Hurt and heartbreak
~ Chapter 1 ~
AN: This is set in the season where Phoebe found out that Cole was a demon.
1 A week ago…
"If I wanted to kill you so much, then why havn't I? " yelled Cole, his eyes were filled with tears that shouldn't have been there, threatening to spill any minute.
He had never felt this way about anyone before he met Phoebe, his mind was confused and felt numb like he couldn't think straight. He was meant to be a demon, not to mention one of the most powerful ones but yet, when he looked into the soft and hurt eyes of Phoebe, it was like he was… mortal. Months ago, this word would have caused a surge of anger and disgust to rage through his body but now…? He couldn't understand it. He had been sent to kill the charmed ones and he had thought that he could do it. First, working on the youngest and the most vulnerable, Phoebe. But where was he now? What was he doing trying to justify his demonic side to a witch? Cole was frustrated at how the dagger held in his hand always seemed to slip itself away every time he saw Phoebe. Falling in love with one of the charmed ones was about the worst things imaginable, he was their enemy, the one who would cause their emotions of triumphs from killing the mighty belphasoar and yet… every time that it was meant to be the night of Phoebe's death, why was it that in the morning, he would always find her cuddled up next to him? But he had learnt his lesson because here he was, his dark secret revealed to Phoebe. Cole never thought that he could see so much hurt in someone's eyes.
" So, the almighty belphasoar has fallen for one of the charmed one? Don't you think that a demon with such weakness should be banished from the underground world forever? " the source droaned in Cole's head.
" No! I havn't fallen for her!" He yelled out loud, " I've just been trying to get her to trust me so that I can hurt her more. ", but his emotions got the better of him and even as he said this he felt a pang in his heart and his voice broke as violent tears erupted from his eyes.
" Don't try to trick me belphasoar, I was the one who gave you life, or have you already forgotten?" thundered The Source.
It was true, the Source had given Cole a new life. He had fought with the charmed ones and had been injured, almost killed, but it was the Source that gave belphasoar back his life. The Source knew that Cole was one of the most powerful demons and that was why he had given him back his precious life and sent him to the mortal world to kill the charmed ones once again.
" I havn't forgotten, I will kill the charmed ones for you, I promise" replied Cole in a strong and determined voice but inside him he instantly felt the revenge of regret in him.
" Within 24 hours, belphasoar, or are you almost mortal now… Cole?" snarled the Source.
A dagger shimmered into Cole's hand and the voice inside his head was gone. Cole sighed, how can he kill the one that he loved? And Prue and Piper, they meant the world to Phoebe. Now that Phoebe had found out that he was a demon, she had seemed so scared even to look at him. Cole saw the fear in her eyes as he heard her voice whispering the word that he hated now more than anything… belphasoar. When she had found out, he could see that she was so terrified of him that she started shaking and then rage took over her and she began to get violent, trying to hit him but luckily missing through her teary and blurred eyes. Cole sighed, there was no doubt that she had run back to the Halliwell manor and reached out for the comfort of her sisters, they would try to kill him now. He knew of the power of the strong bond and love between those three sisters. Yet, if he didn't kill them, he would be banished from the demonic world and turn mortal. He knew that if he turned mortal, he would lose all of his powers and be even weaker than a mortal. Cole picked up a photo of Phoebe that sat on his desk, he softly touched her face with his trembling fingers, how can he ever kill the one he loved?
Phoebe's mind was numb with shock and it had already been a week. She should be planning how to kill Belphasoar with her sisters, and how to vanquish him, but how can she kill the man that she loved? The man that she wanted to wake up next to in the morning for the rest of her life. For the rest of her life, she knew that Cole was the only man she would ever want to share the warm nights with. With every break up, Phoebe had always recovered well. Taking on the "That's life" attitude had been easy with all her other boyfriends after she broke up with them but with Cole she knew that it was different. Phoebe's lips curled into a sarcastic grin, Huh, but it's not everyday you find out your boy friend is a demon, she thought. She sighed, the hurt that she felt right now was almost unbearable, it was like the hurt was eating away her soul. She no longer felt any emotion but to feel the hurt inside her injured heart. How could he? How could Cole look into her eyes everyday and known that she was a witch? How could he kiss her and tell her that she was his angel, with the intention of killing her and her sisters at the same time? Phoebe wrapped her arms around herself, imagining that they were Coles, and immediately felt the feeling of safety that she had felt when his arms were around her, protecting her.
" Honey, do you want to come to P3 with me? I need some help, we're short of a bartender tonight!" a voice echoed through the creaking old Halliwell manor.
Phoebe sighed, the fantasy that she had just dreamt of shattered, she knew that her sisters were concerned about her, she just wished that they would stop asking her if she was alright. Of course she knew in her heart that she wasn't but she wanted to pretend that she had never met Cole, that nothing ever happened. Thinking about this break-up just reminded her of all the mistakes she made in her life. Before she had moved in with her sisters.
Suddenly, she felt a warm hand on her shoulder and the couch suddenly sagged with the weight of another person next to her.
" Are you ok? You havn't moved from that couch all day? It's nearly 8pm! Come on, help me down at P3s, it'll take your mind off, uh…" Piper's concerened voice trailed off awkwardly. Damn! Her and her big mouth, now she had just reminded Phoebe of Cole, as if she wasn't hurt enough already. She was usually the one that comforted people but now what had she done?
" It's ok Piper, I'll come…" Phoebe murmured reluctantly. She would do almost anything just to get her mind off Cole for one second and to stop her sisters from pestering her about " moving on with life ".
*
"Phoebe! Can you wipe the counter properly?" yelled Piper through the steady rhythimic thumping of the music in the bar.
Phoebe sighed, an hour ago, she had thought that coming down to P3 had been a good idea, but now she realised that it wasn't. It reminded her of Cole. Of their dates here, each dance they danced and each kiss they experienced together. Suddenly, tears erupted from her already red and swollen eyes and Phoebe felt her heart breaking… for the a millionth time that week.
*
"Okay, everyone, sorry that I'm late! Let's get started!" Prue said enthusiasticly as she frantically tried to hang her hat on the coatstand while trying to hold her bag, wallet and keys with the other hand.
" Gees Prue, it's not like this is one of your business meetings" snapped Piper.
" Piper, what's wrong with you? " asked Leo softly, his voice full of concern.
" Nothing" mumbled Piper, " It's just that, you know, I feel bad about planning how to kill Belphasoar while Phoebe's locked up in her room and crying her heart out to the air! One of us should be up there trying to comfort her!"
Prue sighed, " Piper! Get a grip of yourself, Cole, uh, I mean Belphasoar is going to try to kill us sooner or later and we need to protect ourselves."
"Whatever, you're always the one who made the decisions, not me.. no not me, never me" Piper growled angrily as Prue plopped down on the chair opposite her, exhausted.
Suddenly, a noise caused Leo to sigh with regret and apology, " sorry, I have to go, they're calling, I'll come by later, ok? "
Prue and Piper were still staring at each other angrily and neither of them responded as Leo shimmered out of the room, worried about leaving those two alone.
" What the hell is wrong with you Piper? Snapping at me like that in front of Leo! You're not usually like this, I can't understand you sometimes. Well excuse me if I want to protect our lives rather than play the sympathetic phychiatrist towards a broken hearted sister! You know, we have to think of us too, our lives are being threatened by one of the most powerful demons alive! We've got to vanquish him and you know that Piper, just cut it out with your pathetic little sensitive act of " protecting the hurt sister"." Exploded Prue, her face red from yelling so much and her throat hurting a little from straining her voice. After the emotional speech from Prue, an awkward silence followed as if Piper was slowly digesting what she had just heard.
" How could you Prue? " Piper said in a quiet angry voice, " How could you not think of Phoebe? You know as well as I do what it feels like to lose a person that you love, if I lost Leo like that, I would want the comfort of my sisters instead of hearing them arguing about whether or not to kill the one that I loved. Look, if you're going to kill Cole then do it! But I'm not going to be any part of this murder that you're planning for him! Look, you've got my so called 'approval' for killing Cole, now get a conscience!"
Suddenly Leo shimmered into the room just as Piper stormed angrily upstairs towards Phoebe's room.
" Uh, looks like it's three against one ." Said Leo awkwardly as Prue glared at him.
" WHAT?" exploded Prue, " You're taking Piper's side? But can't you see how this is threatening our lives? We can die any minute and all you care about is Phoebe's broken heart?!"
Prue suddenly sighed and gave Leo a cold look before storming out through the front door, thinking if no one's going to kill Cole, then I'll do it myself.
*
Knock Knock
" Phoebe, honey? Can I come in?" said Piper softly from the other sie of the door.
Phoebe flinched, she had heard everything that Piper and Prue had said to each other downstairs just about five minutes ago. An innocent week ago, her sisters never argued with each other but now, everything had changed. Slowly, as if in a trance, she walked up to the door and turned the handle.
Piper immediately hugged Phoebe and led her down towards her bed. She smoothed out Phoebe's wild hair with a reassuring and warm hand while she saw down with her on the bed.
" I heard everything that you said downstairs." Said Phoebe suddenly.
Piper paused to think of how she should respond to this. How can she explain to Phoebe that although Prue wanted to kill Cole, she thought it was wrong and yet, she knew that it had to be done.
" I know what you're thinking, " Phoebe whispered through dry and cracked lips, " How do I explain to poor pathetic Phoebe that killing Cole is the only way to protect the Charmed ones, you don't have to explain Piper, I know…"
Piper stayed silent, knowing that if she opened her mouth, she wouldn't know what to say anyway. She watched as Phoebe weakly got up and picked up a picture of her and Cole. It was on their one month anniversary, they were cuddling each other and staring into each others eyes full of love. Suddenly, Piper saw that Phoebe's eyes were closed and that she was trembling. Phoebe's eyes snapped open but her face colour had changed to almost white.
" What's wrong?" asked Piper urgently.
" It's Prue, I saw her in Cole's apartment trying to kill him… and, and, um, I was there and, and… " said a Phoebe in a shocked voice.
" and..?" prompted Piper, she could tell this was important.
With a shaking voice, Phoebe whispered, " and I killed her Piper, I killed Prue. "
TBC
~ Chapter 1 ~
AN: This is set in the season where Phoebe found out that Cole was a demon.
1 A week ago…
"If I wanted to kill you so much, then why havn't I? " yelled Cole, his eyes were filled with tears that shouldn't have been there, threatening to spill any minute.
He had never felt this way about anyone before he met Phoebe, his mind was confused and felt numb like he couldn't think straight. He was meant to be a demon, not to mention one of the most powerful ones but yet, when he looked into the soft and hurt eyes of Phoebe, it was like he was… mortal. Months ago, this word would have caused a surge of anger and disgust to rage through his body but now…? He couldn't understand it. He had been sent to kill the charmed ones and he had thought that he could do it. First, working on the youngest and the most vulnerable, Phoebe. But where was he now? What was he doing trying to justify his demonic side to a witch? Cole was frustrated at how the dagger held in his hand always seemed to slip itself away every time he saw Phoebe. Falling in love with one of the charmed ones was about the worst things imaginable, he was their enemy, the one who would cause their emotions of triumphs from killing the mighty belphasoar and yet… every time that it was meant to be the night of Phoebe's death, why was it that in the morning, he would always find her cuddled up next to him? But he had learnt his lesson because here he was, his dark secret revealed to Phoebe. Cole never thought that he could see so much hurt in someone's eyes.
" So, the almighty belphasoar has fallen for one of the charmed one? Don't you think that a demon with such weakness should be banished from the underground world forever? " the source droaned in Cole's head.
" No! I havn't fallen for her!" He yelled out loud, " I've just been trying to get her to trust me so that I can hurt her more. ", but his emotions got the better of him and even as he said this he felt a pang in his heart and his voice broke as violent tears erupted from his eyes.
" Don't try to trick me belphasoar, I was the one who gave you life, or have you already forgotten?" thundered The Source.
It was true, the Source had given Cole a new life. He had fought with the charmed ones and had been injured, almost killed, but it was the Source that gave belphasoar back his life. The Source knew that Cole was one of the most powerful demons and that was why he had given him back his precious life and sent him to the mortal world to kill the charmed ones once again.
" I havn't forgotten, I will kill the charmed ones for you, I promise" replied Cole in a strong and determined voice but inside him he instantly felt the revenge of regret in him.
" Within 24 hours, belphasoar, or are you almost mortal now… Cole?" snarled the Source.
A dagger shimmered into Cole's hand and the voice inside his head was gone. Cole sighed, how can he kill the one that he loved? And Prue and Piper, they meant the world to Phoebe. Now that Phoebe had found out that he was a demon, she had seemed so scared even to look at him. Cole saw the fear in her eyes as he heard her voice whispering the word that he hated now more than anything… belphasoar. When she had found out, he could see that she was so terrified of him that she started shaking and then rage took over her and she began to get violent, trying to hit him but luckily missing through her teary and blurred eyes. Cole sighed, there was no doubt that she had run back to the Halliwell manor and reached out for the comfort of her sisters, they would try to kill him now. He knew of the power of the strong bond and love between those three sisters. Yet, if he didn't kill them, he would be banished from the demonic world and turn mortal. He knew that if he turned mortal, he would lose all of his powers and be even weaker than a mortal. Cole picked up a photo of Phoebe that sat on his desk, he softly touched her face with his trembling fingers, how can he ever kill the one he loved?
Phoebe's mind was numb with shock and it had already been a week. She should be planning how to kill Belphasoar with her sisters, and how to vanquish him, but how can she kill the man that she loved? The man that she wanted to wake up next to in the morning for the rest of her life. For the rest of her life, she knew that Cole was the only man she would ever want to share the warm nights with. With every break up, Phoebe had always recovered well. Taking on the "That's life" attitude had been easy with all her other boyfriends after she broke up with them but with Cole she knew that it was different. Phoebe's lips curled into a sarcastic grin, Huh, but it's not everyday you find out your boy friend is a demon, she thought. She sighed, the hurt that she felt right now was almost unbearable, it was like the hurt was eating away her soul. She no longer felt any emotion but to feel the hurt inside her injured heart. How could he? How could Cole look into her eyes everyday and known that she was a witch? How could he kiss her and tell her that she was his angel, with the intention of killing her and her sisters at the same time? Phoebe wrapped her arms around herself, imagining that they were Coles, and immediately felt the feeling of safety that she had felt when his arms were around her, protecting her.
" Honey, do you want to come to P3 with me? I need some help, we're short of a bartender tonight!" a voice echoed through the creaking old Halliwell manor.
Phoebe sighed, the fantasy that she had just dreamt of shattered, she knew that her sisters were concerned about her, she just wished that they would stop asking her if she was alright. Of course she knew in her heart that she wasn't but she wanted to pretend that she had never met Cole, that nothing ever happened. Thinking about this break-up just reminded her of all the mistakes she made in her life. Before she had moved in with her sisters.
Suddenly, she felt a warm hand on her shoulder and the couch suddenly sagged with the weight of another person next to her.
" Are you ok? You havn't moved from that couch all day? It's nearly 8pm! Come on, help me down at P3s, it'll take your mind off, uh…" Piper's concerened voice trailed off awkwardly. Damn! Her and her big mouth, now she had just reminded Phoebe of Cole, as if she wasn't hurt enough already. She was usually the one that comforted people but now what had she done?
" It's ok Piper, I'll come…" Phoebe murmured reluctantly. She would do almost anything just to get her mind off Cole for one second and to stop her sisters from pestering her about " moving on with life ".
*
"Phoebe! Can you wipe the counter properly?" yelled Piper through the steady rhythimic thumping of the music in the bar.
Phoebe sighed, an hour ago, she had thought that coming down to P3 had been a good idea, but now she realised that it wasn't. It reminded her of Cole. Of their dates here, each dance they danced and each kiss they experienced together. Suddenly, tears erupted from her already red and swollen eyes and Phoebe felt her heart breaking… for the a millionth time that week.
*
"Okay, everyone, sorry that I'm late! Let's get started!" Prue said enthusiasticly as she frantically tried to hang her hat on the coatstand while trying to hold her bag, wallet and keys with the other hand.
" Gees Prue, it's not like this is one of your business meetings" snapped Piper.
" Piper, what's wrong with you? " asked Leo softly, his voice full of concern.
" Nothing" mumbled Piper, " It's just that, you know, I feel bad about planning how to kill Belphasoar while Phoebe's locked up in her room and crying her heart out to the air! One of us should be up there trying to comfort her!"
Prue sighed, " Piper! Get a grip of yourself, Cole, uh, I mean Belphasoar is going to try to kill us sooner or later and we need to protect ourselves."
"Whatever, you're always the one who made the decisions, not me.. no not me, never me" Piper growled angrily as Prue plopped down on the chair opposite her, exhausted.
Suddenly, a noise caused Leo to sigh with regret and apology, " sorry, I have to go, they're calling, I'll come by later, ok? "
Prue and Piper were still staring at each other angrily and neither of them responded as Leo shimmered out of the room, worried about leaving those two alone.
" What the hell is wrong with you Piper? Snapping at me like that in front of Leo! You're not usually like this, I can't understand you sometimes. Well excuse me if I want to protect our lives rather than play the sympathetic phychiatrist towards a broken hearted sister! You know, we have to think of us too, our lives are being threatened by one of the most powerful demons alive! We've got to vanquish him and you know that Piper, just cut it out with your pathetic little sensitive act of " protecting the hurt sister"." Exploded Prue, her face red from yelling so much and her throat hurting a little from straining her voice. After the emotional speech from Prue, an awkward silence followed as if Piper was slowly digesting what she had just heard.
" How could you Prue? " Piper said in a quiet angry voice, " How could you not think of Phoebe? You know as well as I do what it feels like to lose a person that you love, if I lost Leo like that, I would want the comfort of my sisters instead of hearing them arguing about whether or not to kill the one that I loved. Look, if you're going to kill Cole then do it! But I'm not going to be any part of this murder that you're planning for him! Look, you've got my so called 'approval' for killing Cole, now get a conscience!"
Suddenly Leo shimmered into the room just as Piper stormed angrily upstairs towards Phoebe's room.
" Uh, looks like it's three against one ." Said Leo awkwardly as Prue glared at him.
" WHAT?" exploded Prue, " You're taking Piper's side? But can't you see how this is threatening our lives? We can die any minute and all you care about is Phoebe's broken heart?!"
Prue suddenly sighed and gave Leo a cold look before storming out through the front door, thinking if no one's going to kill Cole, then I'll do it myself.
*
Knock Knock
" Phoebe, honey? Can I come in?" said Piper softly from the other sie of the door.
Phoebe flinched, she had heard everything that Piper and Prue had said to each other downstairs just about five minutes ago. An innocent week ago, her sisters never argued with each other but now, everything had changed. Slowly, as if in a trance, she walked up to the door and turned the handle.
Piper immediately hugged Phoebe and led her down towards her bed. She smoothed out Phoebe's wild hair with a reassuring and warm hand while she saw down with her on the bed.
" I heard everything that you said downstairs." Said Phoebe suddenly.
Piper paused to think of how she should respond to this. How can she explain to Phoebe that although Prue wanted to kill Cole, she thought it was wrong and yet, she knew that it had to be done.
" I know what you're thinking, " Phoebe whispered through dry and cracked lips, " How do I explain to poor pathetic Phoebe that killing Cole is the only way to protect the Charmed ones, you don't have to explain Piper, I know…"
Piper stayed silent, knowing that if she opened her mouth, she wouldn't know what to say anyway. She watched as Phoebe weakly got up and picked up a picture of her and Cole. It was on their one month anniversary, they were cuddling each other and staring into each others eyes full of love. Suddenly, Piper saw that Phoebe's eyes were closed and that she was trembling. Phoebe's eyes snapped open but her face colour had changed to almost white.
" What's wrong?" asked Piper urgently.
" It's Prue, I saw her in Cole's apartment trying to kill him… and, and, um, I was there and, and… " said a Phoebe in a shocked voice.
" and..?" prompted Piper, she could tell this was important.
With a shaking voice, Phoebe whispered, " and I killed her Piper, I killed Prue. "
TBC