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The islands mentioned in this story are real and the color names is one poetic way of calling them.
Lost in the Ocean
BPOV
The noise coming from inside the pub was like torture to my ears. I love parties, music and clubs but today instead of me being the "fun girl"… everyone knows –I felt like a prisoner in my own party.
There are more than twenty friends and acquaintances of mine…friends of friends, which I spend a lot of time with. Today oddly enough makes me feel even more alone than usual.
It's my 18th birthday… I'm away from home, it's a non-supervision party and I'm surrounded by friends.
I don't understand why I feel so alone.
I was looking at the huge glass door, while I light another cigarette. I can see each of my friends, having fun… while I'm out here with a beer… instead of being with all of them.
"All that she wants" was loud and clear. I used to love to dance to this with Alice and Seth. The three of us always bring up the most unusual dance when we're together at the club. The girls go crazy with Seth's moves and guys get jealous. Only we know that Seth is harmless to us girls. He looks at us like sisters… like the ones he wishes he had.
He's going through hell with his sister Leah because she found out his gay. Alice and I have known even before he admitted it to himself and it doesn't bother us. It's just one more girl around… Well it's not the same… but you get the point.
He's very good-looking and even I had a secret crush on him, but then I met James. We hung out a couple times… until we found out we liked to be with each other.
James is kinda my boyfriend. We don't like to label the three year relationship so we don't. We hang out, go to parties with our friends, used to smoke some weed.
Don't judge I know its wrong… that's why I stopped. I drink a lot and that's about it.
James is a bartender and usually when there's a couple contest that inquires us to drink B-52's… we win all the time –weird I know –but I really like the stuff!
Sometimes when I can escape from my parents eyes… I run to the pub so I can be with him. He makes me feel first-class and wanted… even special… like I'm the only girl in the world.
James looks at me with that special look… the one that makes my heart beat faster and makes me very happy. He also respects me and the way I think. That's important… but I don't love him.
I hate that about me but I don't love him. I like him very much. I'd do anything in the world to see him happy. I'd prefer killing myself then to hurt him. Maybe that's why I'm out here...
"Hey Bella, wake up! We're all here for you and you're out here alone?" Alice's voice woke me up from my thoughts
"Sorry Alice, I was just resting my ears. I'll be back in a few minutes ok? Just tell them I'm smocking or whatever you want." I tried to smile but I guess I wasn't successful enough… because I saw Alice's worried face
"Bella, what's wrong? Didn't you like the surprise James did? He came a long way… just to be with you on your birthday party
"I liked it. I mean I think I liked the surprise… forget it I really don't want to think about that now. Just let me be… for a little bit and I'll be inside soon."
Alice kissed my cheek and left me again with my thoughts. She knows me even more then I know myself.
I turned around to watch the ocean.
I enjoyed the surprise party for me that James concocted. I hadn't heard from him in three days… until the surprise –with his presence outside my dorm. To many surprises for one day if you asked me, but I can't complain.
He came in a yacht with some friends from our island-Blue island- just to be with me today. I'm supposed to be happy right? Well… that's me… always unsatisfied with everything in my life.
Hell! I'm just eighteen I have the right to want everything out of life don't I? Or am I supposed to be happy with my boyfriend appearing at a party after three months without talking to him?
Yeah! We haven't spoken in three months.
He doesn't like to use the cell I gave him before I left and when I call his house or work he's never around or so they say. So I have to give my messages to my friend Kate that works with him, and I suppose she does give him the messages… because sometimes she tells me something that he'd like to know.
So no! Sorry… I'm not happy with this surprise...
There is another reason for my bad mood.
After three months without any real contact with James, another guy in our group Jacob… has been there to cheer me up. He'd always say that maybe the guy doesn't like to talk on the phone, or maybe he was planning a surprise.
Note to self: ask Jake if he knew about James's surprise.
Jake always said nice things to keep me from going crazy –about James's silence. Jake is always there... always
I'd just be happy with his company and of course with Seth and Alice's –trying to forget all about James.
Alice is my best friend and when I decided to skip college and go try my luck in a technical school, she decided to come along. She's trying to go to college but the one she's been applying to… didn't have any vacancies this year… so she decided to wait until she can try again. Like she always says… we're young and she knows exactly what she wants no matter how long she has to wait.
She's always like that… in everything in her life. She's been with Jasper since they were fifteen and they're very happy together but not in a very serious way. They're faithful just because they love each other too much to be with any one else… but they don't have to be in touch all the time.
Jasper doesn't want to go to college or technical school so he went to work in father's office. My dad is the Chief of Police of our little city, but he has to cover the whole Blue island. It's not that big anyway.
When my mom decided she didn't want to do paper work for my dad anymore, Jasper was still making up his mind… on what he wanted to do with his life… so the invitation to work in my father's office was a welcomed one.
I really won't be surprised if he decides to become a cop too.
"Baby, what are you doing outside alone?" I heard James and turned around to face him.
"I was just thinking about life… nothing much. I'm ready to go inside now." I was about to stand up when he stopped me holding my arm
"Bella, I... – sometimes" James stutters, more when he's nervous "I...I'm staying at a hotel near your dorm and I was thin...thin...thinking that maybe you co...could st...stay with me to...tonight. I'm leaving tomorrow –you know." He stated.
"James, I don't mind staying with you… but you know our rule… so if you don't pass that line –we'll be ok.
"Ok baby, thanks. I know I haven't been the perfect boyfriend but I've really missed you. It hurts too much talking on the phone with you… when I just want to forget everything and be with you
I saw tears in his eyes, and briefly remembered that this was the second time in three years that I've saw them. The first time was when I told him I was coming here. I had to stop that, before he started to cry.
"James, you know this is important to me. You have your life the way you want… I don't. It's only going to be six more months then I'm back.
I heard the first keys of my favorite song starting to play in the pub and wished I was alone to appreciate it the way it should be, then I heard him try to sing the chorus
"Promise me you'll wait for me,
'cos I'll be saving all my love for you,
And I will be home soon
Promise me you'll wait for me,
I need to know you feel the same way too,
And I'll be home,
I'll be home soon…"
"Remember Bella? You used to listen to this song over and over the last week you were home. Now I listen to it all the time and the guys are going nuts!"
I tried to imagine all the guys in the pub listening to Promise Me and I really just started laughing.
I suck!
His face was so sad when I looked at him… that I felt even worse and embraced him.
"Sorry James... I was laughing about the image of the guys listening to this with all that beer going around and I just… sorry" I pecked his lips in a way –to excuse myself but that was a mistake. Like always he wanted more, so I had to break the embrace.
"I have to go inside, care to join me?" I asked.
His face said more than his mouth. He was disappointed that I was going in when we were outside alone for the first time in three months. I felt like shit again and was about to change my mind when he said,
"You go Baby. I'll be there after a smoke."
I was leaving but remembered something important and turned back right before the last chorus of my song was done.
"James, thank you for coming… I really appreciate your visit." With that being said I went in to enjoy the rest of my party… knowing that this night wasn't going to be easy to sleep through.
EPOV
"Jessica, I really don't feel comfortable crashing into someone's birthday party!" I huffed.
"Edward, relax… they won't even notice you. They're my friends. You're my friend and you're alone so come with me… please?" Jess begged.
"What if…" As per usual she'd cut me off
"Ed, I don't wanna go alone ok? Be my date, please!" She pressed.
She knows me very well...with those begging eyes I'd kill someone for her "Ok let's go!"
"Thanks!" She kissed me and dragged me out of my room
Jessica and I have known each other ever since we were kids. A few years ago I went to mainland with my parents and we kept in touch. She even convinced me to come to this technical school before college.
It was a new thing on the island and she really wanted me there. We're like best-brother/sister-friends. Weird definition I know but it is what it is. We don't fight like siblings usually do… we see nothing more happening with each other –other than friends. Everyone around us thinks this is cute and that eventually we will came out and say we're in love or something but we know better.
"Hey Jess, what's the birthday girls name again?" I asked.
"Bella… Isabella Swan, she's my roommate… Remember I told you? Bella and Alice have been my friends since school and we've managed to get the same room… with Angela of course."
Jessica doesn't like Angela very much, she's a great girl and very nice to everyone.
"I've never understood why you hate Angela so much! She's very nice… what is it with you two?" I eyed her.
"Angela keeps telling me how pretty I look… how good my jeans fit… how my hear looks great and so on… its creepy!" Jess explained.
"Jess, come on… the girl is being nice –saying good things about you and you don't like her?" I rolled my eyes.
"Ed, she's gay." She whispered the last word and it made me laugh.
"Jess I believe the correct name is lesbian and no matter what she says… you won't be one –unless you like it. She's not like your vampires–bite and change humans in vampires!" I chuckled.
"Hey! Leave my vampires alone… I know that but I feel weird around her. It's like... I don't know but... it's like I'm always waiting for her to grab me, or kiss me and that makes me nervous." She shivered.
"Jess, do you have feelings for her? Like more then friends?" I asked.
"I don't know Ed, that's what makes me nervous and makes me dislike her. I hate these feeling and it drives me crazy." She waved her hand in the air.
"Jess, maybe you should try to be her friend. We have six more months to live here so let's not make enemies, when we can make friends ok? Give Angela a chance. Maybe she's just being nice and if she's in to you… who knows? I believe she's the kind if girl that will wait for you to make the first move." I explained.
"See… that's why I don't want to be friends with her. What if …" she trailed on.
Now it was my turn to cut her off "What if nothing! I never saw Angela doing anything wrong around here… I do believe she'll respect you. Maybe you're being a coward because you felt something for her." I pressed.
With this last statement I shut her up. I love my friend but living in a small island sometimes makes people think wrong about different ways of living. I was one of those examples. As a "mainlander" I was consider an outsider on the island and now I was an outsider on the mainland because I was studying on an island. I know how people can judge others just because they don't think, live or like the same way they do.
When we arrived at the pub the loud music rang through my ears. I bet I'm going to have a headache tomorrow.
"Will you promise to dance with me?" Jessica asked just before my ears popped because of the loud "Ace of Base" "All that she wants" booming… so I just nodded to answer Jessica.
The place was small and cozy so everyone dancing filled the little dance floor –next to the bar… where I went immediately –asking for a beer.
The good thing about living here is that we can drink when we're eighteen and because most of us came here all the time… we don't show any I.D.
The first time I came here I had to show it of course but coming here… almost every day they already know me and most of the students
"Hey Edward" I heard Sam the bartender yell at me "I thought you said you wouldn't be in today!"
"I told you… I wasn't invited but Jess said it was ok." I yelled over the music and pointed to Jess.
Some guy that was next to me said, "Don't worry man, Bella doesn't care about that crap… invitations I mean and this was a surprise party after all. I'm Jacob." He stretched his hand out for a handshake, which I took.
"Hi I'm Edward. Thanks for that. I hate crushing in, but I was threatened by my girlfriend… well she's not my "girlfriend"… she's a girl and a friend" I explained –I felt ridiculous. "Do you know Bella?" I asked.
"Hell ya! She's a wonderful girl. I met her when she got here and never left her side. It sucks that she has a boyfriend, especially because he doesn't deserve her." Jacob stated.
I'm not really into gossip, but this caught my attention, "And why is that?"
"She's always worried about him but he spent the last three months without talking to her and today… here he is… a surprise gift! I wish he never came." He lowered his head down to my ear and I could smell the beer on his breathe.
"You see, I'm trying to... you know… make her forget about him. She's really special to me. I think she's the one, but for now she only sees me as a friend. One of her best friends and that… man… that sucks!" His drunken slur came out.
Ok… system overload, too much information. Being a computer geek this is something I say and think a lot… whatever.
"So where is she?" I asked –looking around… trying to find… I really don't know what because I really don't know what she looks like.
"She's out there smoking… or something. Alice went out there and… and she's ok." Jake said.
Alice? Ohh right the other roommate. I should be taking notes on this stuff. I'm weird!
"So… where's the boyfriend?" I nosed.
"See that guy over there," Jake pointed to a group of guys so I was clueless, "the one with the bad ass looking, dirty blond hair?" He continued to point –until I made him out.
Ok… is dirty blond hair even a color? But it helped… I think? I could at least identify "the bad ass."
"Yeah I think so. You two don't get a long?" I assumed.
"Nah, I'm from a Black island. On my island we don't have high school so I went to Blue island to study… he was already working at one of the pubs we used to go to. The guys and I had a..."misunderstanding." "His guys" and we never got along much." Jake went on to explain.
So many things going on in these little islands... Nice. Ok I feel like a girl with all this gossip, but I couldn't help myself, "How come you never met Bella?" I asked.
"Well after that... "misunderstanding" I avoided the pub and in school we had different classes –different friends. We only spoke when we got here."
"That's strange, they're island isn't so big that people can't run in too each other, once in a while, right?" I eyed him.
"I don't know, maybe it was meant to be… that I'd find her here and fall in love with her." He sighed.
This guy has some serious problems. He's in love with his best friend… that has a bad ass boyfriend. I felt sorry for him.
"Have you told her yet?" I asked.
"Are you crazy? She's very loyal to that son of a bitch and I prefer to have her friendship and than nothing at all… I can wait. He'll screw up… I just know it. Oh no!"
"What?" I looked around to try to figure out what was wrong.
"Her favorite song." His face was a mist of sadness and hurt
"Promise Me" by "Beverly Craven"... figures... a love song for a girl that has her heartbroken because of a bad boyfriend. Hell that's one of my favorite songs too and I'm a guy! Yes I know already I'm weird!
When the music was about to end my cell vibrated… so I picked it up and saw it was my roommate. I went outside to take the phone call… giving that Jacob guy a sigh… pointing to my cell. When I was leaving for the door I passed by Jess and by answering the call… I'd made her sigh.
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