Edward just left to go hunting. It's only been a week since I rescued him from Italy, so the hole in me still opens up when he's gone. But what I didn't tell him or Alice or anybody, is that I finally find a way to cope. It doesn't make the hole go away completely, but it helps me find a way to get past the pain. I picked up the guitar that I had stashed away under my bed, and tuned it. When it was perfect, I started to sing.
When you're gone it feels like,
My whole world's gone with you
I thought love would be my cure
But now it's my disease
I try to act mature
But I'm a baby when you leave
How can I ever get used to being without you?
That's the thing. No matter how Edward says I can move on from him, I know that I never can. I barely even survived him being gone these last few months. How would I survive forever?
(Yeah)
Baby, baby, baby, baby
Am I addicted?
When I need you here all the time?
And I'm not sure if this is healthy
Is it a sickness?
Because I feel like I'm losing my mind
And I know that there's no medicine
Nothing I can take, no remedy
Baby please stay
It seems like no matter how many times I tell Edward I want him to stay, he never does. Am I speaking a different language than him?
(Oh oh oh)
When you're gone it feels like,
My whole world's gone with you
I thought love would be my cure
But now it's my disease (my disease)
I try to act mature
But I'm a baby when you leave
How can I ever get used to being without you?
Oh oh oh baby, baby, baby
I get a fever
Just the thought of you leaving my side
Oh oh
And I'm not the same 'til you're back holding me
That's all I need
It's true. I was not the same until Edward came back. Once he held me in his arms, I was whole again.
(Oh yeah)
When you're gone it feels like (when you're gone baby)
My whole worlds gone with you (gone with you)
I thought love would be my cure
But now it's my disease (my disease)
I try to act mature
But I'm a baby when you leave
How can I ever get used to being without you
Whoa whoa
Here's what I'm going through when you're gone
Some serious symptoms of withdrawal
(oh oh oh)
Tossing and turning in my bed
Waking up drenched in a cold sweat
(Oh oh oh)
Lying here longing for you
What am I supposed to do?
When I'm stuck and I can't get enough of your love
Describes my life without him perfectly, doesn't it?
Oh oh oh whoa Baby
When you're gone it feels like (when you're gone baby)
My whole world's gone with you (gone with you)
I thought love would be my cure
But now it's my disease (my disease)
I try to act mature
But I'm a baby when you leave
How can I ever get used to being without you?
By the time I finished the song, I had tears streaming down my face. So many, in fact, that I didn't even notice someone in the room with me until two cold arms wrapped themselves around me. I jumped, heart racing. I rubbed my eyes and found Edwards eyes inches from mine. They were filled with torture, and guilt.
"That song…it was about me, wasn't it? About your life when I was gone?" he said, his eyes going to the floor.
"Yes." I said. I got up and put my guitar back under my bed. I wasn't going to say anything else till he said something. Then the situation came back to me, and I felt my checks turn bright red. He just heard me sing! He's the first one ever to hear me play, and he has to hear a sad song that I wrote about him. This is mortifying. I felt a finger under my chin lift my head up, and Edward looked at me and said, "Why are you embarrassed?"
I refused to answer, so he dazzled it out of me. Once he heard the answer, he shook his head, smiling slightly.
"Love, you played the song perfectly, and sounded good too. I could feel all the emotion you put in that song. I just never want you to feel that way again." He said, whispering the last part.
"Then never leave me again." I said, hugging him and leading him back down to the bed.
"Never again." He swore, and gave me a kiss. Then he tucked me under the blankets. "Sleep now, my Bella." He said softly, kissing my forehead.
I fell asleep with a smile on my face. Little did I know, things were going to change very soon.
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~Twilightfreak9075
Song: Love is my Disease by Alicia Keys