( This is a story about the happenings between the time periods of Sesshomaru and kagura meeting, and her death, I know there are scenes and stuff but this is totally not Canon and kinda what I wished could of happened behind the scenes.) PLEASE ENJOY! :)
Kaguras P. O.V
Being watched has to be the worst part about everything that I am doing here. Working for Naraku, not having my heart, fighting people I don't care to fight. Why did I do it, why did I have to give my body to Naraku.
I looked down at my reflection in the water. I sat on the edge of the grass with my legs in the stream. The air was still and sun was at its midpoint in the sky. I decided to take a little relaxation time from all of my madness. When you are in complete silence you start to wonder about all of the choice that you have made and I guess I just made the worst choice of all.
"If I never did it, I would be free... as free as the wind."
I kicked the water so that my face gave ripples in the water. I was frustrated because It felt so good just sitting there, but I could never just be myself and enjoy what I like to do. I was just another leaf on a tree getting ready to fall, or a pawn on a chessboard ready to be sacrificed. I was nothing to no one. I could never be an enemy to those that I want and I could never be a friend to the ones I feel would be my friend. I'm just in the world.
I finally stood up from the water to get ready to go. If I waste anymore time Naraku would surely get suspicious. He already doesn't trust me and can any day kill me. My kimono fell back over my legs. I reached for the feather in my hair so that I can fly off.
"What are you doing here."
I heard that same squeaky and irritating voice that I always hear when he comes around. My heart dropped and I could feel the butterflies in my stomach. I stopped grabbing for my feather but I couldn't bring my arm down, I was in this permanent position. So many things I would love to say, so many things I know I can't say. I never know if Naraku is watching me, and if I was to say anything he would dispose of me immediately. I finally was able to move from my sudden shock. I laid my hand down to my side and I turned to face them.
"Lord Sesshomaru..." That was all I could manage out of me. Even though I just said his name I said it in my same confident voice that I would talk to anyone. As much as I wish I could just say his name. Say it without meaning any harsh intent. Say it the way that I always wanted to say his name. Lord Sesshomaru.
"Answer my question winch, what are you doing here?"
The young girl that he carries around with him, didn't hide behind his leg like she always does. But I guess I can understand why; I kidnapped her. I was forced to kidnap her. Forced by my biggest mistake. But, the fact that she didn't hide from me made me kind of happy. She wasn't screaming and running from me, trying to fight me, nor was she bashing me with harsh words. Actually she was smiling at me. A actual smile; a beautiful one at that. Such a feeling brought me to smile myself. Something I can't do very often.
I smiled because I both envied and praised her. I envied her because shes able to roam about and do whatever she wants, and say what ever she wants. She was like the wind, going where she pleased and never being held back. But I praised her because I could tell she has a kind and forgiving heart. Why would she smile at someone that kidnapped her and took her from the one that she cares most for. If anything she should hate me. But her eyes said otherwise. She wasn't like any of these other humans, she was different.
"What... why... are you smiling," That green imp said to me.
As soon as I could get back to my senses I could tell that my genuine smile turned into a cocky smirk. I reached up at my hair for the feather again and transformed it to its bigger size.
"I... was just leaving," I responded back to the first question he asked me. After that I got on to the feather and flew off.
I didn't look, I didn't want to look. Just looking into his face can destroy me alone. A face of such perfection, and I could tell that he was looking at me the whole time. Keeping his menacing gaze on me, but I couldn't look. I have done too many bad things to him, I couldn't even imagine what he thought about me. For all I know he could've been watching me to see if I would try and kidnap the girl again, or one of my other stupid duties I had to follow. How could I ever wish for him to look at me differently, I was nothing to him. Just like how I am nothing to everyone. Just not the nothing I want to be.
Chp 1 is over! :) Please enjoy and review I would love to see what you guys say. I am a huge SesshomaruxKagura fan and always wanted to make a story of them. Chapter 2 will be up soon! :)