air leaves my lungs. It hurts. My legs are weak. I feel dizzy. I'm falling. I'm in the floor and it doesn't even matter. I cry. My mouth opens. I want to breathe again. It's difficult. No…please tell me that it is a nightmare. I shouldn't let this control me…But…I'm weak... I'm yelling. Yelling like a crazy. Words at random. Phrases without sense. What I'm saying? I do not want to know. I hear your name escaping from my mouth. Please no…no! I do not want this! Stop it! STOP! Nothing is clear. The pain inside me is growing up. It hurts. It hurts too much. I cannot stand this anymore. Please…It's not fair. Why do I have to feel like this? I wasn't supposed to hate you? I don't know why, but I'm yelling loudly. I want to break my voice. I want my throat to bleed. I want something to replace this awful pain. It's too much.
I want to run away. My hands turn into fist. I'm beating the floor. Is that…blood? And then, I hear my own words. I love you. I love you… I love you! I can't stop now. The tears increase. The pain... Desperation. Why those words are so easy to say now? Why? Why did you have to go away…Why my pride allows them to…No please. Stop this. It hurts. I'm scared. Maybe even more than when you were with me. I'm chocking because of this feeling. Breathless. My heart hits my chest. It hurts. It's too late. You will never know the truth…late...too much late. I hate myself for that. I hate the way I miss your hands. Your stupid grin. Your warmth…those lips I will never kiss again…never again. I…please…no…stop. I want…I want…you. I only want you to return to my side! I WANT YOU IN MY LIFE AGAIN! I want to…join you. Go wherever you are. But somehow I know you will not agree with this…right? THEN WHAT SHOULD I DO? "Keep holding on". I hear it. It's your voice. "Keep holding on". Whispering to me.…softly. I can't…please don't say that…
I'm tired. I don't cry anymore. My eyes are dry. I'm cold. I'm weak. I'm alone…I am lonely. Lonely without you. Without your warmth. Without your sweets words that I pretended to hate a few hours ago. I miss you. It hurts. Just…let me go. I fall into unconsciousness. Everything is dark. Everything is quiet. But the pain is still present. Then I see your face. Smiling to me. It hurts. Don't do that. Please… I feel my tears falling again. I want you…I need you. I love you. I'm sorry. I miss you …it hurts. Keep holding on.
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