What Could Have Been
By: Twist
A/N: An angsty fic of mine. It's a weird romance ficcy, Minnie's still in love with ol' Tommy. Awwww. Well, read, I know it'll stink.
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I think back and wonder, what went wrong? He had always been rejected, beaten, hated, but what drove him to the brink? Who pushed him over? I constantly remember the last time we were together, the last time we kissed. He had seemed warm, as always, and his kiss had washed that wonderful wave of bliss over me. Like a wave of chocolate.
Chocolate, like the eyes I remember. They had tried to conceal the fact he was scared, only God knows what he was scared of. Those chocolate brown eyes always told me what was wrong with him. They were scared, terribly.
I remember our last year together, we were both Anamagi, I, a cat, He, a stallion. In a way, it reflected his personality. Wild, free, unchained. Over the last year he got thinner, paler, less open about things. I always asked him what was wrong, he'd always brush it aside. Was that what went wrong? I didn't ask him enough? Perhaps I could have helped him, it's too late now.
Yet, every time I see a picture of the monster he has become I feel like there's something in those crimson eyes as well. Like there's something in there, fighting to get out. Perhaps he is still unrestrained? Maybe, one day to be free?
Every time I think about that it makes me sick. He's stuck, stuck inside a cold, hard, outer shell that chains him within. It would be worse than Azkaban. And the one I love is suffering through it.
Perhaps I'm just being silly. Perhaps he is really gone forever, but I can't shake the feeling he's still around, trying to get help.
Maybe that's why I'm so strict, maybe I am afraid another will go astray as badly as he. Is that it? I can't answer that. No one can. Maybe if I tried to forget him I would be free of his haunting memory.
But I can't. Every night he haunts me, haunts my sleep. Those frightened brown eyes, pleading for someone to help.
And I failed to do so.
I failed...
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A/N: Wow, that sucked. It'll only be up for a max of two days, unless I get good reviews. Keep in mind, this is my first attempt at a romance/drama fic, so don't be to hard on poor ol' me. Thanks for reading my depressing story, R/R!! =)