This is written, as the title suggests about Sirius and Remus :D

But it could really fit anybody in a similar situation. I'm sure a few of the "nights" will be familiar to you.

It's pretty short.

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The first night-

The longing, the watching, the waiting.

The dreams and schemes and hopeless thoughts.

The idea of that one person making everything right that is so very wrong with your life.

The disbelief of your own worth in comparison to their goodness and beauty and…

The second night-

The fumbling, the uncertainty, the awkwardness.

The frantic heartbeats and hesitant touches.

The spur of the moment action that has been dreams about for so long it hardly seems spur of the moment at all.

The sweet surprise of a reciprocation to your advances and satisfaction that could not have been found in any other scenario.

The third night-

The aftermath, the realisation, the guilt.

The unspoken questions and unsure answers.

The nothing spoken and everything said.

The end before the beginning and the miserable confusion of what you believe to be wrong turning out so terribly right.

The fourth night-

The avoidance, the exclusion, the cowardice.

The "if-I-ignore-it-perhaps-it-never-happened;-but-what-if-I-don't-want-to?" mentality.

The frustration and secrecy and chaotic emotions which seem as temperamental as British weather.

The fifth night-

The acknowledgement, the admittance, the confrontation.

The moment of eye-contact that speaks more that any words said.

The hands on shoulders, face to face.

The silent apology that pride won't allow to be spoken but is ever present and prominent in every syllable uttered.

The sixth night-

The understanding, the acceptance, the forgiveness.

The forgetting of that passed and the focus on what yet to come.

The whispered words and wasted hours repaid.

The "did-you-close-the-drapes?" and the

Sorry sorry sorry gasped aloud.

The curve of soft lips as they register the word.

The seventh night-

The security, the contentment, the love?

The casual motions and easy familiarity that would have seemed a foreign intrusion a week ago.

The astonishment of many peers and the raised eyebrows and "it-was-so-obvious" rolled eyes of others.

The knowledge that forever is still very far away and the tranquillity that leaves no hurry to get there.

The happily ever after?

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