Tired of being what you want me to be,
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I never made you satisfied did I? Never once you where proud of me.
Don't know what you're expecting of me,
put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow.)
every step that I take is another mistake to you
I can´t kill Voldemort, I know you killed Grindewald but I can´t kill Voldemort. I´m not strong enough.
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
is be more like me and be less like you
Seeing you fall from that tower made me numb. I can´t feel you´re eyes on me anymore, watching, protecting, calming and supporting. I just want to be Harry, just Harry. Not some hero, not some wise man who helps everybody. Just Harry.
Can't you see that you're smuthering me
holding too tightly afraid to lose control
'cause everything that you thought I would be
is falling apart, right in front of you
(caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
every step that I take is another mistake to you
(caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
and every second I waste is more than I can take
You kept information from me to protect me yet I can hardly breathe. I did some stupid things didn´t I? I made you dissappointed. I try to make you proud but my own heart is telling me to be happy instead. I can´t take this anymore.
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
is be more like me and be less like you...
I miss you now, more than ever. Yet it feels like I can breathe. I know now, that I can´t make you happy. I just want to be me, not you.
and I know I may end up failing too but I know
that you were just like me with someone dissapointed
in you
Someone was dissapointed in you, just as I´m sure you are in me. I´m trying. Just so you know. I might fail. But I´m trying.
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
is be more like me and be less like you...
Trying to be what you want me to be..
Trying to be what you wanted me to be is sufficating, but I am trying.
(A/N: just some thing I liked to try. It seems like I´m better at oneshots and songfics than at actual stories. Maybe I should just stick to these.
R&R please. And if you have a story you think I would like please tell me about it? Thanks.. )