A/N So, this was in my head and I thought I'd put it out here.. Hope it isn't too bad ._.

Last Day Of Summer:

Sirius groaned loudly as his brother applied another bandage to his waist.

"Shhh, if they find out I'm in here we're both in trouble... Why do you have to go and set them off like that, Siri?" Regulus whispered, in the dim light he saw his brother gritting his teeth. It was the middle of the night and Sirius had had another encounter with his parents about his choice of friends.

"They don't have the right to chose who I'm friends with, who cares if they're half-bloods. I was just trying to get that point across." He replied, wincing as Regulus finished the job.

"Yeah, well what do they say about this?"

"They don't know.." Sirius mumbled. Regulus blinked, Sirius just shrugged. "They'd fuss."

"Right, so you'd get abused by Mother and Father about them, but you won't tell the friends for fear they would fuss? Or is it you don't want the sympathy?" He persisted.

"Reg, I'm tired... and I don't want you in trouble for being in here.." Settling back on the bed, Sirius closed his eyes.
"Fine..but I think you should tell them, y'know..if they're so amazing."
"Maybe." Sighing, Regulus crept towards the door.
"Guess I'll talk to you after the feast then.." A sleepy 'K 'n' thanks' was all he got in reply.

3rd Month Back:

"Sirius...SIRIUS! Wake up!" James leapt out of his bed and hurried over to his thrashing, rather noisy, friend. Climbing onto the bed and avoiding getting hit in the face, James sat by his friend and shook his shoulder.

"Sirius mate... it's just a dream.." He lay down by Sirius and whispered comforting things in his ear. Eventually the boy relaxed and a pair of grey eyes shone in the darkness.

"Lo.." Sirius said.

"You gunna tell me what it was about this time? Or just keep me in the dark forever? I thought we were best friends Si.." James was getting tired of Sirius' constant excuses not to tell James what his nightmares were about.

Sirius cast around wildly.

"They...it...um.." He had to say something as he knew how fed up James was getting that he wasn't sharing. Then he thought of something.

"Just.. getting cornered by a load of Slytherins..and Regulus is there and I can't move..." He trailed off, hoping that James would buy it.

"I think this calls for a prank, mate." Sirius sighed with relief at this.

"Everything calls for a prank with you, Prongs." James grinned at the use of his nickname. They had perfected their Animagi at the end of last year but hadn't had much fun on their own with them. Well, James and Peter had, as they and Remus had met up over the holidays. Sirius had been grounded as usual.

They spent the rest of the night plotting a prank to play on the Slytherins. Sirius wasn't as into it as usual, he was dwelling on his reoccurring nightmare of his parents attacking Reg for helping him, Sirius being unable to help.

During the early hours of the morning James drifted off into sleep while still on Sirius' bed. Remus lay listening on his bed, waiting for the familiar sounds, this time he would do something about it. Sirius slid off the bed, picking up his wand, he crept over to their shared bathroom. He took out the razor blade he kept hidden behind the mirror. Settling down in the shower cubicle, he slid his sleeve up and brought the blade to just below the crook of his arm. He felt the need for pain, he had had it nearly all his life after he became a bother to his parents. He watched as red streams trickled down the plug hole. Some part of him thought it was his fault that his parents hated him, thought he deserved what he got. But the rest of him over ruled that feeling. His mind flickered to Regulus, when it came to his little brother, he felt rather protective. They were a lot closer than people thought, putting on a show of disliking each other, only so that nothing got back to their parents. But in secret, they would meet up in a deserted place and talk about whatever came to mind. Regulus was the only one to ever witness Sirius crying and that was rare, Sirius liked to keep his emotions bottled up which led to the situation he was currently in. Again, Reg was the only one (sort of) to know about that side of his brother, knew that he needed it.

"Pads, this has to stop." On cue Remus entered the bathroom.

"Hi again Moony..." Sirius said looking up.

"Again?" said the werewolf, looking confused.

"Yeah, well it's not the first time you found me..and, I'm sorry.." Sirius set down the blade and drew his wand.

"Pad wha-?" But he was cut off by a faint glow of light and a muttered 'Obliviate'.

Sirius felt a pang of guilt as a dazed look swept over his friend's face.

"Stop coming to find me, stop working it out." He forced his thought into Remus' head as the spell was taking effect. The boy nodded his head dumbly.

"Now, go back to bed." Remus followed the command and left the bathroom.

Sighing Sirius cleaned up, put a strip of material over the new addition to his body and hid the razor blade then pulled down the sleeve of his pajama top.

He slipped back into bed and curled up by his, still snoring, best friend.

Just after he'd drifted off, he was being shaken awake again.

"Sirius c'mon, we're gunna be late!" Sirius groaned and turned over. The hangings were thrown open and sunlight hit him in the face.

"Fine! I'm up, I'm up, just close the bloody curtain!" Using a pillow to hide his face. James smirked.

"Remember last time?" He said. Sirius did remember last time and did not fancy getting covered in smelly goo again. He shot out of bed and into the bathroom, grabbing his clothes on the way.

"Stay well away Potter". He yelled from behind the door, he heard James snort. After a shower he checked his arm was covered and got dressed. Making sure he looked casual and carefee in the mirror he sauntered out.

"What'd you get dressed in there for? I've seen it all before.." James smirked. Sirius threw his pillow at him.

"OI! ….You look tired.. I don't get why you wont see Pomfrey about these dreams.." A concerned look had replaced James' smirk.

"I'm fine, really... where are the other two?" He encouraged, putting on a grin.

"They've gone down already." His friend huffed.

"James, I swear I'm fine, lets go before we miss breakfast completely!" Sirius pulled the other boy towards the door.

"Y'know I'm sure there's something up wit Moony." James said as they hurried to the Great Hall. Sirius gulped.

"Is there? I haven't noticed.."

"Well seeing as you're up to your eyes in girls and guys, you wouldn't would you? But he seems a bit... zoned out lately.."

"Hey! Speak for yourself, how many girls did you get with last week?!"

"Only... 3.. If Evans would only accept my offers for a date then it would only ever be her you'd catch me making out with... Anyway that's besides the point, just look at Remus when no one's talking to him."

Just outside the Hall they passed Lily Evans coming out.

"Hey Evans, will yo-"

"No Potter, now go away before I hex you."

"Pfft touchy.." James tutted, walking on. Sirius snickered.

"If you stopped pestering her she might say yes y'know.." He remarked. They entered the hall and Sirius' eyes landed on Remus. He did look rather distant like he wasn't really there. Sirius felt rather guilty, but he couldn't let the werewolf find him out else he'd make a fuss and Sirius couldn't stand being fussed over. He hoped last night would be the last time. Sitting next to him, he gave the boy a nudge. He started.

"Oh! Hi Siri... I was...um.. how are you?" Remus frowned trying to put words together.

"I'm great, and not really that hungry..." He got up. "See you in class.." He got up and walked back to the doors feeling horrible. Should he tell someone what he'd done?

"Hey where're you going!?" James called after him but Sirius ignored him. Looking over at the Slytherin table, Sirius caught his brother's eye and held his little finger discretely against his arm. He saw Reg give a tiny nod. This was their sign to meet in a secret room behind a tapestry at the next upcoming break.

He queued up with the rest of his class outside the Transfiguration classroom. By the time his friends got there he was kissing a girl whose name he couldn't quite remember.

"Oi dogface!" Sirius broke the kiss and looked round, to see his three best friends, Remus looked distant again and Peter shuffled his feet. James stood with his hands on his hips and tapping his foot. He gave him a sheepish grin. His hair was ruffled and his tie was hanging loose.

"I'll see you later." He murmured to the girl who gave him a seductive smile and skipped off.

"Who was she?" Prongs demanded.

"Not too sure..." Sirius shrugged.

"Well what did you do to Moony? He seems to think he's constantly talking to you..!" Gesturing to the oblivious boy behind him.

The smile fell off Sirius' face.

"I didn't do anything.. maybe it's a Slytherin joke.. I'll take him to Pomfrey..." Grabbing Remus by the elbow he strode away calling back over his shoulder;

"Tell Minnie I'll catch up later!"