I look up to see my sister staring at me. We were backstage getting ready to perform. I felt excited and nervous, but these weren't just pre-show jitters. Tonight was the night. Sara and I had been planing for years for this exact moment. Tonight was the night we would tell them all. I give my sister a smile, but she sees right through it.
"Tegan don't worry, what's the worst that could happen?" She knows me well, but those words can only calm me for a short time. We were in LA, which always brings the biggest crowds, and here tonight also happened to be our mom, Sara's girlfriend Stacey, and my girlfriend Lindsey. Maybe I should explain how it all started.
A few years ago Sara and I were nothing more than your average famous lesbian twin sisters. We fought all the time and the more time we spent together, the worse the fighting became. I had always felt something more than just sisterly love towards her though. When I saw her smile it was like a million startled butterflies were trying to escape the depths of my abdomin. I had liked other girls but when I was with her, it was something I could never explain. But, just as my luck would be, she was untouchable. Or so I thought. One night we got in an extremely heated argument over something stupid. She threw the first punch. Before I knew it, she was on top of me and I was looking up at the swollen lip I had given her as her blood threated to fall on the eyes were full of rage and her fist was curled up tight. I couldn't take it anymore, I had enough fighting. I had to tell her the truth. "Sara, please. I have to tell you something. But you need to calm down." I remember the way her face had calmed and the balled up fist had made its way to the inside of my cheast. As you can guess I told her the truth of how I felt and somehow she felt the same. We've secretly been together ever since.
She stands by my side and holds my hand. I close my eyes, imagining the worst. Our fans leaving, being discusted by what we are, jail, no one excepting us, getting sent to a "clinic". Calling this feeling scared was an understatment. I take a deep breath, giving her hand a squeeze as I hear someone give us a 5 minute warning. Fuck. We get on stage and I look out to the screaming fans. I'm only able to make out a few smiling faces. I see Lindsey and give her a wink, but I know she's going to hate me later. I try to put it out of my mind as I banter on stage. I mess up a few times, but Sara doesn't seem to mind tonight, knowing how I feel. She's so perfect sometimes I could cry, and I almost do as our last song is coming to an end. I give a look at her as I play the last few notes. There's tears in my eyes and I know that if I speak they would come pouring down so I just put on a smile for the fans. She gives me a concerned look as the sound of appluase echos through the room. I couldn't take all this anymore. As I realized this was a bad idea, it was already too late.
"Thank you all very much! We appreciate everything you guys have given us and I hope you all have a great night, but first there's something Tegan and I would like to say..."
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