A/N: Hi everyone! I'm so excited to be here after a month of reading all those beautiful fanfictions for this crazy pairing that I know you guys love. I was inspired by the lovely stories from some of the talented writers such as: "Betrayal Isn't Fleeting" by "Miss Junie", "Deception" by "MoonlightMagic7", "The Eye Of The Needle" by "Cazio", "Forbidden Fruit" by "ShellyStark", "If I Can't Have You" by "Birgitta Snyder", and "Cut Off Without Ammends" by "NumberSixteen". Thank you for such wonderful inspirations from all of you. This story wouldn't have been written without them. :)

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Chapter 1: Decisions

She opened her eyes with sweats across her face, panting heavily. She could feel the chill spreading down her back as she shivered under the thick blanket that wrapped her tight like a cocoon. The dream was still fresh in her mind, causing a massive headache that made her want to scream.

"It's just a dream" she told herself, trying to calm her nerves. She sat up gently and looked over to the window, realizing it was still in the middle of the night. She sighed heavily and closed her eyes. It was the third time she woke up with the same dream repeating over and over. It felt so real she could even feel it creeping underneath her skin. And to make it even worse, her dream was about Lucas, the last person in this world she wanted to remember.

She remembered his face, full of hatred towards his father's mercy, had nothing but an urge to destroy everything for the sake of his mother. When she knew that he was chasing after the Commander, the only father figure she had left, she couldn't stop herself from doing what she thought was the best way to end the problem. So she took the gun, and without even considering the consequences, she shot him. Two bullets nestled on his shoulder as he stumbled backwards and fell to the ground. She thought it was the end of him but soon after she found that his body was missing. She couldn't comprehend her own feelings at that moment. At first it might seemed like the right thing to do, but after awhile she began to feel guilty towards her own action. He's a bad guy, a psychopath to be exact, but she couldn't lie to herself that she saw something else inside him, not just a complete lunatic like he was from the outside.

She shook her head, hoping the thoughts would go away. No. She hated him. Why she had to waste her time thinking about him and hoping that somehow he was still alive. "This is ridiculous" she mumbled to herself. There was no way he could survive from that shot. He might have some energy left to drag himself away but he wouldn't be able to walk far because the wounds were quite deep. But then she doubted herself. Lucas is unpredictable. Everything about him is a mystery. If he could survive in the jungle for 5 years, then it wouldn't be a surprise if he was still somewhere out there, plotting his revenge, and maybe this time not only for his father, but also for his precious so called sister.

The next minute was like a blur to her. She didn't know what was on her mind, and she was scared. But somehow deep down inside her heart she knew it was the right thing to do. She hated herself for having such a soft heart, especially for the one that had been obviously done nothing but breaking her to million pieces. She might be crazy, but she didn't care. All she knew was she dragged herself out of the bed, pulled off her jacket from the hanger and stormed out of the house. Her heart beat as fast as her feet moved on the ground. Her eyes focused on the destination ahead of her. She got closer and took a little sprint up the stairs on the front porch of the building. Two guards stared at her with suspicion in their eyes but they didn't stop her as she walked pass them and opened the door.

She'd expected to see the room still packed with people even if it was in the middle of the night. Soldier with fully equipped gears were circling the long table on the corner of the room where a stern looking man no other than the Commander himself sat on the middle, giving sets of orders for them to follow. At the moment she caught herself in a trance, seeing a normal scene in front of her eyes. She almost couldn't believe that things had turned back to the way it used to be. Terra Nova was safe once again even though the danger was still lurking out there, waiting for its opportunity to make another way back inside the colony in a matter of time.

"Skye?" called the Commander from his seat. He dismissed the troop immediately and they made their way out of the room, leaving him and Skye alone.

"What's wrong?" he got up from his chair and walked slowly towards her. There was a concern in his voice. She shifted uncomfortably as she looked up to see the Commander staring at her with his stern eyes.

"I.. I can't sleep" she answered after a long pause. She still felt awkward after what happened between her and the Commander. She was a Sixers spy and she had no choice but to betray him to keep her sick mother alive. Their relationship had quickly recovered after she shot his son to save him. But still there was a gap between them, like they were trying to protect their own feelings from each other.

"Nightmares?" he asked again. She nodded, couldn't find any words to say. "Me too" he shrugged, "I guess being back in Terra Nova doesn't solve my sleeping problem." She gave him a weak smile.

"How's your wound?" she asked, eyeing the wide bandage across his abdomen. "It's been better. Thanks to Dr. Shannon and her painkiller. If not I wouldn't be able to stand up straight right now" he chuckled at his own words. Skye didn't take that as a joke, instead she choked back her tears.

"Taylor, I'm really sorry for what happened. For everything." She couldn't hold it much longer. Tears started rolling down her cheek and she wiped it roughly with the back of her hand. "There's a reason why I came here tonight. I need to talk to you."

His face changed as he heard the words came out of her mouth. Skye took a shaky breath and straightened herself, trying to gather as much confidence as she could. She was ready for this, there is no turning back now. She had to take the risk, or else she might die from the load of her own guilt.

"I know this is not easy," she started "but I don't have any other choice. I couldn't run from it anymore. The guilt was too much for me. That is why, I want to ask you a permission to banish me for my own good. I can't live a normal life anymore. I was a Sixers spy and I've let you down. Even though you might've forgiven me for the things I've done, but I can't, and I don't think I will able to forgive myself. So please, take this as a favor, for me." She looked up to see him stared at her with a shock expression on his face.

"Skye.." his voice shaken "you don't have to do this. We just got here this morning. We're going to start everything from the beginning. With Hope Plaza being destroyed, we have to stay together to be able to survive. I'm not going to banish you for something you've done in the past, especially after losing so many people that I loved. Wash is gone, and all I had left is you. Besides, like I said many times before, Terra Nova is all about second chances. If I could give Curran a second chance, then you deserved one as well."

Skye closed her eyes, frustrated and silently cursing herself for being so careless with her words. She was so caught up with her own thoughts that she couldn't think straight anymore. She didn't expect to get that kind of answer from Taylor and now she was stuck in the middle. She had to choose between her own consciences. Was she willing to stand up with her opinion or just let go and forget all the things that she'd intended to hold in the first place.

"Is this what you really want? To die alone in the jungle as an act of punishment to yourself?" he asked, keeping his eyes on her, trying to find the reason behind her odd request. She looked down and wrapped herself with her arms. "Yes" she muttered. Taylor took a step closer and rested his hand on her shoulder. "You're lying" he concluded. Skye's head shot up and met Taylor's gaze. "Taylor, I.." "You're hiding something from me." His eyes searching what he wanted to know. Skye let out a long sigh and stared back at him, trying to pour all her thoughts through her eyes, realizing there was no way she could explain it with words. Taylor's expression fell as he finally got the answer.

"What were you thinking, Skye? You want to risk your whole life just to satisfy your guilt?" his voice filled with disappointment and anger. He couldn't believe that she would take that crazy decision for the sake of her conscience.

"Taylor, please. I know it's not easy and you may think that I'm crazy. Maybe I am. But I'm not going to betray my own heart. I'm done with betrayals and now it's time to prove myself that I've changed. Please, just say yes and I'll be on my way outside the gates. I'm sorry that I've disappointed you so many times. But believe me, this is the best way you can give to me. I know what I'm doing is right. I'm sure of it."

She reached out to hold out his arm. "I promise" she assured him.

Taylor glared at her for a moment. It seemed like the Commander had a different opinion in his mind. "You're not going anywhere. And that's final" he finally spoke. "But Taylor.." she protested "He's dangerous, Skye. You know that and you still want to throw yourself out there, risking your life for him? If something happens to you I swear I will never forgive myself. Don't make things even more complicated than before."

There was a long pause between them. Both were drowning in their own thoughts, trying to find the right words to say. Suddenly Taylor's voice broke the silence. "If you do this because you felt sorry for me, then you're wrong. I've never regretted your action, instead I was proud of you. You've risked yourself to save me and I know it must be hard for you to decide at that time," he paused "I still love him. He's my son and I could never hate my own flesh and blood. But if he had to die, I couldn't stop that from happening. As much as I want him to live, his presence will always be a threat to the colony." He gave her a weak smile. His eyes clouded with sadness. "It's a tough decision. Either way, it's my own choice, and the fate is in my hands. Finally I chose Terra Nova over my own son. It was hard, but I knew I've done the right thing."

He sat on the edge of the table and took a deep breath before releasing in a long sigh. Skye leaned on the table beside him. "I'm sorry" she said "I never thought about it that way before." She looked over to him. "But what about second chances? Doesn't he deserve a second chance as well?" Taylor shrugged and looked over to her. "It's not that simple, Skye." he replied.

"But why?" she asked. "You said everyone deserves a second chance. What about him? Have you ever think that he can be back into your arms? Maybe having a fresh start with each other and gaining a normal father and son relationship?"

Taylor shook his head slowly. "You don't know how many times I've dreamed about it. But as I said before, it is not that simple. He hates me and even threatened to kill me when he got the chance. Now do you still think it's wise to let yourself being out there, hoping to find him and nurture him back to health?"

She walked to the door and turned around to face him, hands folded across her chest. "I'm just trying to follow my heart, that's all. Wise or not, I don't really care at this point. All I know is I have to find him, dead or alive. You'll never know if you never try. And I don't think trying something different will hurt anything."

He sighed heavily, knowing that she wouldn't give up her opinion easily. She's a strong girl, and she'd always been so tough and never doubted her own decisions.

"You know that things could get ugly if you're not being careful with your choice. This is not just between you and me, but also for the fate of the colony. If you're confident with your decision, then I don't have any other choice except to let you go."

Skye stared at him with a blank expression on her face. She couldn't believe that finally she got what she wanted. Before she could say anything, Taylor raised his hand, cutting her off. "Wait, there's one more thing I need to tell you. You will not be going out there by yourself," he paused, trying to read her expression before he continued. She looked dazed and confused at the same time. He smirked at her and continued the words from where he left off. "You will not be going out there by yourself because I'm coming with you."

She couldn't believe what she just heard. It was more than she hoped for. She could feel her eyes stinging with tears.

"If we find him, we'll bring him back to Terra Nova for a proper treatment. But after that, I still can't decide whether to let him go or keeping him in the brig. We have to discuss that some other time." He gave her a weak smile.

"I hope you're making the right decision, Skye."