Here it is, a prologue to my new fanfiction, These Skins. It is a Big Time Rush fic, in the style of skins, the magnificent tv show. I apologise for it's terrible-ness in advance.
Disclaimer: I don't own BTR... :(
WARNING: THIS IS NOT FOR CHILDREN. Contains sex, swearing, self harm, under-age drug and alcohol abuse, mental disorders, eating disorders and other under-age shenanigans. I do NOT condone any of these behaviours in real life.
Also, the following are quotes from our characters: Kendall, Logan, James, Carlos, Camille, Jo, and Katie. The characters are VERY OOC, and remember, this is a FICTION.
After all that, please enjoy!
"You know the quote- You know my name, not my story?- yeah, the one everyone makes fun of. Well that quote describes my life in a way I wouldn't have thought possible. Everyone thinks they know me, who I am, my family. But they have no idea. No idea at all."
"Dreams. Dreams can make you doubt yourself. Misjudge everything. My dreams, oh my dreams. I dream of times where it was all happy, easy, safe. I dream of a world without paradise lost. A world without pain. With protection. With love. With him."
"We all have secrets. Some people are just better at hiding them. We all wear carefully constructed costumes, masks that allow the world to see the person we make for them, not the person we truly are. But one small crack, a hole in these disguises, can cause for one person to see what they were never meant to... And I just can't allow this to happen."
"So we act like we don't see their pain. We distance ourselves to keep ourselves safe. We pull blindfolds over our eyes, pretending to not to notice all of the shit that goes on right under our noses. But I see. I see everything. And sometimes, I see too much."
"They assume I do drama because I love showing off. Yes, I guess this is partly true. But really, I do it as an escape from MY life. Because when I put on a costume, read from a script, I feel like I can forget about how fucked my family is. How fucked I am. I become another person, because it's too hard to be me."
"Perfect. I need to be perfect. I just want people to love me. I strive for the best. I have my fair share of secrets, but no one needs to know, do they? All that mattered is my image. As long as I come across as a perfect, angelic child, nothing even matters."
"At night. The darkness makes me come alive. I seem so different during the day- innocent and naive, bright futured and fresh faced. Deceit. Lies. Mess. This is what my life is. I thrive on it. Living for the moment, no regrets. No ties. No cares."
A snippet of what is to come. Tell me what you think. Reviews are always appreciated! x