A/N: I knoe...Chandler would never leave but here is what I think would make him leave.

Disclaimer: I own nothing from FRIENDS except seasons 1-10 lol

Song is also not mine: "Take Me Away" - Plain White T's

"C'mon Chandler you have to get up sometime!" I heard my best friend and roommate, Joey exclaim. I was in no mood to get out of my bed. I had just broken up with Kathy and was in the process of recovery. "Chandler, Monica said if you dont show up to Rachel's party, she'd come and get you. Now you dont want that do you?"

'Touché' I thought to myself. Joey really knew what scared me. Monica didn't actually scare me; her beauty was what scared me. I was having trouble just being in the same room as her. These feelings had begun two months after me and Kathy got together. That's what caused the brake up, I was so stupid.

"Chandler!" I heard her voice coming from outside my bedroom. "Chandler if you dont come to Rachel's party I am not responsible for my actions." She yelled. I knew i was defeated, I couldn't argue with her. "FINE, I'M GETTING UP NOW!" I yelled back.

As I got ready for the party, she walked into my room. "Hey wow, Mon, what's your problem!" I fell backwards for I was just wearing my boxers. "Nice undies, Chan Chan." God I loved it when she called me that. "I just came in to check that you were really getting ready." she said to me innocently. I saw her staring and chose that moment to ask, "Are you checking me out?" I smirked at her. She looked so pretty wen she blushed.

I walked to her and brought her eyes to mine. They were filled with lust, just like mine. I remember all this because it was the first time I did something so daring. I leaned in and kissed her, locking our lips together. I was shocked she didn't run away or slap me, like she'd done many times before. Monica returned my kiss and pushed me onto my bed.

I couldn't believe what was happening; Monica Geller was actually on my bed with me. I loved this woman. "You should really get ready now, Mr. Bing." she said to me before getting up and walking out of my room. 'Damn that woman.' I hated when she flirted with me just to take it away.

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I got to the party -across the hall- to find that Monica was not there yet, wich was weird because she lived there. "Happy birthday Rach," I said to my friend. "Have you seen Monica?" I watched her look around, "No, but she called and said she was on her way." Rachel smiled at me. Monica had forgotten the cake and went to the bakery to get one. I heard someone at the door and opened it.

I know we just got here

but I think it's time to go

i didn't want to believe it but now I know

you know who just walked in

and she didn't come alone

I can't stand to see this get me home

I didn't know what to say. Here was Monica, with a cake on one hand and Richard's hand on the other. How could she do that to me? Didn't we have a moment of passion in my room not so long ago? All these and more questions poped into my mind as I stared at the door.

Monica smiled at me like nothing had ever happened. She brushed past me and hugged Rachel. I just stood there. 'How could she come with him?' of all the people she could have brought, Fun Bobby for example or even Eddie, my creepy ex-roommate. No, she had to bring Richard. I had to get away from there. I walked out the door and sat in the hallway.

I sat there till Rachel came out and sat with me. "Hey are you ok?" she asked me. I looked at her and tried to smile, failing miserably. Shaking my head "No." was all I could say. Rachel knew I loved Monica, so she hugged me feeling sorry. "I'ts ok Cahndler. I'ts only for tonight that she's with him." She ran her hands throught my hair. Rachel was like a little sister to me, she always conforted me. "Thanks," I said wiping my eyes, "Now, why aren't you inside?" I asked her. Apparently Ross had brought his monkey with him. I knew Rachel hated Marcel, and so I let out a small chuckle. I got up grabbing her hand and pulling her up, walking back into the party. "C'mon lets go back inside."

Everything was fine, I kept my distance from Monica and Richard. I couldn't stand to be there anymore; I went out to the balcony and light up a cigarette. "You know those are going to kill you?" her sweet voice came from the window. I turned and saw her climbing outside. "So what." I replied. 'Damn that was harsh.' I thought to myself. Monica noticed it too. "What's wrong with you?" I didn't answer right away. She beat me to it, "Is it cause I brought Richard?" she asked me.

"Maybe, " was my simple reply. "I ran into him at the bakery and he asked me out." She said to me. "I couldn't just blow off Rachel's party, so I invited him. That's when I realized I still had feeling for him." A tear ran down my cheek. "I guesss." I didn't want to say anything else or I'd loose it. She saw me and grabbed my arm "Chandler, I'm sorry!"

Take me away

I'm gonna hurt somebody

take me away right now

how could she say

she wanted more you better

take me away right now

I flicked my cigarette and walked back inside; leaving her outside in the cold. Richard was sitting down on the couch. 'That's my spot mother fucker!' I yelled in my mind. He smiled at me and I just glared back. I wanted to kick his ass right then and there, but I knew Monica wouldn't like me hurting her boyfriend. God just the thought of them together made me sick to my stomach. So I turned to drinking shots.

As I drank I didn't even wince when the alcohol burned my throat. I kept on drinking until Joey saw me in the corner. "Hey man, you should really stop now. You're going to tip over." I ignore his comment and took the bottle from him. "I thougth she loved me Joe," I slurred all my words. "I know I loved her..."

I thought she was perfect

she thought i was perfect too

perfect until she found someone new

now I'm stuck here watching her

I can't take this abuse

what does this guy do

that I can't do?

Joey finally took the bottle away from my hands and brought me to my feet. In the process of drinking the bottle I had some how ended up on the floor. "What does he have that I don't have!" I shouted and everyone turned to me. "Answer me Monica!" I yelled again. Joey managed to pull me out of the party and into our apartment.

"What the fuck is wrong with you Chandler!" he slapped me. I was too drunk to strike back. I remember dropping to the floor and crying my eyes out. "I thought she loved me..." I repeated again and again. "Get it together man." Joey kept on telling me, "Your're drunk Chandler." he dragged me to the bathroom and into the shower. "F...f..fuck." That was the coldest shower I had taken in years, but I stayed there.

"Listen, I have to go back to the party; get dressed and get some sleep will yah?" Joey's a great friend. Even to this day I can't forget him. "Thank you for everything." I said to him. Joey smiled going back across and leaving me there.

I got out of the shower and went into my room. Grabbing Joey's duffle bag, I packed my stuff and left a note on the fridge; some were Joey would soon look at. I also left a note on Rachel's door. I remember what it said:

'Dear friends,

I'm sorry I left with out saying anything. I just couldn't take it; I love Monica too much to see her with him. I Don't exactly know were I'm going, but when I get there I promise to call someone. Happy birthday Rachel and sorry I couldn't stay there longer. Ross I hope everything goes well with Marcel and who ever you marry next. Joey I left a sandwich in the fridge and a note there too. Phoebe don't ever change, I hope everything goes well with Mike. And Monica,

I'VE ALWAYS LOVED YOU AND THAT WONT EVER CHANGE...'

Take me away

I'm gonna hurt somebody

Take me away right now

how could she say

she wanted more you better

take me away right now

That's how I left everything and everyone in New York. I couldn't believe I actually left. I'ts been three years, and I hear Rachel married Ross, I just hope it works out. Phoebe married Mike and I somehow know that's gonna work. Joey I last heard made his own show. Monica got married, not with Richard, wich is great news because I still hate him...with his stupid mustache. Maybe me leaving really brought the group together, I'm Glad.

"Hey Chandler, C'mon lets go!" I heard my name being called and looked up, I smiled and walked out the doors. Putting my arms around her waist we walked into the sunset... Some day, I'd return to New York.

Take me away

A/N: R&R Please

and on a request by KYLLEE I am gunna continue the story :)