Zemyx songfic using "Missing" by Evanescence and "The Priest and the Matador" by Senses Fail. Rated M for cussing and exceedingly depressing themes
I do not own Kingdom Hearts, or either of the songs used in this two part songfic. Thank you, and I hope you enjoy.
"Zexion…I know…I know that you hurt yourself. Why? Why do you do it? I may never know…but I want to help you…"
He grabbed my hands and spoke those words to me in his sweet, melodic voice.
Please, Please forgive me
But I won't be home again.
I'll just keep running. Away from the nightmares…away from the world
Maybe someday you'll look up
And barely conscious you'll say to no one
Too bad I can't run forever
Isn't something missing?
You won't cry for my absence,
I know…I know that I can't run for much longer, I just need time…time to think…time to just be…I just need a moment of light
You forgot me long ago.
Yeah…you care…sure, you don't even know me
Am I that unimportant?Am I so insignificant?
that's what they all say. "There's that emo kid. Whats his name? Zexion? Something like that…doesn't matter" …you stood in the groups….always so popular…so perfect…but you never taunted me. You looked at me a few times…I always looked away though…your gaze was just too much.
Isn't something missing?Isn't someone missing me?
No…I don't think you will. I don't think that anyone will. I could just get it over with…God, I don't even know if you're like that. I know you're not as fucked up as I am, but maybe, if there was a little chance… You didn't even have to be gay…I just hoped, for once, that someone would love me. No not someone…you. I wanted you to love me. I wanted to hear your voice singing to me…
Selfish…I know…heaven forbid I could actually get something out of life
Stupid…I know…because I should have known better. You're perfect….and I'm….me. The wallflower. The screw up. The "emo". Even though I'm the sacrifice,You won't try for me, not now.Though I'd die to know you love me,
Hahaha, its true
I'm all alone…
Isn't someone missing me?
No…no one…"I know what you do to yourself…Zexion…I…I"
You stuttered….what were you going to say? " I think you need some help"… "I hate you"… "I think you're completely screwed up and want you to stay the hell away from me"…were you going to lie and say "I'm concerned for you," or " I love you"?
I kissed you…I couldn't hold back. I just wanted to feel your lips against mine…I imagined you kissing back as you held my hands, trying to stop me from running. Demyx…I loved you so much…but I made sure you never knew…I don't think it matters now though. Once you pulled away, I ran….here…yes, here is good.
I can't run anymore…I just cant do it…I'm tired. Tired of everyone's shit. Tired of people…tired of myself. Tired of life….and I just can't run anymore
The silver looks good against my skin…now just a little crimson to complete the mix. And if I bleed,
Yes…
I'll bleed,
Deeper…Knowing you don't care.And if I sleep just to dream of you
Sleep sounds good…I think I'll sleep for a long time.I'll wake without you there,
Ha…I've dreamt of you for so long…and you're never thereIsn't something missing?Isn't something...
Yes…yes it is…
So much darker than I imagined it…
Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?