Should I say,
what I think,
clear as day?
Should I feel,
as I do,
this way when I look at you?
Should my heart,
skip a beat,
hard enough to stop my feet?
Should my lungs,
catch my breath,
when I hear your laugh?
Should my soul,
be so light,
when I have you in sight?
Should my eyes,
seek the floor,
when I feel your gaze?
Should my mouth,
lose my words,
when it's you I look towards?
Should my mind,
run so fast,
when with you my stutter is here to last?
Should my face,
betray my thoughts,
when I blush around you lots?
I should tell you,
how I feel,
because with you it would be real.
My heart is yours,
if it's yours to want,
I just have trouble being blunt.
I cannot say,
to you,
how I feel outright in anyway.
I flirt,
subtle as it may be,
I wish you would notice and talk to me.
I don't know,
if you feel the same,
if you don't only me will it maim.
If you feel,
as I do,
I could only hope to cherish you.
If you flirt,
I may not know,
obliviousness is my foe.
I may notice,
but dare not hope,
if I were to misread I could not cope.
That first step,
I cannot take,
but you I never could hate.
Were you to ask,
even if I didn't feel the same,
I could never hold you to blame.
Friends,
I hate to lose,
and that is why I can never outright tell you.
I care too much,
it tends to hurt,
when I can't say it I feel like I've been dealt a punch.
We may be friends,
and more I want to be,
but I don't want to hurt you or for you to hurt me.
This crush,
is really real,
I need help telling you how I feel.
Be Still My Demiromantic Heart - KJH (RevanRoseMills)