"If you can't accept me for who I am, I guess we aren't meant to be together."
Those words of his rang in my head, sounding of harsh finality. I couldn't believe my ears as the words replayed over and over in my mind. As he took a few steps away from me, realization dawned on me and I snapped out of my thoughts.
"Renji, Wait!"
"No, Byakuya. I'm sorry. I can't continue to live like this," he said quietly, not turning around to face me.
He didn't see the tear sliding down my cheek.
In general, a Kuchiki does not cry, nor show his feelings. But when he came into my life, it could be said that everything was never the same. Day after day, I was horrified to see how less dignified I was becoming. I was becoming more like him, my careless, care-free fukutaichou.
My brave, strong and confident lover, who spoke his thoughts and stood up for his beliefs.
In truth, he's a much better person than me. I realise that now. My noble bearing means nothing, it's just something I was born with and can't change. He progressed in his life, from a poor, starving Rukongai brat to the strong Shinigami I see before my eyes.
He's walking further and further from me.
"Renji... please..." My voice started to crack at the end, but I'm already past caring for my so-called dignity.
"Don't make this harder for the both of us, Byakuya," he replied. And I know, I deserve it. I took the happiness I got from him forgranted, always receiving but never really giving in return. I made him live up to my family's expectations, uncaring of his true feelings.
I know what we had was real, but I made a mess out of it. And no matter how much I regret my actions, there's nothing I can do to change it.
Because he's walked out of my life.
A/N: Just a short drabble I thought of, inspired by the first line, because I've been thinking, is it love if you have to force something out of yourself? Anyway, I hate to split up my favourite Bleach pairing, but alas, i'm angsty...