chapter 1: Castiel

Sam was sitting at the table with his laptop in his face, probably doing research. I was so board. I wonder where Cas is? I thought to myself. I hadn't seen him in a couple of weeks when our faces got a little too close, and something happened.

(Start of flashback)

I was standing in our hotel, just me, no Sam. And I needed to speak to Cas about the new case we just got. This was the least thing I wanted to do but, I sat down on my bed and started praying.

"God, if you can hear me please send Castiel down here." no answer, and no sign of Cas either. I was getting frustrated, "Cas come on! Get your fluffy ass down here! Please." I added the please just in case he was mad at me for calling his ass fluffy. I stood up and paced the room.

"It's been five minutes Cas! Where the hell are you!" I kept pacing, when I was ready to face the other way and start pacing to the other side, when I heard Cas.

"Yes? You rang?" he said much closer than I expected. I spun around quickly, and Cas's face was just inches from mine. His hot breath blew over my face as he was trying to keep his breathing in control. My breathing was erratic too, neither of us backed off. We just stayed staring into each others eyes, until I felt a strong pull to him. Not like best buds but more.

"Cas I..." I breathed, but was cut off by a strong hand gripping the back of my head, and was being pulled even closer to him. We both tilted our heads and leaned in more, and our lips touched with such softness. He deepened the kiss, and I had my tongue ready to enter his mouth when the door busted open. And in walked Sam with a surprised look on his face. I mean what would you do if you saw your brother kissing a man.

Cas disappeared and I was left to face Sam by myself.

(End of flashback)

That day was the worst of my life. I got yelled at by Sam, and the guy I just kissed disappeared.

That kiss was perfect..Wait what am I saying? I'm not gay! Yes you are, you kissed a guy and you liked it! I argued, with myself. I stood up in a flash, and Sam jumped.

"Dean? You okay?" Sam asked starting to stand.

"Uh...Yeah. Just need some air. I'll uh..I'll be right back." and I grabbed my jacket and walked out the door.

I needed to clear my head, and the midnight air did the trick. I looked up at the stars, and took a deep breath.

"Cas...If...If you can hear me please, please come down here. We need to talk about what happened last week." I sighed. "Please." and I started sobbing, I felt a hand on my shoulder, I turned around and saw Castiel standing next to me. But we weren't outside the hotel anymore, we were in a bright meadow now.

I turned around and he scooped me up into a hug. I wrapped my arms around him and sobbed onto his trench coat.

"I'm sorry...I'm so...so...sorry." I whispered. There was no response from him just a gentle squeeze. He rubbed soothing circles into my back.

"Dean. Don't cry. I'm not mad at you for anything. Don't cry. I don't like seeing you hurt." he reached up with a hand and whipped away the tear that was streaming down my cheek.

I looked up just then and saw love in his eyes. My tears were starting to dry up, I looked around and we were now sitting on a bench.

"Do you still wanna talk? Or should I..." I cut him off by a hungry like kiss.