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Warnings: Most of my chapters will have some form of dark content whether it be an attempted suicide, gore, character death, self harm, or any other type that you can think of I DO write dark stories so please just always be prepared for some kind of dark element it is almost 100% of the time there. Thanks guys.

Authors Note: This is actually a rewrite that I did for this chapter I think this works much better than the original.

"Speech"

'Thoughts'

Jutsu (Japanese)

Jutsu (English translation)

"Kyuubi speech"

'Kyuubi thoughts'

Chapter 1

He never even felt the blade.

Just the motion of it. Nothing else. He never felt the cold dulled steel edge of the kunai. He remembered the motion of it. The motion of him dragging the blade across his throat. Starting near his left collar bone and ending an inch below his jaw on the right side of his neck. He remembered looking in the mirror and seeing the blood spray from his jugular vein as he had just gone deep enough to nick it; he remembered hearing a deep gurgling sound and seeing bubbles escaping from his throat as he destroyed his own windpipe; he remembered immediately dropping down to the floor, holding his throat more in surprise than pain; he also remembered hearing a voice as he began to feel sleepy and closed his eyes.

He thought of his few friends as he drifted off. Yamanaka Ino, Haruno Sakura, and to an extent Nara Shikamaru. He thought of the small happiness he felt when he was with them, and he also thought of how greedy he was probably being. But he also thought about the years of torment he received from those in his own village. His fellow citizens and shinobi alike.

The way they looked at him; the way they spoke about him; the way they beat him half to death; the way some of them had treated him like a toy.

Then he felt happy. This was the first time he had no worries, no stress, no more pain. No matter how much his friends had done for him Naruto was okay with himself for making this 'greedy' choice. It was the first time he truly felt happy.

All these thoughts, good and bad, continued to loop in Naruto's mind as he finally let go and drifted into complete unconsciousness.

After so long in complete silence it was jolting to hear a rhythmic beeping sound and distant conversations. Naruto could hear doors opening and closing, footsteps, and even a few people laughing. However he still could not open his eyes. It was almost as if they were glued shut.

Ten minutes pass and he can make out the smell of fresh flowers and a much more overpowering chemically stale scent. Still though his eyes were stuck shut, but now he was able to feel his body. He had never been more exhausted in his life, his entire body felt like it was thirty pounds heavier and his lips were dry and cracked, his mouth was so dry his tongue was sticking to his cheeks and all he wanted was some water. However, his desire to fall asleep was much greater and he found himself lulling back to sleep.

This time when he was awoken it was because of two voices that were in the same room as him. Even though they were whispering Naruto could make out that there was one male and one female.

"Was he really-?" The female voice asked out barely above an audible whisper, however she never finished her sentence before the male voice shushed her, "Shut up, he's waking up." Naruto heard the male voice walk over to the foot of his bed and grab the clipboard that was attached to the railing.

His curiosity taking over Naruto, to his surprise, was able to just barely crack his eyes open feeling them being dried out with a good bit of crust around the corners of them. He blinked a few times trying to clear his slightly blurry vision when the man in front of him came into focus.

The first thing he noticed about the man was his extraordinarily large and pointy bird-like nose, and the top of his head only had a few wisps of snow white hair making him look like a newborn bird. He was dressed in a white lab coat with a yellow button-up undershirt and black slacks with dress shoes. Making Naruto realize that this was his doctor.

He looked over to the female and saw that she looked about forty years younger than the doctor. She was a very typical young nurse who was self-conscious of her looks, with a solid five pounds of makeup on her face hiding any of her real features. Her hair was pulled up in a tight bun on the top of her head. She wore the typical white nurses scrubs along with a pair of one inch white high heels and a pair of golden spiral earrings in both ears.

The woman must have caught him staring just a few seconds too long as she covered her chest with both arms and had a look of disgust on her face. 'Great.' Naruto thought, 'An egotistical bitch who thinks I'm checking her out.'

He returned his attention to the doctor who was mumbling to himself and violently scratching something down onto the clipboard. The baby bird doctor kept shifting his eyes between the clipboard and Naruto. Seeming to get more and more furious the longer he looked at Naruto until he finally threw the wooden clipboard down onto the floor cracking a corner of it off, "Goddamn it! What?" A pit grew in Naruto's stomach as the doctor quickly closed the distance between the two almost vibrating with rage.

As much as he could in his weakened state Naruto mustered all of the strength he had and scrambled as far away from the enraged man as he could, pushing himself up against the the metal bar headboard. This only caused the man to get even closer, effectively trapping him against the wall, "Do you even know what you are? What you have done? The people you have hurt?"

At this point Naruto couldn't even breath he felt like he was sucking in water. He was terrified, he had no idea what this man could do to him so he did the only logical thing when asked a question. He shook his head 'no'. That only seemed to fuel the fire that was this mans anger and he actually grabbed Naruto by the shoulder and ripped him off the bed causing him to slam his back against the tile floor with a large ammount of force knocking what little air he had in his lungs out.

The man then grabbed the front of Naruto's patient scrubs and yanked him forward hard enough that his feet were the only thing on the floor. He pulled the terrified blonde as close as he could to his face, "Your a fucking demon is what you are! Your the goddamn Kyuubi who killed my son!" The man was yelling with such force that spit was leaking from the corners of his mouth. Naruto could see tears starting to form in the mans eyes before he threw Naruto back down on the ground.

The altercation brought a lot of attention as the door was flung open and three fully equipped Anbu shinobi stormed into the room. The leader of the squad who was wearing a hippo mask smashed his left fist into the doctors over sized nose bending it to the left as blood flowed from it like a fountain. The initial punch sent the man reeling backwards against the wall and in a split half of a second 'Hippo' had unsheathed his tanto blade and had it pressed on the right side of the mans neck forcing him to stand on tip toe to avoid being sliced open.

Seconds later the Sandaime along with the fourth member of the Anbu squad entered the room Hiruzen had death in his eyes. The three Anbu who had stormed the room roughly shoved the man down the hallway at the signal the Sandaime had given. After the main issue had vacated the room Hiruzen snapped his eyes to the much younger nurse who had by this point been reduced to a shivering and quaking mess on the floor, "Leave now." Hiruzen told the woman very dangerously.

After a quick nod she scrambled out of the room planning on getting as far away from the Sandaime as possible.

The veteran shinobi turned to his last remaining Anbu, "Go. Find Takagi Makoto now and bring him to me. I wish to speak with him." The Anbu quickly bowed their head before using shunshin to find said man as quick as possible.

Hiruzen quickly began helping Naruto get back onto the bed. He internally frowned as he saw the gauze wrapped around Naruto's throat were now a deep crimson red, 'Shit. That dumb ass must have opened the stitches when he threw Naruto onto the ground.'

After making sure Naruto was secure in his bed he went to the cabinets and pulled out a compression pad and a fresh roll of gauze. Hiruzen unwrapped the bloodied bandages and threw them in the garbage. Hiruzen then wet the compression pad and pushed it over the large cut and re-wrapped it, 'That will have to do for now until we can get these stitches fixed.'

Hiruzen waited a few minutes, giving the terrified teen enough time to calm down and catch his breath before deciding to talk, "I apologize for what happened today Naruto. I planned on talking to you about this once you had more time to rest, but it seems like that isn't really an option anymore." Naruto looked towards the older shinobi with an empty and stone look in his eyes.

Hiruzen's breath caught in his throat forcing him to take a second to swallow the uncomfortable lump.

"Naruto, fourteen years ago before you were born Konohagakure was attacked by a demon; attacked by the Kyuubi." Naruto's face showed nothing but understanding but Hiruzen continued anyway, "The only way to defeat it was to seal it into a child. The Kyuubi's chakra was far to vast to be safely sealed in anyone other than a baby. Unfortunately, the child that the Yondaime sealed the demon into was you."

The impassive look still stayed on Naruto's features but Hiruzen could almost hear the boys teeth grinding together in ire.

"That doesn't in anyway make you a demon Naruto, even though that is how many chose to perceive you. They are just blinded by emotions. Wanting to push the blame onto someone." The aging leader let out a sigh before looking Naruto in the eyes, giving him a comforting smile, "By a law that I implemented soon after the attack anyone with knowledge about the attack was forbidden to speak about it. If they didn't comply with the law they would face the punishment of execution." He was unsure why he was telling everything to Naruto. He guessed it was because he thought he deserved to know after all these years, "The good thing is that no-one from your generation knows about it yet. I hoped that it would help you find friends. Friends like the Yamanaka and Haruno girls."

Even with all this new information spinning in his head Naruto grinned at hearing the mention of his two friends. Hiruzen chuckled, happy to see the blonde looking a little bit happier given all the shit he had been through that day.

After a few seconds the Sandaime took on a serious expression again, "I wanted you to have a few more days to rest before telling you this but with today's incident I think it's best we clear it up now." Naruto let his smile fall and looked at the older man urging him to continue, "With the cause of your hospitalization being so serious, it's necessary to take proper action to help resolve the issue. Since Yamanaka Inoichi is capable and willing to be your mental health caretaker, it would be acceptable for you to stay with him and his daughter until he clears you to live on your own." The frown on the young boys face told him that he was not too keen on trying to explain to one of his only friends why he tried to kill himself so Hiruzen suggested the second option, "Or you will have to be admitted into a mental health care facility where you would stay for a minimum of six months; possibly more if it is deemed necessary." Once again the teen did not seem to adamant about living with complete strangers where he may be treated even more horribly than he was by the citizens.

The Sandaime looked at Naruto's face for a few seconds. Seeing his eyebrows furrow and raise in deep thought, "You don't have to make the choice today. For now I want you to try and get a little rest, we can work all of this out tomorrow alright Naruto?"

The blonde shook his head before pulling the starchy sheet over his body leaning against his pillow keen on getting some rest. He hadn't realized how exhausted he was until now.

Hiruzen stood up from the bed and walked over to the door, shutting it as he walked out.

After a slight wave of his hand a masked Anbu member appeared before him, having just been waiting in the shadows watching everything that was going on, "I want you to watch over Naruto until Makoto-san arrives. Do not allow anyone but myself and Makoto in the room understood?"

The masked shinobi bowed and responded, "Hai Hokage-Sama" in a high pitched feminine voice.

Naruto was awoken by a light knocking on his door. Just as his eyes had opened and became adjusted to the bright light in his room he saw a middle aged man in his late thirties pop his head into the door looking around curiously.

The man fully opened the door and stepped in closing it behind him, allowing Naruto to get his first good look at the man.

He was fairly tall, standing at around six foot give or take an inch. With neatly combed back jet black hair. His caramel brown eyes were slightly wrinkled from years of working a stressful job but his face held a very kind look to it. His nose was much smaller than the doctor from yesterday, curving up in a little point that held a rounded pair of glasses atop the peak. He looked at Naruto with a smile that could only be described as energetic and childish. Moving down from his face, Naruto could see that the man was no stranger to food, his plump belly generously hanging over his belt line. The man who Naruto deemed to be a doctor from the clothing he was wearing; a white lab coat, green undershirt, gray dress pants, and sneakers that were barely held together by a few stitches; looked to hide no ill feelings toward the boy. He looked genuine and carefree.

However, Naruto still decided to be wary since he had been deceived before.

"Its really nice to meet you Naruto-kun. My name is Takagi Makoto. But please just call me Makoto." The man giggled to himself before leaning against the wall to rest.

He seemed to notice the careful look on Naruto's face and felt his heart ache for the boy, "It's okay Naruto-kun. I'm here because the Sandaime trusts me." Makoto did something that shocked Naruto to no end. He bowed to Naruto. This wouldn't have been a big deal to most people but this was the first adult to show any kind of respect to the boy without being forced to do it, "I just want to help you to the best of my abilities. Please allow me to do so."

Naruto relaxed his scrupulous gaze and decided to give this man a chance. After all he was the first civilian to give him any sort of recognition of him being a human being.

Again Makoto smiled and laughed to himself before approaching the blondes bedside, "Alright then! Before anything else I would like to check up on those stitches of yours okay?" Naruto nodded to Makoto, giving him permission to check.

After unwrapping the bandages and taking off the cold compress Makoto cleaned the entire wound with disinfectant before swiftly fixing two stitches that had been opened the previous day. After cleaning everything the chubby doctor redressed the wound.

"Well the good news is, I believe you can be released in a few days as long as nothing unexpected happens. There isnt much of a reason for you to be bedridden here for much longer."

Naruto grinned at the thought of leaving. He hadn't really had the most pleasant experience at the hospital so far. He however looked to Makoto when he began speaking again, "The Sandaime and I really need an answer today of where you will be staying Naruto."

Naruto began fingering the edges of his sheets as soon as he heard this. Quite frankly he was terrified of what Ino and her father would think of him if he decided to stay with them. It sounded like the better option but he was scared of how that would turn out. Almost as if reading his mind Makoto gave a reassuring smile, "Hey kid? Don't worry about the Yamanakas. I spoke with Inoichi-san this morning and he still hasn't told Ino anything. As far as she knows you have had a bad case of the flu."

At the still unsure look on Naruto's face Makoto continued, "And when you do decide to tell your friends about what really happened Inoichi-san told me to let you know that he will be with you the entire time. You're not alone Kid. We're all here for you.

Gaining a bit more confidence Naruto smiled slightly and nodded confirming that he would be going with the Yamanakas. The plump man smiled back at the blonde before writing down something on the clipboard he held, "I'm glad Naruto-kun. However we still have a bit more to discuss before I can get out of your hair."

Makoto sat a few images down on Naruto's lap catching the attention of the boy.

"The wound on you neck is pretty nasty Naruto. Seeing as how deep you cut. You're extraordinarily lucky that you survived, but that doesn't mean you are out of the woods just yet. Look right here." Makoto's chubby finger was planted on an image showing his neck from the front, "You actually did a good ammount of damage to your vocal cords as well as you windpipe here. While we were able to put everything back as best we could you may find your self easily running out of breath while exerting yourself. We recommend you take it as easy as you can for the next two months or so while it heals properly. As for your vocal cords, that was a bit more difficult. We were able to put them back together but the ammount of damage they took was quite substantial. If you are able to regain you ability to speak at all we think it would cause a great deal of discomfort due to the ammount of scar tissue that will undoubtedly build up on the muscles causing speaking to be difficult task. The only thing that we can do for now though it prevent any infections from occurring and wait."

Naruto lowered his head a bit upon hearing this. But Makoto cracked a joke attempting to cheer him up, "Try not to be too terribly upset Kid. Chicks dig scars and love the silent types." Makoto giggled to himself like a school girl causing the blonde teen to crack a small smile of his own.

Wiping a tear from the corner of his eye and recomposing himself Makoto finished filling out a few reports before heading over to the door, "It was great finally meeting you Naruto-kun. I will be seeing you the next few days. Until we can release you though please try to rest as much as you can alright?" Naruto nodded towards the man before laying back in his bed and closing his eyes attempting to get as much sleep as he could before he was woken again.

Authors Note:

I ended up scrapping a shit ton of the original draft for this chapter, opting to just rewrite most of it that hopefully will fit the feel of the story better. I really hope the flow between the first three chapters works well with this revision as I rewrote this after posting the third chapter. If you have any suggestions feel free to let me know I would love to hear what y'all have to say. Until next time!