I don't own YYH. Don't sue and I won't flame you. This is written in Hiei's point of view. Don't flame either. Arigato.
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I sit outside, in the rain, watching people scurry by in their daily activities. Those people, the useless type, they run around, thinking that what they are doing now is so important, so essential for their everyday life are really just blind. It makes me sick. It is like the fox's horde of evil minions, always trying to stalk him. I shudder. I'm relieved that I am not him.
The rain finally stops. I zipped over to the old hag's temple. Yukina came out. I felt a pang of guilt, of remorse. I could have told her that I am her lost brother. But I won't. It is better that way. Not only she won't feel pain because I am murderer, but because if my enemies find out, she will become a target. I must keep my sister safe at all costs. The jagan eye will do no good if she is dead. Why? Why must things be like this? I hear a voice break into my thoughts. It is Yukina. She is laughing because the idiot just came out and stumbled into a puddle. He looks stupider by the minute. Now he fell into a bush, one with nasty thorns. What does my sister see in this fool?
After while, the idiot went home. Yukina waved to him good bye from the temple. She walked back to a clearing in the youkai forest. That place is actually calm, serene from the sun. But wait, what is Yukina doing? She is crying? Why? I hopped over to the next branch, within hearing range. I could hear her, lamenting to the sky, to anyone who would listen to her wish on her brother. Is it better to tell her the truth and hurt her physically and mentally or sitting here to hear her sobbing over her broken heart? Why does Kami-sama give me this choice? Like what they call me, the Forbidden Child, I am a child to demons, am I not? I had to kill to survive, not like my sister. She lives in innocence. I will not let that innocence be taken away.
This choice is frustrating. To tell the truth or not? Either way, it will hurt her. I want to run away. Run away from this choice. Never think about it. There is another way out of this mess. Death. But, the evilness of a conscience shall never allow me to do so. Why? She is the only person I truly care about, the most important people of this world. Why? Why can't I just die? She doesn't need me does she? The idiot is good enough for her.
I can hear her, still sobbing. I wish she would just stop. I felt so much sorrow, it reflects my background. Even sweet snow wouldn't cheer me up. Sweet snow is just another thing to keep my mind off this question. Why? Why me?
She stopped after a while, but I knew better. She is still hurting inside. However, I see her, laughing at all the jokes Yusuke and the idiot makes. I wonder how the idiot makes my sister laugh. By being useless? I honestly don't know. But since when had I felt happiness? I don't know. But I will never tell her about this secret.