A/N: A Rachel drabble. Comments are much appreciated.
Disclaimer: I'm not affiliated with Glee in any way
"What are you doing here?"
She's not sure if she's seeing things, or if he's really there, with his perfectly coifed hair and his ever-present smirk and the familiarly dramatic entrance he just made. He says nothing, just looks at her, his face intense and filled with emotion, filled with- what, exactly? She used to think that it was passion, passion for her. But by now, she knows that he's just all too good at masking his utter indifference with human emotions. He's all too good of an actor for her to ever know what he's really thinking.
She realizes that she's still rooted on the spot, the piano a barrier between them. How convenient it is that everybody else has left the auditorium but her. How convenient that he caught her alone. She has so many contradicting feelings pulling her soul in every which way.
She wants to drag him, with all of the body strength that she has, drag all of him by the noose-like fabric of his scarf, all the way to the local zoo and push him straight into the lion's den to watch him beg for mercy.
That girl, the one he left in the parking lot with an egg cracked over her head, wants to cry and ask him why, ask him how he could ever say all the beautiful things he had said to her and then just left her, humiliated to the core as he walked away.
A part of her wants that long, overdue explanation. A part of her wants him to come back and beg for forgiveness, beg for another chance, just so she could have the satisfaction of stepping on his heart with her Mary Jane flats until it crumbles to dust.
His facade cracks, just a little, and suddenly she sees the doubt seeping into his eyes, the way his posture seems to slacken with hesitation.
Maybe Jesse St. James believed in karma. Maybe he really is back for reconciliation. What would she say to that?
She thinks about karma, and inevitably, as it is with every one of her thoughts, it leads to another boy, the one who does believe in it, even if he didn't fully understand it. What had she told him? It's like the law of physics. When you hurt someone, the laws of the universe will work against you until you get hurt.
Is that what happened to Jesse? If she forgives him, will karma make Finn finally forgive her?
She said it herself, you'd forgive your first love anything. Do first boyfriends count?
Finn forgave Quinn. What she did was so much worse than what Jesse had done, wasn't it?
"What are you doing here?" she asks again, when she realizes that she's been looking through him for too long.
The ever-present smirk is there again.
"Hello Rachel."