Thinking of You
I'm sitting quietly here
Nothing to say, nothing to do.
Think of the fight.
Think of what I've done to you.
Sometime I wish I'd never been.
Sometime I'm glad I am.
But it's always there, that horrid sin,
Of being glad I'm in with them.
Doing drugs, getting high,
Off violence, off blood
Off those horrid cries.
See them trying to run.
Trying to flee,
But I stomp them down,
Laughing in glee.
Me, just being me.
I wonder why,
I wonder how,
I'd ever fought.
I wish I hadn't, now.
I've done some things,
I wish I'd not.
Fought some battles,
I wish I hadn't fought.
But that's in the past,
That's gone for good.
But the aftermath will always last.
I wish I could cry.
I really do.
But I'm so, so cold,
Thinking of you.
I hadn't realized the pain,
Until you died,
I hadn't seen how vain,
How much I'd lied.
Now I'm sitting here,
Cold, cold, cold.
I'm enveloped in fear,
No longer as bold.
Where are you now?
Where did you go?
Please come back.
I need you more than I know.
I can't cry.
I can't fly.
I can't laugh.
I can't fight off
Death's horrid wrath.
Tell me what to do.
Tell me how.
Or else I'll just sit here
All alone,
Thinking of you.
