Koori: *sigh*
Hikari: Whats wrong,Koori?
Koori: My 1st story got removed............no one reviews the 2nd one............Im starting to think its not worth it............*sigh* Maybe Il just end my career as a whriter with this......Nobody will notice anyway............*shakes head* What was I even thinking,when I put myself as a whriter!*sigh* If Nobody says otherwise,Il quit!
Majin: You? Quit?*disbelieving look* Youl gonna give up*snaps fingers*just like that?*crosses arms* Thats deffinetely not the Koori I know!
Koori: And what do you know about me?! Do you think you know the real me?Then guess again!Nobody knows the real me............. *sigh* How I wish to have died 3 years ago........... Would be better for everyone anyway.......*sigh*
Majin/Hikari:0.0
Koori: For all who cares(meaning no one.......)........Im Female!(Im a Tomboy.......Lucky me..........)Okay lets start the story........*sigh* Goku! Disclaimer please!
Goku: Koori-ne-chan doesnt own Gensomaden Saiyuki or the Song ''You Near Yourself''!*sigh*This fic contains mentions of Shounen-Ai or Yaoi! Dont like it,Dont read! Uhmm................ Koori-Ne-Chan?
Koori: What is it Goku?
Goku: Whats Shounen-Ai&Yaoi?
Koori: *sweatdrop* well uhmm......Its ahhh.....*blush* Sanzo,explain it to him!
Sanzo: Why me?Im a monk !
Gojyo: Yeah...........Youre a monk,that kills,smokes,gambles.........
Sanzo: *glare*So?............*smirk* Ero Kappa,you Explain what it is!Its in your department anyway.........
Gojyo: No way!Why me? Hakkai you do it!Youre a Teacher!
Hakkai : o_^ Sorry Gojyo, but thats not one of the topics Im Teaching! Youre the exspert in those things! o_^
Gojyo: But my specialty is women!.................Bouzu you do it!
Sanzo: *eye twitching*Okay!Goku, remember the nights in Chou-An?
Goku: *nods*
Sanzo: Thats practically it!
All-Goku&Sanzo
Koori: Sanzo! You really are a corrupt monk through&through! Ero Namaguza Bouzu!(sorry Genjo Sanzo1!I know it sounds similar to your version.........but I just couldnt get it out of my head!)
''Talking'' *Actions* 'Thinking'
Lyrics
(us Interrupting)
In the Mind..........
'I Sometimes wonder........am I really such a good actor? I know I always act cheerfull....... Am I really that good, that no one sees the sadness thats hidden behind my cheerfullness?*sigh* Sometimes I wish that Sanzo wouldnt of freed me from my prison.......then maybe I wouldve died there without knowing,what Im leaving behind.......Now after all Ive been through........Even if I wish to die,I cant!Im just cant seem to kill myself !.......Whol protect Sanzo then? Whol be the one Hakkai needs to Comfort? With whom will Gojyo fight over food with?
Running away from me,
Do you near yourself?
Neutrally somene asks you that, Most commomly they wont understand you!
Whol be the one whol Sanzo releases his stress over?Who will brighten everyones mood with his cheerfullness?If Im gone,it will be no one! I cant kill myself while knowing this.............But still,the emtyness and the wish to die is still there............. I try to fight it,day after day.......but its not working anymore............The wish to die is slowly,but effectively starting to influence my mind.........I cant even think straight anymore.........when nobodys around I just sit down and stare at a knife I always have with me........thinking........wishing............
I wonder.............How will the others react If I would die?Sanzo will be happy,thats for sure!But about Hakkai,I dont know.......He would be sad for awhile,I think.......Maybe a few minutes or so.......but hel get over it fast! Gojyo'l be just acting neutraly.................All in all no one would really care.................Im a nuisance to them Anyway...............
You have someone,youre afraid to lose! Someone your afraid to Love! Sometimes you wish to be somewhere else.......
Just a Baka Saru,who only thinks about food...........But in reality I think about some other things too........... My obsession of food is just so no one will notice! I mainly think about Pros & Cons of Suicide,Sanzo & what Im worth now............And how theyve started to ignore me lately...........maybe a little bit about food too,but thats not the point!
Am I the only one to notice how empty the days have turned into? First Getting up,drive west,kill youkai along the way,arrive at town,check in a inn,and then rest....and the next morning its all the same......and the day after.......and the day after......maybe sometimes we have to sleep in the jeep,but even thats not somethng unusual..........
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....................Sanzo..................My Guardian...........My feelings for him?.........I guess I loved him..............Not brotherly love,but something deeper..................Well I guess thats what I felt for him...........now I dont know anymore..........I just feel like a puppet with no life or will.....just blindly following someones orders........feeling nothing..........and with no reason to live................. Oh how I wish,that I wouldnt be on this journey.............Id rather lay dead somewhere..............
Why do you think I always annoy Sanzo?.......Its because I would like him to just shoot me! I know that if he wanted to,he wouldnt miss...........Then why does he always just threaten us? *sigh* Im tired of living! 518 years is enough for me! Even if I dont really remember my past(K:like me.......I dont remember my past too........)................I still know the pain I experienced! And when I turn into Seiten Taisen........I just loose control of my feelings.........My Anger.Loneliness,Sadness & wish to die overcomes me,so I attack wishing that my oponent would just kill me ,without regrets........Im a worthless entity that turns into a monster anyway.................... I still dont understant why Sanzo didnt kill me then(K:in ep 22..)........I guess he really didnt want to waste bullets on such a worthless thing like me..................
My Craving for strong oponents? So I would find one that is strong enough to kill me........Havent found one willing or Strong enough to do it yet....................
My Eating Habbit? I would love to choke to death by having something stuck In my throat........or that something like that would happen...............
To Summarise it all up,the Message would be : I want to Die! I want my life to end here & now!I wish that I wouldve died,instead of the people who died before me..........oh how I envy them.........
Your Experience or maybe not! Quesations & Answers!You are you! Somewhere!Deep Inside you! Nothing happens without a reason, Even your touch & Ive flown away........
But I guess Im asking too much..........I hate my life,but hide everything under my cheerfullness.............what a combination, ne? I guess you didnt expect that now,did you?...................
But you are now,today & here! And the thing that you see is your own world! It doesnt matter how Beutiful or Ugly it is! Cause It is your only one.......................
But I guess I have to live on for now..............When this journey ends,Im gonna show everyone the true me! Im gonna tell them the truth & after that Kill myself..................Or maybe Il die sooner...................the sooner the better,I think........... Its an Ugly place I will be leaving anyway..............Kind of reminds me of the song thats playing on the radio at this moment.............What was the group called again? Z-Scars,I think.............Till now only the Vanity of Vanitys(1) was keeping me sane&alive.............I even made up a continuation(K:scroll down to read it.....*sigh*) for it! I guess this song too will cheer me up a bit!.........Gotta ask Hakkai for a way I can get Sanzo to buy me a CD player& this groups CD.........& Maybe some other CDs that fit my mood too........like,what was the song called again?''Bright Eyes''(K: I dont own it either...)? [Following the River of death downstream.......]were part of their lyrics,I think...............
*sigh* Who am I? Can you tell me that? Who am I really?With all my acting..........I dont know anymore.........the only thing I know is how I feel & my feelings for Sanzo............And my love for Sanzo is the only warm feeling I have...........Im feeling a dark void,where instead a warm heart should be anyway................I cant even cry without acting.............what am I turning into anyway? A mix of Sanzo & Hakkai?*shudder* Hope not!..................... Oi! Gojyos looking at me strangely! I guess I have to start my acting again..........*sigh* I sure hope this will end soon..............Sanzo.........you said you heard my call when we first met........the why dont you hear it now.........cant you see how Im hurting inside?............Or do you know and just dont care what happens to me........I bet its the second.........*sigh*.........here goes...... '
''Sanzo! Harraheta!''
''*Thwack*Urusai,Bakasaru!''
''Im not a Saru!''
End...........(or Maybe not! You decide!)
1)Vanity of Vanitys:
You want to die?Ok....Will it help you anyway? No! Suicide is cowardess,living life is the the true show of strength!(*points at self* my idea!*) Nothing changes even if you die.....however,if you live there will be some things that will change!(*points at Sanzo*) Suicide is just running away ,even if its the easy way out...........(*points* my idea again!I know it maybe isnt the real Vanity of Vanitys.......but still......it gives me courage to live!)
All-Goku&Koori: 0.0
Sanzo: What the Fuck is that!*points up*
Koori: Well............*sigh* ask Goku!
Sanzo:*looks at Goku* well? Explain!
Goku: Uhmmm............Korri-Ne-Chan you do it!*points at Koori*
Koori: No You do it!*points at Goku*
Goku/Koori: No you do it!*points at each other*
Sanzo: *twitch**twitch* *Thwack*x2
Koori/Goku: Itai yo,Sanzo!
Sanzo: *Glare* Now Explain,Both of you!
Koori: Okay...........But youl have to end this first!
Sanzo: *glare* Okaaaay*twitch*................*twitch*Read & Review everyone! And if you want that she*points at Koori* Continues this,then tell her that in your review!
Goku: Please Review!*puppy eyes* Koori-Ne-Chan is all Depressed because no one is reviewing!
Koori: Okay! Sanzo,Goku lets go! *points at room* Wel explain it there,ok Goku? Sanzo?
Goku/Sanzo: *nod*
Koori/Sanzo/Goku: *leave to mentioned room*
Majin: If you really want to get in the mood for this fic,try listening to Tetsu69 version of ''Tightrope'' or if you have Msn Messenger contact us so we could transfer the 3 songs(''Bright Eyes'', ''You near Yourself'' and Tetsu69 ''Tightrope'') to you........our Id there is '' Koori NoKokoro'' or Koori_NoKokoro@hotmail.com Or if you wish some for other songs from Saiyuki too.......you can contact us and if we have them wel try to transfer them to you too.....
Majin&Hikari:*sigh* We do hope youl review......we cant stand to see her like this........Ja Ne! *goes off somewhere while Singing to ''Looking for the World''* Just wanna take my time....I dont care for them......Dont be shy......you gotta join.....
Hikari: Whats wrong,Koori?
Koori: My 1st story got removed............no one reviews the 2nd one............Im starting to think its not worth it............*sigh* Maybe Il just end my career as a whriter with this......Nobody will notice anyway............*shakes head* What was I even thinking,when I put myself as a whriter!*sigh* If Nobody says otherwise,Il quit!
Majin: You? Quit?*disbelieving look* Youl gonna give up*snaps fingers*just like that?*crosses arms* Thats deffinetely not the Koori I know!
Koori: And what do you know about me?! Do you think you know the real me?Then guess again!Nobody knows the real me............. *sigh* How I wish to have died 3 years ago........... Would be better for everyone anyway.......*sigh*
Majin/Hikari:0.0
Koori: For all who cares(meaning no one.......)........Im Female!(Im a Tomboy.......Lucky me..........)Okay lets start the story........*sigh* Goku! Disclaimer please!
Goku: Koori-ne-chan doesnt own Gensomaden Saiyuki or the Song ''You Near Yourself''!*sigh*This fic contains mentions of Shounen-Ai or Yaoi! Dont like it,Dont read! Uhmm................ Koori-Ne-Chan?
Koori: What is it Goku?
Goku: Whats Shounen-Ai&Yaoi?
Koori: *sweatdrop* well uhmm......Its ahhh.....*blush* Sanzo,explain it to him!
Sanzo: Why me?Im a monk !
Gojyo: Yeah...........Youre a monk,that kills,smokes,gambles.........
Sanzo: *glare*So?............*smirk* Ero Kappa,you Explain what it is!Its in your department anyway.........
Gojyo: No way!Why me? Hakkai you do it!Youre a Teacher!
Hakkai : o_^ Sorry Gojyo, but thats not one of the topics Im Teaching! Youre the exspert in those things! o_^
Gojyo: But my specialty is women!.................Bouzu you do it!
Sanzo: *eye twitching*Okay!Goku, remember the nights in Chou-An?
Goku: *nods*
Sanzo: Thats practically it!
All-Goku&Sanzo
Koori: Sanzo! You really are a corrupt monk through&through! Ero Namaguza Bouzu!(sorry Genjo Sanzo1!I know it sounds similar to your version.........but I just couldnt get it out of my head!)
''Talking'' *Actions* 'Thinking'
Lyrics
(us Interrupting)
In the Mind..........
'I Sometimes wonder........am I really such a good actor? I know I always act cheerfull....... Am I really that good, that no one sees the sadness thats hidden behind my cheerfullness?*sigh* Sometimes I wish that Sanzo wouldnt of freed me from my prison.......then maybe I wouldve died there without knowing,what Im leaving behind.......Now after all Ive been through........Even if I wish to die,I cant!Im just cant seem to kill myself !.......Whol protect Sanzo then? Whol be the one Hakkai needs to Comfort? With whom will Gojyo fight over food with?
Running away from me,
Do you near yourself?
Neutrally somene asks you that, Most commomly they wont understand you!
Whol be the one whol Sanzo releases his stress over?Who will brighten everyones mood with his cheerfullness?If Im gone,it will be no one! I cant kill myself while knowing this.............But still,the emtyness and the wish to die is still there............. I try to fight it,day after day.......but its not working anymore............The wish to die is slowly,but effectively starting to influence my mind.........I cant even think straight anymore.........when nobodys around I just sit down and stare at a knife I always have with me........thinking........wishing............
I wonder.............How will the others react If I would die?Sanzo will be happy,thats for sure!But about Hakkai,I dont know.......He would be sad for awhile,I think.......Maybe a few minutes or so.......but hel get over it fast! Gojyo'l be just acting neutraly.................All in all no one would really care.................Im a nuisance to them Anyway...............
You have someone,youre afraid to lose! Someone your afraid to Love! Sometimes you wish to be somewhere else.......
Just a Baka Saru,who only thinks about food...........But in reality I think about some other things too........... My obsession of food is just so no one will notice! I mainly think about Pros & Cons of Suicide,Sanzo & what Im worth now............And how theyve started to ignore me lately...........maybe a little bit about food too,but thats not the point!
Am I the only one to notice how empty the days have turned into? First Getting up,drive west,kill youkai along the way,arrive at town,check in a inn,and then rest....and the next morning its all the same......and the day after.......and the day after......maybe sometimes we have to sleep in the jeep,but even thats not somethng unusual..........
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....................Sanzo..................My Guardian...........My feelings for him?.........I guess I loved him..............Not brotherly love,but something deeper..................Well I guess thats what I felt for him...........now I dont know anymore..........I just feel like a puppet with no life or will.....just blindly following someones orders........feeling nothing..........and with no reason to live................. Oh how I wish,that I wouldnt be on this journey.............Id rather lay dead somewhere..............
Why do you think I always annoy Sanzo?.......Its because I would like him to just shoot me! I know that if he wanted to,he wouldnt miss...........Then why does he always just threaten us? *sigh* Im tired of living! 518 years is enough for me! Even if I dont really remember my past(K:like me.......I dont remember my past too........)................I still know the pain I experienced! And when I turn into Seiten Taisen........I just loose control of my feelings.........My Anger.Loneliness,Sadness & wish to die overcomes me,so I attack wishing that my oponent would just kill me ,without regrets........Im a worthless entity that turns into a monster anyway.................... I still dont understant why Sanzo didnt kill me then(K:in ep 22..)........I guess he really didnt want to waste bullets on such a worthless thing like me..................
My Craving for strong oponents? So I would find one that is strong enough to kill me........Havent found one willing or Strong enough to do it yet....................
My Eating Habbit? I would love to choke to death by having something stuck In my throat........or that something like that would happen...............
To Summarise it all up,the Message would be : I want to Die! I want my life to end here & now!I wish that I wouldve died,instead of the people who died before me..........oh how I envy them.........
Your Experience or maybe not! Quesations & Answers!You are you! Somewhere!Deep Inside you! Nothing happens without a reason, Even your touch & Ive flown away........
But I guess Im asking too much..........I hate my life,but hide everything under my cheerfullness.............what a combination, ne? I guess you didnt expect that now,did you?...................
But you are now,today & here! And the thing that you see is your own world! It doesnt matter how Beutiful or Ugly it is! Cause It is your only one.......................
But I guess I have to live on for now..............When this journey ends,Im gonna show everyone the true me! Im gonna tell them the truth & after that Kill myself..................Or maybe Il die sooner...................the sooner the better,I think........... Its an Ugly place I will be leaving anyway..............Kind of reminds me of the song thats playing on the radio at this moment.............What was the group called again? Z-Scars,I think.............Till now only the Vanity of Vanitys(1) was keeping me sane&alive.............I even made up a continuation(K:scroll down to read it.....*sigh*) for it! I guess this song too will cheer me up a bit!.........Gotta ask Hakkai for a way I can get Sanzo to buy me a CD player& this groups CD.........& Maybe some other CDs that fit my mood too........like,what was the song called again?''Bright Eyes''(K: I dont own it either...)? [Following the River of death downstream.......]were part of their lyrics,I think...............
*sigh* Who am I? Can you tell me that? Who am I really?With all my acting..........I dont know anymore.........the only thing I know is how I feel & my feelings for Sanzo............And my love for Sanzo is the only warm feeling I have...........Im feeling a dark void,where instead a warm heart should be anyway................I cant even cry without acting.............what am I turning into anyway? A mix of Sanzo & Hakkai?*shudder* Hope not!..................... Oi! Gojyos looking at me strangely! I guess I have to start my acting again..........*sigh* I sure hope this will end soon..............Sanzo.........you said you heard my call when we first met........the why dont you hear it now.........cant you see how Im hurting inside?............Or do you know and just dont care what happens to me........I bet its the second.........*sigh*.........here goes...... '
''Sanzo! Harraheta!''
''*Thwack*Urusai,Bakasaru!''
''Im not a Saru!''
End...........(or Maybe not! You decide!)
1)Vanity of Vanitys:
You want to die?Ok....Will it help you anyway? No! Suicide is cowardess,living life is the the true show of strength!(*points at self* my idea!*) Nothing changes even if you die.....however,if you live there will be some things that will change!(*points at Sanzo*) Suicide is just running away ,even if its the easy way out...........(*points* my idea again!I know it maybe isnt the real Vanity of Vanitys.......but still......it gives me courage to live!)
All-Goku&Koori: 0.0
Sanzo: What the Fuck is that!*points up*
Koori: Well............*sigh* ask Goku!
Sanzo:*looks at Goku* well? Explain!
Goku: Uhmmm............Korri-Ne-Chan you do it!*points at Koori*
Koori: No You do it!*points at Goku*
Goku/Koori: No you do it!*points at each other*
Sanzo: *twitch**twitch* *Thwack*x2
Koori/Goku: Itai yo,Sanzo!
Sanzo: *Glare* Now Explain,Both of you!
Koori: Okay...........But youl have to end this first!
Sanzo: *glare* Okaaaay*twitch*................*twitch*Read & Review everyone! And if you want that she*points at Koori* Continues this,then tell her that in your review!
Goku: Please Review!*puppy eyes* Koori-Ne-Chan is all Depressed because no one is reviewing!
Koori: Okay! Sanzo,Goku lets go! *points at room* Wel explain it there,ok Goku? Sanzo?
Goku/Sanzo: *nod*
Koori/Sanzo/Goku: *leave to mentioned room*
Majin: If you really want to get in the mood for this fic,try listening to Tetsu69 version of ''Tightrope'' or if you have Msn Messenger contact us so we could transfer the 3 songs(''Bright Eyes'', ''You near Yourself'' and Tetsu69 ''Tightrope'') to you........our Id there is '' Koori NoKokoro'' or Koori_NoKokoro@hotmail.com Or if you wish some for other songs from Saiyuki too.......you can contact us and if we have them wel try to transfer them to you too.....
Majin&Hikari:*sigh* We do hope youl review......we cant stand to see her like this........Ja Ne! *goes off somewhere while Singing to ''Looking for the World''* Just wanna take my time....I dont care for them......Dont be shy......you gotta join.....