OK, I've been having a lot of problems lately. All my life, I've suffered from asocial disorders, meaning that I can't talk with people normally and, this year, it's spiraling out of control. I've become more stressed out because of it and I've often bottled up my feelings which, I've learned, only intensified them. Now, I can't even open my mouth to speak with those I don't know and I often cry silently because I'm in the back if the class by choice and I choose to work by myself in group work. It's also been effecting my joy in art, music and fanfiction. I bet you're noticing that I haven't updated in a few weeks and that's because I've been trying hard to please people. I've always been a try hard and I've often been made fun of it. I've had to put off my other stories to update my ask fic all the time, there's always homework, I'm also almost always coming home and seeing my brother and father arguing. I've promised a friend on tumblr that I'd make her oc for her 18 birthday on the 28th and I've been focusing on that but I've also promised a person that I'd make a video tribute for star wars rebels using a specific song for his choice. If I make it good, he'll give me a shout out to my channel and it'll further my subscriptions but I also promised some of my tumblr friends that I'd make a video for them as well and I also agreed to ask the people who have asked me questions so far if I can use their OCs in a chapter and what they look like to fulfill an anon magic. All the things I love have now become a hell hole. This year, I ended up having to quit band because I ran out in teh middle of the practice performance, crying because I thought I couldn't do it well.
I know that half of you don't care or think it's a bluff but I'm not joking and I'm not lying. I'll try to update more in the future but, if I have to in order to keep my followers happy, I'll lost another chapter of this, saying I need help updating stories and choose someone who's been my friend in here since I started, if they ask to help, my email address I use and my password so that they may write on my stories. Please, don't argue over this. I don't want to split the fanfiction community apart.
Bye and thanks for reading this long.