It consumes me with fire
Overpowering my self-control.
I try to keep it caged,
But nothing seems to be able to hold it.
I try to trap it,
But it always escapes.
I try to keep it under lock and key.
If I let him go, he'll tear me to pieces with its razor sharp teeth.
Controlling it seems impossible;
Its ominous attitude fills me with rage.
I can feel it deep within me,
That fastidious monster that disparages my confidence.
With its desire to destroy me, it's indomitable.
It creates diversions to distract my conscience,
Inevitably corroborating my vulnerability to evil.
I said stay away from me!
The beast that's defiled me is ugly.
It is strident when it howls its insults as it controls my every move.
You turn to look, but it's too late, he's quick.
It's already hiding in my body, in my head.
Putting me on as a disguise.
What have I become?
There's a feeling deep inside me;
It says this is only the beginning.
That there is no escaping now.
I've become a host; a puppet.
It won't set me free, it won't turn back.
It's penetrated the walls that protect my heart,
Beating them down with hate.
It's enjoying itself as it destroys me.
I can't believe it's happened to me…
I've become a monster.