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We have been sailing for more than the last 2 days, and the days seemed to become longer, the nights darker and the storíes left to tell sadder. Gimli and I have been sharing a cabin and until the night of the third day on sea I was able to hide from him, afraid of what I could possibly say. Or what we wouldn't say. There was no „great mission" anymore, there was now „main topic" we could talk about. There was nothing I could say that wouldn't involve my life and my feelings. I was afraid of telling him what I felt. What if he rejected me? What if he didn't feel the same way? What if I wouldn't even be able to regain the relationship we had before? There's nowhere to go to on this ship, nowhere left to hide. And so it happened, that I , hiding under the deck, worrying about myself and the feelings I was so sure to carry with me for the rest of my long long life, was found by my best friend, war-companion and – unfortunately – crush.
„Watcha doing here lad?" Gimlis little round face was forced through a hole in the ceiling. „I've been searching you for the whole evening? Why aren't you in our cabin?"
„Oh, I … I was a bit dizzy and I thought maybe it would be better outside" blood rushed through my face making me feel hot.
„But you are not outside. You're hidden underneath this deck, next to the food and the wine."
„I couldn't stand seeing this nothingness of sea anymore." By now I was sure I was glowing like a torch, driven by this lie.
I couldn't see his face expression, but he seemed to be satisfied with my answer because he drew back and opened the hold. The moment I closed the door of the cabin he turned on his heel and faced me. „What were you doing there? I know you cannot get tired of that magnificent sea. So tell me, what was it that made you hide? Like a coward?"
His words felt like a sharp knife poked into my heart. I was about to open my mouth but then I thought better of it and closed it again. It has come as I suggested, he doesn't love me, he doesn't want me. Now that we don't have no war to fight, no cause that could unify us again. Only the sight of him and me forever on the Undying Lands.
With sad eyes I looked up at him, finding that my eyes have lain on the floor for the whole time. „You... I...", I gulped. I knew that I would have to say this to him if I would like to be able to look him in the eye ever again. It would be the only way he would maybe consider still being my friend.
One final deep breath then I opened my mouth again: „Gimli I... I feel very .. drawn toward you. And I... I was afraid that now that everything is changing you wouldn't feel the same or even reject me as a friend and leave me forever alone. I hid so I won't have to face the maybe anymore. So I could live with the idea of you loving me. I..." Suddenly a rough finger touched my lips making me shush. „You can face thousands of orcs, warriors... enemies at once but you can't face your best friend?" A little laugh left him and his lips curled the way I loved it the most.
„You don't understand.. I don't see you as my best friend anymore. Not only. You're so much more. You're my soulmate my one and only. Le melin. Gimli, Le melin."
My heart beat like crazy.