A/N: This is my first fanfic in English. I'm from Holland so my grammar can be pretty bad. I really don't mind if people tell me about it. It only helps me so please say!
The title is from a song called Adrift by Ilse de Lange. I don't own any of it, neather do I own any of the characters.
Preface.
It feels like I'm drowning. Like I'm living under a constant cover of water. And I can't get up. My heart is beating, but it feels like someone took it from me and stabbed it with a knife. I hear what people say, but I don't really pay attention. It's not coming trough the water. I want to go up for air. But I can't seem to move. Not even the sun comes trough. I wish someone would come to kill me. But nobody can see me. My sight is clouded. And it seems like water filled my ears. It feels like water filled my whole body.
On the other hand, it feels good. I feel so free, drowning. Flouting in the water. Like I'm weightless. I don't even need the air. I could stay down here for ever. And nobody would really care. Nobody would really try to reach me. Afraid to get sucked in the water. Just like me.
To bad this is all just a dream. In reality I see the things to sharp. And every sound I hear is so loud. I'm not even in the water. I don't feel weightless. It feels like something is holding me down. Like I have a huge weight on my shoulders. The only true thing is, that I need someone to rescue me.
From myself. Before I'm really drowning.