Seras' Rage
The medical blood bag was shoved into her face for the fifth time.
"Drink your blood police girl!"
"NO", Seras nearly screamed, running from the door to the middle her bed/coffin.
She curled up into a protective ball and hugged her folded legs to her large chest, as if by doing so her Master and her "dinner" would disappear.
Wishful thinking.
"Police girl, how many times must we go through with this?!" growled a tall pale skinned figure with heavy black boots, clad in red from his trench coat to his old fashion tie, to his wide-brimmed hat. Frustration and annoyance were evident in his voice. It was also shown on his face, since he had long discarded his orange tinted shades on the wooden table.
This didn't help poor Seras in the least as she huddled herself tighter and rocked back and forth. She lowered her head against her knees, allowing her unruly blonde hair cover her eyes.
And just like Seras had grown more frightened, Alucard grew more irritated.
Taking of his hat and sitting on Seras's bed, he ran a gloved hand through his (currently short) black hair.
"Dammit police girl, why won't you just drink it?!? We've been through this at least a hundred times already- and I don't have all night! Forget your stupid humanity, and eat so I can go!"
Seras popped her head up at the sound of her master's words.
He's making it sound as if it's MY FAULT!!!
Red-hot anger began bubbling within her as her mouth shot off before she could stop it.
"It's not like I asked you to stay her and force me to drink blood! If you're so busy, why don't you just leave!?!?"
Now it was Alucard's turn to have his head pop up, while giving an icy glare that made Seras's boiling anger cool right on down.
"Don't you think I would've left your disgraceful ass if I could?? Integra ordered me to do this! Other wise, I would leave you here to starve to death and go on with my night!"
Suddenly Seras felt a pang of sadness in her heart.
Don't get her wrong, she did wish for him to leave, but the reason for why he came into her room, the reason why he had this commotion over her not drinking blood in, the reason why he mentioned how she'd die without it, wasn't quite the reason she had hoped for…
Is he truly not concerned if I drink blood or not? Would he really not care about my death?
Seras fell silent for a little while, trying the best to ignore her master's glare in her direction. She had just recently mastered the technique of blocking her Master Alucard from reading her mind, so she was able to think to herself in peace.
'Don't you think I would've left your disgraceful ass if I could?? Integra ordered me to do this! Other wise, I would leave you here to starve to death and go on with my night!'
So he only came down here and tried to literally force-feed me just because Integra told him to??
A mixture of hurt and anger made warm bitter tears show brightly underneath her blue eyes. It took all the courage she could muster staring into his blood red eyes, and talking at the same time. For a while now she's been wondering on a question, and it was too late to go back.
"Master Alucard… Why didn't you leave me in Cheddar?"
A slight hint of surprise ran across his eyes at the sudden change of subject.
"It was you're choice police girl. You chose to come with me. There's nothing you can do to change that."
It was your choice police girl.
It was your choice…
Your choice
He had always said that. Always reminded her that it was her words, her consent that damned her to live the life of the undead.
My "choice"...
Bullshit.
Jumping on the bed from a sitting to a standing position, Seras, for the very first time in a long time, just let go…
"Yeah, to be dead or to be undead- you call that a choice?? Not to mention, I hadn't the faintest idea what the hell you were!! I wanted to LIVE! I agreed to go with you cause I thought you'd save my LIFE! Not give me another one! A life of destroying monsters, drinking blood, and sleeping in coffins! If I knew back then what I know now, I would've said 'HELL NO!'.
Alucard lifted his head to stare into the face of his standing fledgling, only to see her turn around and face the wall, striking it with an in human punch. He raised an eyebrow.
"No family! No friends! No comforting shelter I can call home! I'll never get to be married! I will never get to have children! Even if I pretended to be normal, fool myself to think I'm human again and that nothing's wrong, it'd never work! I WILL NEVER BE AMONGST HUMANS IN THE DAYLIGHT EVER AGAIN!!!" Seras shouted at the top of her lungs while punching the wall, leaving large cracks as she screamed the last sentence.
Each punch symbolizing her increasing anger and despairs for the fact that everything she just said was true.
And there is nothing she can do about it.
She was now considered as a monster; a child of the night; Hellsing's second strongest weapon; and a servant to the immortal, sadistic Alucard.
Though listening to every word his fledgling said, seeing her frustration build by each sentence as she punched the wall, feeling the misery and anguish that clouded her mind, it did not stop him in the least from saying his cruel words.
"You're pathetic police girl. You've already chosen your path. Now stop disgusting me with your dull complaints. Except the darkness, then you can drink my blood and become a true vampire."
Seras froze…
She had poured her heart out and had been shut down as soon as she stopped.
She knew Alucard wasn't merciful. She knew he could not even remotely come close to the emotion of "sympathy". She knew he could not understand anything unless it was an order from Integra, or the enemy challenging him to a fight to the death, or the time his blood packets would arrive.
But he had gone too far.
Alucard looked at his fledgling, sensing the immense aura radiating off of her body. Alucard's brows furrowed.
He had never seen his police girl as something threatening enough to make a grown man wet his pants.
Yet now, even Alucard himself truly considered the option of silently scooting out of the room and leave Seras alone for a while.
But before he could put his plan into action, Seras turned her turned her body and crouched down to her Master, until they were face to face. The Nosferatu noted that he was indeed in some deep shit since his fledgling's eyes- a beautiful innocent blue- altered into a not so innocent red.
And with a hateful glare, the best glare that Seras Victoria had ever effectively made, she lowered her voice into a hushed tone.
Alucard for the first time in centuries formed goosebumps, and each word coated with venom, she spoke these words…
"Master, the only reason I'd ever drink your blood would be so I can runaway from Hellsing, get sent after by you, and hopefully get shot in the head, and leave what I've become and YOU behind!!!"