After a long day at work Kara is sitting on her couch, eating podsickers and thinking about her day as well as the last few weeks. After she finishes eating, she takes her diary out an writes her thoughts down. Writing allways makes her mind calm down.
Kara's Diary:
It has been a few weeks since we stoped Reign. The city has been concerningly quite since then. I stopped a few burglaries, some bank robbers, intervene in an alien barfight and reconciled two gang. But apart from that there haven't been many incidences where Supergirl had to intervene. She is having it quite easy, which allows me to focus more on reporting. Recently the crime rate stated to rise a bit more. Nothing out of the ordinary anyway. I am worried though, because of the warning Barry gave me about time travel and the experience he made with flashpoint. How the changes in time cause to pile up into one big mess. I only travel back a few minutes and I used a disruption, not a timeship to do so but I am still worry what the effect could be. The hardest thing is though that I can talk to anyone about it. To everyone else that future never happen. Especially Lena can never know that Sam died the first time. Going to the fortress of sanctuary with the intention to kill Reign was probably the worst decision I ever made. I let myself be talked into something that I would have never done on my own. I can never let anyone not even my mom let me talk into abounden my values. Because if I abounden my values what makes me diffrent to all the other aliens? What makes me less of a thread than the once I stop? I let my fear determine mey actions, whith Reign and with Lena! That can never happen again! I can't get that picture with all three of them laying there, out of my head. That was my fault and even though that future will never happen it is still real for me and I can't tell anyone about it not even Alex. My friends still feel that something has me worrying, but I keep denying it. I try to hide my failure, I try to hide my worry, but I don't now for how long that will work. I need to talk to someone about it. Maybe Barry understands it. Since he is not from this Earth, it is not going to affecting him too much.
I am worried about Supergirl's and Lena's relationship, so I need to come up with something to fixt that. But this is not going to be easy since Lena seems to be quite disappointed in Supergirl and I can't really blame her. I made a huge mistake! I did one of the worst things I could ever do to Lena. How will she forgive me? I just hope there is a way to fix this, because I don't know how I can be distant as Supergirl and close to her as Kara! It is going to be really hard. I know Kara has been too distant to Lena the past weeks, for that very reason. I really need to do something with her, but how am I going to do this? Lena usually sees right through me.
Kara puts the diary aside and taking her phone in the attempt to call Lena. But as soon she sees her number, Lena's words come back to her.
"Frankly I am just working with Supergirl to save Sam. …Never meet your ideals it will only lead to disappointment. …Supergirl is not all truth and justice like she pretends to be. …Supergirl went behind my back and used my personal relationships against me, that is something my mother would do. She crossed a line I can never trust her again."
"We don't have a friendship Supergirl. … Why is it so important to you that we are friends? I have friends, Supergirl. Friends that don't scam behind my back or lie. Given my history they know how painful that would be. They also know that I would never enter into a friendship who has already breached that trust."
Her courage lets her down and she pushes it once again to another day. She hasn't talked to Lena in weeks. She is scared that she will ruin thier other friendship as well. Lena has called her twice but Kara refrains from answering, knowing that she might not be able to be the best friend that Lena needs right now. She is especially afraid that Lena would want to talk about Supergirl with her and Kara most certainly can't do that. If Lena were to blame Supergirl and tell Kara how disappointed she is in her, Kara wouldn't be able to hold up. And then Lena would just get suspicious, which is the last Kara needs right now. Kara goes to bed with a crump in her belly, an worry on her mind.
Hi, this is my first story. Please keep reading, even if the first two chapters have not that much action. I want to use them to give the read a sens of what the current situation is. There is plenty of action ahead. I have already serval challenges planed that Supergirl/Kara will have to face. Challenges considering her friend and family, their safety, as well as her relationships with them. This storry is about who Kara is to herself and to everyone else. And how the diffent aspects of her personality play together.
Please let my know what you like and what you don't like, so I can improve my writing.