Diary
DISCLAIMER: Don't own Riviera 'cause if I did I'd be very rich and certain characters (coughSERENEcoughLEDAHcoughcough) would be a lot less miserable. But these little vignettes are all mine, so don't steal, it isn't very nice.
:Journey:
People say journey and they think it's all a grand adventure. I say journey and I know it's a long walk, and sore feet. Most people don't think of all the things you have to kill or hurt, either.
I don't care if demons are evil. They're still alive. Rose can yell all she wants, but I don't like killing. And I don't like journeys.
Being a Grim Angel isn't all it's cracked up to be. They all say, we're heroes because our predecessors saved Asgard when even the gods couldn't win the great war. We're the ultimate weapons, the ultimate trump cards. We can save Asgard over and over from things the gods never could. They lay their hopes and dreams on us like thousand-pound shackles.
Being a Grim Angel means cold and lonely and afraid at night unless you're tucked under Ledah's wing. Being a Grim Angel means pain and regret when you see your fellows flying and you know you no longer can. Being a Grim Angel means not knowing if what you're doing is right or wrong when everyone tells you they're counting on you.
A lot of the time I wish I was more like Ledah. He's always so calm and unshakable when the worst happens. He never questions what Hector tells us we have to do, doesn't even seem to realize how many lives the Retribution may cost. And of course, he still has his pitch-black wings. I'm ashamed every time I have to take off my shirt, because of the awful scars where mine used to be.
Ledah never has told me what he had to give up for Lorelei. Whatever it was, it can't have been as painful as giving up wings.
People say journey and they seem to think that it's over in five seconds. I know better. Ledah and Rose and I have been heading for Heaven's Gate for almost seven days now. I'm tired, I want rest and food and a decent bed. Ledah says I'll get used to it in time. He would know--he's been out way more than me. But every day I can't wait until we pitch camp. I'm just lucky Ledah hasn't gotten mad at me yet... I know I'm not much of a true Grim Angel. He's so patient... and such a good friend.
Rose says I'm a whiner. I say she should try walking every now and then, just to humor me. She wouldn't be all hissy then.
Ledah does walk, for my sake, which is partly why we're making such slow time. We're partners, and he already told me he wouldn't be much of one if he left me behind.
Journey means lots of time to think and a lot of time to feel sorry for yourself. I think until I get tired. Rose thinks until she gets irritable. Ledah thinks and says nothing.
But journey also means a lot of time with your friends.