Diary of a Newborn

I'm not totally sure how this one will turn out. But for now, it'll be a diary sorta thing from Bella's point of view. And by the way, sorry this one's so incredibly short. Of course, they'll get longer, gradually.

Disclaimer: No, I don't own anything in this story – it's all Stephenie Meyer's work.

1:14 PM.

I'm on a mission…

To kill.

Nah, not really. But I am on a mission to find Edward. Edward – the meaning of my existence, the apple of my eye, the love of my life – dead and alive. Well, that's cheesy, but you get what I'm saying. He's my other half.

Ever since I said goodbye to Jacob, I haven't taken a glance back at him. If Jacob was my sun, and I was going to become a vampire, well, he wasn't so necessary. Maybe that's a little rude, I mean I love Jake, but he's not the one for me. And anyway, with the whole imprinting thing, I could end up like Leah. Left. Forgotten. Alone.

All of those things in mind, I know I will never regret choosing to be with Edward.

So anyway, back to my mission. I have to find Edward. He's… gone missing. I know folks, I'm just as shocked as you are. But not very worried. He's just on a hunting trip with the boys. As simple as that sounds, I can't stand being away from him. I really do miss him, he's been gone for two days now. But he'll be back soon, of course, Alice assured me. And besides, he says it's absolutely necessary for him to take every precaution he can today – today, the day I become…

(drum roll please)

A vampire.

4:06 PM.

Edward's finally back. It's about time. But he's in the garage with Emmett and Jasper, doing who knows what. Being them, they're probably just sitting there admiring their vehicles. But Edward said it they were discussing a "serious" and "important" subject. Right, I thought. As if Emmett can actually be serious.

Anyway, right now Alice has me locked up in her room sitting in an uncomfortable chair, air drying my hair. She says it will keep it from getting frizzy, not that I really care. Just because the boys are gone, she thought it would be just a grand idea to play Barbie with me! I don't know why, considering the fact that I'm dying in about four hours, and I'll spend three more days withering in brutal pain, as she says. "But don't let that rain on your parade, Bella! It'll be fine." She'd said. Oh yeah, that'll help the nerves. I can't say I'm not nervous, because I am, but another part of me is really excited. Aside from the pain of course, the blood red eyes, and unbearable thirst, I'm looking forward to becoming immortal. I'll finally, truly, become tied to Edward – and the rest of the Cullens – for real.

Uh oh, Alice is back. And she has various hair bands, barrettes, and a can of hairspray. Time to take cover…

7:39 PM.

Alice is finally done! I'm free!

When I looked into the mirror, I can't say I didn't like what I saw. Alice has curled my hair, tying half of it back, and she got me some blue velour Juicy Couture sweats – "casual comfort with style," she calls it. The makeup is light; just some mascara, (waterproof, of course) blush, and lip gloss. My feet are covered by a pair of designer socks (who knew?).

Finally, after some finishing touches, Alice has let me go. At the current moment, I'm sitting in Edward's lap in the living room and we're watching Emmett get really into his video game. It's a bit scary, honestly.

Edward keeps staring at me. It's making me sort of self-conscious.

"What?" I ask him.

"Nothing," he says innocently. "You just look so beautiful."

As expected, I blush at this. "Well, thanks,"

We continue watching Emmett roll on the floor, yelling things like "No! Die, you robotic imbecile!" at the television screen when Edward's cell phone rings. He glances at the screen, but it's too quick for me to see. "What, Alice," he asks impatiently. After listening for a minute, his expression becomes a mixture of chagrin and shock. "What?" he asks again, his voice much smaller. I stare at him, confused. After another second, he sighs and says, "Okay, well, thanks, I guess," and shuts the phone.

"What was that?" I demand.

"Nothing," he says quickly.

"Tell me."

"Seriously Bella, it's nothing to worry about,"

"Edward…"

He turns to me with a wary look in his glorious face. "Well, Alice saw something," he started.

"And?"

He fidgets with his fingers. "She saw… someone."

"Who?"

"Tanya."

I try to stay calm. There's no reason for nerves, is there? "What about them?"

He sighs in resignation. "She's coming here. In about five days."

"Here? Why?"

"Because, apparently she 'needs a break' from the rest of the Denali clan, and we're the closest ones of their kind, so…" his voice trailed off suggestively.

"Umm, okay," I say. "So how long is she staying?"

Edward looks surprised. "What, you're not throwing a fit?" he asks incredulously. I roll my eyes.

"Well, obviously I'm not happy about this. But as long as you have no contact with her whatsoever, I think I'll be fine." I conclude with a smirk. "So, how long?"

"I'm not sure. But it can't be for more than a month,"

A month? I grimace inwardly. "Fine."

Edward wraps his arms around me and kisses my cheek. "Be nice," he says.

"I'll do my best."

All of a sudden, Alice comes bouncing down the stairs. She doesn't look as cheerful and bubbly as usual, but rather a bit worried. "Edward? Bella?" she calls. Edward stands up and leads me toward the staircase where the pixie vampire is.

"Well?" she asks expectantly.

"Well, what?" Edward asks.

"It's eight 'o clock," she says quietly. "Are you ready?"

How could I have forgotten? I mentally slap myself in the face for losing track of time. The butterflies in my stomach are fluttering five times their normal speed. "Oh, yeah," I say lamely.

Emmett suddenly shuts the power off his video game and walks toward us. Edward nods as Alice, answering an unspoken question or giving her permission to move, I don't know. All four of us walk up the spiraling stars, at human speed for once, and then Alice stops At Edward's door.

"Everything's set up. Don't worry, I'm constantly having visions of Bella waking up all fine," she assures us. Before I know it, she's grabbing me in a tight hug, almost cutting off my circulation, and then steps away for Emmett to hug me. "Good luck, Bella!" they call before leaving downstairs again.

Edward slowly opens the door, and before I can do anything, he wraps his arms around my waist and passionately kisses me, but his lips are nervous, anxious. Of course, I can't blame him. I am too. "Are you sure you want to do this?" he asks a last time.

"More than anything," I answer surely.

He shuts the door and walks me to his big bed, covered with extra pillows and blankets. I didn't quite know why. I doubted I was going to do any sleeping.

Edward sits next to me, still as a statue, just staring at me. I take a shaky deep breath. Nervous, who me?

He lowers his head to mine and kisses me a second time. "I love you," he whispers, before brushing his lips to my neck, leaving them there for a second. The next thing I feel is his razor-sharp teeth piercing my skin with the slightest pressure. I jump and panic bit at the feeling, but quickly will my heart to stop overreacting. The worst was only yet to come.

A/N: Yes, there's the first chapter for you. I don't know how long it will take to make the next one. Hope you like it!