I thought I'd finally be free when he put me in that coffin. I thought
I'd finally be allowed to die.But I didn't deserve it; I didn't deserve
that freedom, that one little release.
All I can do now is sleep. I'm tired. I probably can't even walk.
I have killed thousands of times, innocent, guilty; sometimes I killed just to keep from being inconvenienced. I have never been sorry for one of them. She changed that, to me she was the most precious thing in the whole world; compared to her I was just a thing to be hated. I felt sickened by myself, for who I am, who I chose to be. I began to hate myself for what I'd become. She'd turned me away for that man... No not man... He does not even deserve to be called human. But neither do I. For whom I was. For whom I am. For what I am. For what I've done.
The voices speak of blood, destruction and death. Constantly taunting me, tearing my mind apart. Most are only a faint whisper but they will grow louder. I can hear the one who calls himself the Galian Beast clearly now. He's laughing at my torment, forcing me to relieve the worst memories of my life. Relive all those murders, all those tortures, re-experiencing all the pain I have ever been through, reliving all the horrors, all the suffering, now with a sense of guilt. I found myself unable to die. Unable to gain that one small freedom. I cannot repent through my death because I cannot die.
All I can do is sleep.
These nightmares shall be my punishment.
For all those people I can never apologize to.
For the woman who I could not save.
And for her son who suffers for what I failed to do.
All I can do is sleep.
These nightmares shall be my punishment.
And my atonement.
An eternal sleep filled with nightmares of blood, death, suffering, and pain.
My punishment from all those I will never be able to apologize too. All the things I will never be to apologize for.
A/N: I should probably lay off the Demon Ororon for a while, it's fing with me brain and me writings.
Kindda wish I could sleep, 30 years of it would be nice... Insomnia is a bitch. God I miss sleep. (This has been a product of three days of no sleep. If you find your purchase to be faulty we will not give you a refund)
All I can do now is sleep. I'm tired. I probably can't even walk.
I have killed thousands of times, innocent, guilty; sometimes I killed just to keep from being inconvenienced. I have never been sorry for one of them. She changed that, to me she was the most precious thing in the whole world; compared to her I was just a thing to be hated. I felt sickened by myself, for who I am, who I chose to be. I began to hate myself for what I'd become. She'd turned me away for that man... No not man... He does not even deserve to be called human. But neither do I. For whom I was. For whom I am. For what I am. For what I've done.
The voices speak of blood, destruction and death. Constantly taunting me, tearing my mind apart. Most are only a faint whisper but they will grow louder. I can hear the one who calls himself the Galian Beast clearly now. He's laughing at my torment, forcing me to relieve the worst memories of my life. Relive all those murders, all those tortures, re-experiencing all the pain I have ever been through, reliving all the horrors, all the suffering, now with a sense of guilt. I found myself unable to die. Unable to gain that one small freedom. I cannot repent through my death because I cannot die.
All I can do is sleep.
These nightmares shall be my punishment.
For all those people I can never apologize to.
For the woman who I could not save.
And for her son who suffers for what I failed to do.
All I can do is sleep.
These nightmares shall be my punishment.
And my atonement.
An eternal sleep filled with nightmares of blood, death, suffering, and pain.
My punishment from all those I will never be able to apologize too. All the things I will never be to apologize for.
All I can do is sleep.
A/N: I should probably lay off the Demon Ororon for a while, it's fing with me brain and me writings.
Kindda wish I could sleep, 30 years of it would be nice... Insomnia is a bitch. God I miss sleep. (This has been a product of three days of no sleep. If you find your purchase to be faulty we will not give you a refund)