Nervous Heart Prayer
If my heart is nervous, it must be because I sometimes forget that I don't have to try really hard to be the best I can be. There's peace in the revelation that I am not in control. Whatever good is in me comes from God and only God, not from myself. He is in every moment, the eyes that see into every soul, the hands that catch us, push us, and lead us, and the breath of the wind that shapes the clouds. If we have ever done anything right, if the goodness in us rises up when darkness comes, it's because God guides us.
Someone close to me told me today that she thinks I sometimes have a nervous heart.
If my heart is nervous, please God, remind me of what I already know: I am not in control. Remind me all I have to do is have faith, and the best of me can shine through, and Your will is revealed for me. You've shown me this. Remind me so I stop thinking, and so I stop trying so hard to be good instead of asking You to guide my words and my day. You've never let me down when I ask for guidance, and I have nothing without You. You've answered every prayer that matters the most. You've answered so, so, so many of my prayers. You listen to them all, and You always give me peace and grace when I pray, even if the answer to the prayer itself is no, or not yet.
My hands are empty until You fill them. I'll trust You every day I'm alive, and I'll trust You when it's time to come home. I see You in everything. Not a leaf shudders on a branch that You won't catch when it finally falls. In Your name, I'm praying for my heart to be filled by You, and only You. If my heart is still nervous, Lord, please show me why.
Amen