A/N: Inspired by the song Ever by Emilie Autumn. Go listen to it on Youtube. Emilie is awesome ^.^ Oh and it was also inspired by a fanfic I rad a while ago (I can't remember the name of the fic, though -.-;)
Did you know that you are ever in my mind?
No matter how much effort I wasted in to stopping myself,
My thought strayed to you each time.
Then I'd think – No! Not again! Not ever!
I'd promise not to let this happen again.
I've been hurt too much,
And hurt too many,
So then why?
My head knows clearly that nothing will come out of this except pain,
Yet when you walk by,
Who does my mind stray to,
And my eyes follow?
You.
I tried to run away,
I really did.
I was even gone for three years.
Three whole agonizing, slow years.
Yet when I returned
From my Gethsemane,
There you were again.
The feeling still there,
But even stronger.
So will you please stay away,
Far away?
Before I impulsively do something
And watch you run away from me,
Your face full of disgust.
Before I lose
What little I have
Of you.
Do you want to hurt me so much?