Heey this is my first story on this website sooo sorry if there any mistakes. Also this is a very mature read so please don't read it this stuff bothers you; bad language, incest, very detailed abuse, sexual scenes, and other stuff (if I say anymore I might spoil). It's rated m for a reason. You've been warned! I also don't own no characters (except if there new ones) sadly.

This takes place after city of heavenly fire so don't read if haven't read it. It will contain spoilers!

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And this story is also on wattpad under the same name and the same user name and it has more chapters... So sorry if there's and grammar or spelling mistakes.

and also the whole summary couldn't fit so here's the whole summary.

/After the war and two months without any drama Clary finally thinks her life is the most perfect like ever... But she is totally wrong!

Sebastian wants revenge but not just Clary but everyone who was there when Clary killed him. It's just that Clary gets it worse! After being tortured and abused and Sebastian threatens to do something that makes Clary make the worse deal ever with him.

But the people she love did something that will make Clary hate them all. When she finds out she leaves the Institute and hates them all. She runs away and finds her new family called the "Red Widows"

Four years later when she is forced to see her old life what will she do?\

So yeah that the real summary! But that won't happen until later on! Enjoy!

-CLARY POV-

[ Sebastian pushed my mom to the floor with a big knife in his hand. I was screaming and all of sudden Sebastian's knife goes down and into my mothers fell to the floor and I ran over to her and put a hand over her wound. "You monster",I screamed. I looked up and saw him smirk. ]

I screamed and sat up. I looked around the room and realized it was mine. It was only a dream, but it felt so real. These nightmares are getting worse every night and every time Sebastian is in it. Even though It's been two months since I killed Sebastian It's still like he is here but in my dreams. I have this feeling something is really wrong but I can't find out what.

I suddenly felt nauseated and sick. I jumped out of my bed and ran to my bathroom. I puked and barley made it into the toilet. Did I eat something bad or rotten? What could of made me thro-?

I heard a soft knock on the bathroom door. "Clary, are you alright? I heard you scream." I heard Jace ask sounding worried.

I got up from the cold floor and flushed the toilet. "Yeah I'm fine. I'll be out in a second. " I responded back. I washed my hands and then brushed my teeth to were I couldn't taste the nasty throw up anymore. I put my toothbrush back in the toothbrush holder and walked out of the bathroom.

I saw Jace sitting on the end of my bed. I walked over to him and he looked at me. I sat on his lap and wrapped my hand around his neck. He put his hands around my waist and asked, "Clary are you sure everything is alright?".

I smiled and said, "Yes. It was just a nightmare." I brushed my lips against his to let him know I was fine.

"Well glad It's just a nightmare," He said. He bent down and kissed me, I kissed him back. He pulled away and said, "Let's go eat breakfast." I nodded and jumped out of his lap.

For breakfast I ate a bowl of corn flakes and three strawberries. I dont really like cereal but i just wanted to eat corn flakes today. Werid. After I was done eating I told Jace I was gonna get ready for training since it was already nine thirty. He said he would meet me in the training room in fifteen minutes. I nodded and walked to my bedroom.

I shut my door and went over to my dresser. I opened the drawers and tried to figure out what to wear. Wait, why does it matter what I wear? I'm just training. I just picked out a black tank top and black yoga tights. I put my hair into a messy bun and washed my face. I walk over to my bed and put my shoes on.

I get up and walk to my door. I open the door and walked down the hallway. It sounded so quiet and peaceful. I'm actually kinda used to it be quiet now since It's been two months since any type of war or drama. Everything was great and in place.

Isabelle and Simon are great and are dating. Simon remembers everything now and he is like his old self. Me and Simon are so close now especially now that he is working with shadow hunters. Me and Isabelle decided we are gonna become parabatai. We are like sisters and it feels so good to feel like you have a sister.

Alec and Magnus live together now at his place. They seem so happy now that Alec finally knows secrets to Magnus past. Me and Magnus also have an awesome friendship. We tell each other everything. Alec has gotten nicer to me ever since the war with Sebastian.

Maia is always with Bat. I think there dating but Maia is denying it and saying there just friends. But I know there not just friends, she is always with him. She lives with her pack now and is a great leader to her pack.

Mom and Luke have been keeping to their own lately. They're so happy since they got married. I only visited them three times since they got married. I have to go see them soon.

I walk into the training room and see Jace in his shadow hunter gear, stretching and warming up. I see him look up at me and smile. I walk over to him and kissed him. I pulled back and sat down beside him. I started stretching and warming up.

Five minutes later Jace asked "Ready?" I nodded and he got up off the floor. Jace held out his hand and I took it, while he helped pulling me up off the floor.

At one forty five I was done training. I sat on the floor in the training room panting. I layed down and closed my eyes. I need some rest, I feel so tired. This is a little unusual but mabey It's because I didn't get much sleep last night.

I opened my eyes and saw Jace above me staring down at me. He smiled and said, "A little tired?" He could tell I was tired and out of breath. "Yeah, I think It's because I didn't sleep well last night." I said.

He helped me up. "So what do you want to do today?", Jace asked as he tucked one of my curls behind my ears.

"Anything, It doesn't ma-", I began but I remembered I'm suppose to go shopping with Isabelle today. I started to like going shopping now with Isabelle.

"What? What's wrong?" ,he asked when I stopped talking. I wanted to stay with Jace right now but I couldn't cancel on Izzy. Tomorrow is when we become parabatai and we have been planning this ever since two weeks ago.

I sighed and said, "I'm suppose to go shopping with Isabelle at two thirty. I would cancel but... " I trailed off and then Jace finished my sentence and said, "But... you can't since you and Isabelle are gonna be parabatai tomorrow. And let me guess you guys have planned this and she would kill you if you did cancel."

I laughed and nodded. "I'll call you when we get to Taki's and then you and Simon can come," I said.

"Sounds great," he said and then kissed me. "Wanna go take a shower?" He then asked with a grin on his face.

I started walking backwards slowly and then said, "I'll beat you there."

I stepped out of the shower and wrapped a white towel around me. I took another white towel and threw it at Jace. He then stepped out and wrapped it around his waist.

"I'll be right back," He said and then left.

I stepped into my room and went to my dresser. I pulled out a pair of lacy pink panties and a matching bra. I drop my towel to the floor and put them on. I look over to the clock and see It's two o'clock. I have time to blow dry my hair.

I go into the bathroom and plug my blow dryer in. Then I heard Jace walk in. "Clary are you still in here?" I heard him ask.

"Yes in here. I'm just blow drying my hair but you can come in if you want," I said and then turned the blow dryer on. I see him walk into the bathroom and smile. Now he's dressed in jeans and a black t shirt. He walks towards me and puts his hands on my waist. He looks in the mirror where I'm looking while blow drying my hair.

I am done blow drying my hair and now its curly with a little frizz. But I don't really care. It wasn't gonna kill anyone.

I moved out of Jaces arms. When I reached the bathroom door frame Jace picked me up and said, "Where do you think your going?"

I giggled and I realize I I'm only wearing a bra and panties . I blushed a litlle and jumped out of Jaces hands. I ran so Jace wouldn't catch me. I started laughing and then Jace grabbed me again.

"You're not going anywhere", he says laughing. He carries me to my bed and gets on top of me. "You win", I say laughing. I put my arms around his neck and he kissed me. I leaned into the kiss more and then my legs where around his waist. I tug at the hem of his shi-.

"Hey Clary are you rea-" I see Isabelle walk in and looked up when she was about to finish her sentence. I immediately stopped what I was doing and Jace got up and sat beside me. "Ew Ew Ew! Why does this happen to 'me'?"

"Omg Isabelle can you knock?" I asked a little angrily and blushed.

"No! Because you're late for our date!" She said giving me a angry glare. I looked at the clock on the wall and saw it was two forty.

Is was that late already? "It's that late already? Time past by fast," I said.

"Yeah I bet. You were almost naked under Jace with your tongue down his thoart and about to have sex. So yeah it probably did go by fast." She said with sarcasm in her voice but I knew she was mad because I was late. She hated when people where late. "And you need to go. Clary still needs to get ready." She added looking at Jace.

He smirked and winked at me. He then turned around and walked out of the door.

"Hurry up and get ready. I'll be downstairs waiting for you." She said and walked out the door.

I go back to getting ready.