I'm sitting here, i can't move all i can hear is the sound of the heart monitor Beep beep... beep but that sound, that's what's telling me you're still alive, you're still fighting. "I need you to keep fighting for me Carla, please baby, i can't lose you". I say this as i sit by your hospital bed pushing some of the hair that's fallen over your face behind your ear so i can see your face, you're so beautiful.

I can't explain it you know, what first attracted me to you. There's just... something, and i know that doesn't come close to explaining what i feel for you, but that's all i have. It's that saying isn't it? "A moth is drawn to a flame" i guess it's because the flame is so bright and that's what it's like with you Carla, i'm drawn to you, i am that moth.

I guess i never saw it all those years ago when i wanted to buy into the factory what was it i said? "I'll be in touch" but you being the stubborn madam you are wasn't having any of it were you? I guess if i'd just looked harder, looked that little bit longer, i'd of seen what i see now and you wouldn't of had to go through everything you have but i suppose in a way it's made you that little bit stronger.

I need you to wake up for me Carla, because honestly i couldn't live my life without you and i hope i never have to, i really do. It's been a week since the robbery at the bistro, my bistro. One week since those thugs beat you up.

I'm still not sure why you were there, maybe you came looking for me, i said i'd keep you safe but that, well i guess i didn't keep my promise with that one did i? But know that i am sorry, and if i could go back i would, in a heartbeat.

It's a blur but i can still remember it, there was Kevin, Anna, and... Phelan i think that's his name, not that it really matters now, does it? And then... then i saw you, lying there motionless, i thought i'd lost you right there and then Carla. I couldn't see through the tears but i still ran, i ran to get to you i just wanted to hold you forever. The ambulance journey was the longest ride i've had to take, nothing compares to it, i said maybe we enjoy the rollercoaster ride but this is one i wish i didn't have to take, but i had to get you here. I had to get you somewhere safe.

But i suppose, what i'm really trying to say is, i love you so much and i never want to lose you. Please stay Carla.