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A single tear slid down Regina's cheek as she watched Emma say "I do"

She closed her eyes and just for a moment she let herself imagine that Emma was saying it to her. It was a wonderful moment which was way too soon interrupted by Ruby who was sitting next to her on the wooden bench in the old church.

"Doesn't she look beautiful?" Ruby whispered and Regina could only nod in fear that her voice might break.

It was so hard to watch Emma stand in front of Mother Superior putting a ring on Neal's finger.

'It should be me' she thought bitterly and took in a shaky breath.

"Are you alright?" Ruby whispered. Regina didn't look very healthy. Her skin was pale and her bottom lip was quivering but the most obvious sign was the tear running down her cheek.

Without a second thought Ruby took Regina's hand in her own and caressed the back of her hand with her thumb.

"I'm fine" Regina answered but her answer was lacking conviction.

Ruby simply looked at her with understanding eyes. After the whole group including Henry had returned from Neverland Ruby and Regina got closer and now even Regina admitted that Ruby was a friend of hers. Although Regina was obviously a very private person the closer they got the more Regina also opened. Ruby had never pushed her to talk about her feelings but eventually Regina had come around and told her new friend about her suppressed attraction for Emma Swan. The more the both talked the more obvious it became that it had less to do with attraction and more with love. Regina was head over heels in love with Emma Swan.

The big problem with that was that Emma didn't feel the same way or why should she have accepted Neal's proposal? On the contrary Regina never confronted Emma with her feelings and probably wouldn't now that Emma and Neal were a married couple.

Silently both of them watched the rest of the ceremony. All faces around them showed total delight. Their savior had finally found her happy ending. From the back Ruby could she Snow's shoulders shake, she was probably crying and also Charming had a hanky in his hands. When Ruby and Regina had become friends Ruby had found herself in a conflict of interest because Snow was still one of her best friends but Regina was now too. It had been really difficult in the beginning but they all had agreed on being civil with each other and they avoided encounters as well as possible.

Ruby and Regina were the last ones to walk out of the church. Regina was unusually quiet.

"Do you go to the party in the diner?" Ruby asked.

"Uhm, no. No, I don't think I would be welcomed there"

"But you are invited, aren't you?"

"Yes, but I don't think they want me there. I'm still after all the black sheep of the family" Regina smiled sadly. "Don't worry, I don't care. I'm just going to go home and enjoy the afternoon"

"You know, I could come with you" Ruby offered but Regina only shook her head.

"No, there's no need but thank you. I really appreciate your offer but I don't need anyone looking after me. After all I'm not a child anymore"

"Gina, you know that's not what I meant" Ruby sighed. Regina's way of getting defensive was sometimes really annoying.

"I know, I'm sorry. Just enjoy the party, okay? You can tell me how it was tomorrow" Regina offered her friend one last smile, then turned around and left.

Ruby sighed again. For some reason she felt guilty for letting Regina go home all alone but what was she supposed to do? She was caught between two stools. On the one hand she wanted to help Regina to be more integrated but on the other hand she also had to bear in mind that the Charming family no matter what they said about family still didn't want Regina to be near them. Henry still lived with the Charmings in the apartment and Regina was still living in the way too big house in Mifflin Street.

That was exactly where Regina was heading at the moment. Tears were freely running down her cheeks but that was no problem. The streets were empty. Everyone was on their way to Granny's diner to celebrate the newly-weds. Although she was invited (but not appreciated) she didn't or better couldn't spend her time over there. All the happiness would probably kill her. There would be speeches about the True Love Emma and Neal shared and about how happy everyone was that they finally would be together until death do them part.

After their successful rescue of Henry from Neverland Regina thought that now also she could be part of the team of good-doers but she was wrong. Henry only had had eyes for Emma and it was unimportant to him that she had been there as well. Now back in Storybrook Henry didn't live with her. He had only come to her house once more to get his stuff out of his old room. That had been over a month ago. The only person willing to spend time with her was Ruby and Regina was really glad for that because she was tired of the constant loneliness.

Regina opened her door and immediately made her way over to her study. Sitting behind her desk drinking a glass of her famous apple cider gave her a feeling of comfort. It was like all the bad things in her life never happened and for a short moment she could let her mind rest and think of nothing.

But not today. Today the image of Emma Swan in her wedding dress didn't leave her alone. She looked so stunning and beautiful. It should have been her who married Emma Swan not him. From one moment to the other Regina felt anger flaring up inside of her and with a quick motion she threw her glass across the room where it hit a mirror and glass and mirror burst into thousand pieces that flew all across the room. Before Regina could react she felt a sharp pain in her chest. When she looked down she could see...blood. Lots of blood and a huge piece of glass stuck in her chest. Suddenly her vision blackened at the edges. Regina slid from her chair, fell to the floor and remained unmoving midst of thousands of pieces of glass.

TBC?

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