Ok I am new to this whole writing Fan fiction thing (I normally write poems, not stories). I love all parings even the craziest ones. I need lots of help from you guys like what you would like to see happing?? Ect.. Thanks a bunch!!!

Disclaimer: I DO NOT, although wish, own the host club and its characters.

And don't steal my poem cause I DO own that!!! Loves and hugs!

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"There's no telling how much I love you.

You… the one I can never have.

We've always been close and Time created the illusion "forever"

Until She came along.

I worshiped her. I hated her.

I watched her closely searching for what you saw in her and so I became her "friend."

She told me things I didn't know, secret things that happened when it was just the "two of you".

Jealousy consumed my soul to the point of no return.

My feelings burst out like a suppressed, enraged lion.

To you, I explained my love. To you, I revealed my deepest passion.

Tears started to roll down my face as I whispered "Don't you love me too?"

You embraced me gently and softly spoke in my heart, whispering "I'm sorry."

Our eyes met and my heart crushed.

With the endless pain in my heart, I realized that you'll never love me the way I love you.

Rain accompanied my tears.

Thunder drowned out my cries.

Life in my heart was replaced with only darkness.

Saying goodbye was never easy, but Time's magic never fails

I found a new love. One who could love me back.

But I'll never forget you… the one I can never have."

Kaoru gracefully walked back to his seat as applause filled the room. "Thank you Kaoru-san for sharing one of your poems from your new book coming out next week," said the interviewer cheerfully.

"Thank you for having me here today, Kima-san." As the interviewer flipped her hair and bashed her eyelashes at Kaoru. He could only help but think, while smiling, some things never change.

The interviewer continued "and that's all the time we have today but ladies if you're to anxious wait for Kaoru-san's book there's always the Hitachiin fall line that just came out."

Kaoru gazed at his audience, bowed charmingly and responded "yes, the new line Panache fall line just came out. I look forward to seeing you again. Now if you will excuse me."

As Kaoru walked out of the room he could hear all the girls' sighs and giggles. He turned to his assistant and asked "what's next?"

His assistant, thankfully a well-ground man, responded "your brother, Hikaru-san, called to confirm the newest design for next year's fall line."

"Tell him I'll e-mail the designs" Hikaru, who was on his 5th year wedding anniversary with Haruhi in Milan, was still dedicated to his work of fashion design. "Anything else?" Kaoru continued as he got into his assistant's car.

"And to remind you of the Host club reunion next week."

Kaoru gasped as he remembered. Of course how could he have forgotten! Tono's spontaneous idea of the host club reunion. No wonder his been reminiscing about the host club lately. Some memories, he'll admit, are better than others.

The host club was closed for the day. Hikaru, Kaoru, and Haruhi were in their second year. Hunny-senpai and Mori-senpai went on to study in Europe. Two first years became replacements for the lost hosts and the young boys brought their own twist to the "wild and loli-shota type." Although Hunny-senpai and Mori-senpai did come and visit the Host club every one in a while. Kyoya-senpai always seemed brighter on those days probably because of the guest-attendance increase, or in shadow-king terms, profit increase.

Hikaru stood up abruptly and stated "Everyone I have something to say…"

Everyone turned their attention to Hikaru as he continued his words, after seeing a reassuring look from Haruhi. "Haruhi and I have decided to…to go out." Hikaru continued nervously.

Kyoya started to type something in that laptop of his. Tono started screaming about how siblings shouldn't be together in that way and how otousan wouldn't allow it. Kaoru just stared at Hikaru and Tono arguing, thinking "Now what am I going to do?"

Kaoru had recently come to terms with his feelings for his brother and decided that they were not just "brotherly love" feelings, but a deeper love. Although Kaoru knew that his love was forbidden and Hikaru did have feelings for a certain commoner, he just could help himself.

Hikaru was everything Kaoru wasn't: bold, daring, stupid, short-tempered and perfect. They completed each other, they needed each other, or so he thought.

As Kaoru glanced at Haruhi's content smile, a flicker of hatred and jealously aroused within him. But Kaoru did what he's done his entire life. Swallow his feelings, put on his fake smile, and catered to Hikaru. Well now Hikaru and his new… girlfriend.

"Sir?" Kaoru came back from his painful memories and turned to his assistant. "Hmm" he acknowledged. "Were approaching your house now. I suggest your rest early for tomorrow."

Kaoru responded, "Yeah ok I leaving now, have a nice evening." As Kaoru got out of his car and walk towards the front door of his house he thought I'm gonna need a lot more than sleep to get through the next few weeks.