I Hate Loving You
Shikatema OneShot
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto!
(All the italic parts are Temari's thoughts.)
Why does he have to do that?
Everything he does gets on my nerves!
Like that time when he comes up to me and offers to show me around. And right when I start thinking that he actually wants to spend this time with me, he says "It's a drag but Lady Hokage said I have to show you around…since I'm your escort and all."
I mean, why can't he just leave it with "Wanna go look around Konoha for a while?"
Why does he ruin everything!
Stupid lazy-ass with his pineapple head and his horribly pale skin…and… those deeply sensitive eyes and that…sweet…sweet…smile…
Wait! What am I thinking?
C'mon, Temari! What's wrong with you, girl? Get it together.
Remember that time when he asked you to go out cloud watching with him?
I was really enjoying that time alone with him and then he goes and ruins it again! "I'm glad you like clouds too."
Okay. That was fine…but he continues; "Now I can just bring you here, rather than having to bother to think of something to do with you each day. This escort thing is so troublesome sometimes."
I could have screamed!
Why did I even dare to think that he would actually like me? This hurts. Getting my hopes up and then he just ruins it. It really hurts.
I can't help it. I do like him but there's too much stuff in the way.
It's hard enough when you have two way too over protective brothers, there's a three year age gap and you live three days away from the guy you're falling for.
"Temari, are you okay?"
Great. And now I'm crying in front of him too!
"Temari, are you crying…?"
"I'm fine, now shut-up and leave me alone!" I murmured quietly, fiercely wiping away the tears that had magically appeared out of nowhere.
"No you're not. You're crying. Why? Did I do something wrong?" his eyes were so soft right then.
"Did I do something wrong, Temari?" he repeated.
"No…I don't know…yes…yes you did." I gave up lying to him and sat up from the soft grass. Looking down at him I saw his eyes grow wide in shock.
That just makes it worse! He doesn't even know what he has done wrong!
He lay there looking up at me, his eyes portraying more and more hurt as I continued.
"You ruin everything! I actually thought that you might like me! But you always say that you hate me…and it hurts Shikamaru!"
"I never said I hated you…" he said quietly. His voice was shaky. 'Seeing Temari this upset is somehow making my chest sting. What's up with that?' he thought.
I couldn't believe what I heard. He sounded hurt. Did I do something wrong?
"I thought that you might, at least, like me. I really look forward to coming to see Konoha and to see…you. But the minute I get here, you start saying how much you hate me being around and how 'troublesome' it is!"
Why is he just lying there? What am I saying? Where is all this coming from? Where did I find the courage to talk to him like this?
"I…I…I love you, Shikamaru! And I hate it!"
Wait, oh Kami! I better undo that…
Got it!
"I hate loving you!"
With that, I collapsed on top of him and buried my face into his vest, letting all those tears just flow out.
And then I felt those strong, worn-out arms wrap around me. He was so warm…and so…close…
"I hate loving you, too." he whispered tenderly into my hair.
I could feel him smile into my head. He was kissing my head.
I turned my head to look at him as he pulled out my hair ties. He was smiling at me. And he had such a caring look in his eyes. I couldn't help but let my eyes linger on his soft looking lips.
Are they really soft? Would he let me find out?
But I needn't worry about if he was a good kisser or not much longer. I suddenly felt his tender lips on mine. I pressed my lips harder against his as I enjoyed my first kiss. With the only person that I truly loved and the only person that I truly hated.
When he pulled back I couldn't help but moan slightly. He chuckled then.
We just stared at each other. Both of us completely shocked. Had we really just kissed each other willingly?
I saw a smile play on the corners of his lips and his eyes adopted that soft, caring,…loving look that I had only ever seen him wear when looking at me.
It was then that his words were finally processed properly in my brain.
"I hate loving you, too."
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