"Light thinks it travels faster than anything but it is wrong. No matter how fast light travels, it finds the darkness has always got there first, and is waiting for it." Terry Pratchett
Chapter One
The first words are always the hardest to write. Not knowing how to even begin to write not just a story like... once upon a time there was a princess... no, this one is anything but a fairytale. It's my life, my privacy that I'm about to share with whoever reads it. It wouldn't be so dramatic if my life would have been easy. I wanted it to be easy, but knowing where my life leads me... it was hard being happy, feeling just for a moment free.
Everything I've done so far lead me in the wrong direction. I think I always knew that this would be my life.
Filled with betrayal, fear, anger.
It's a story about the everyday life, the violence, my mind filled with nothing but pain and fear. Anger at everyone out there who heard what happened, but didn't have the guts to save me, to give me just a glimpse of hope.
But I learned from a younger age that hope for a better world or salvation for people who need help is useless. How I wanted a normal life, like everyone else, but someone up there really wanted me gone.
I've been gone, for ages now, from the face of earth.
People like me...what do they do? What do they become? That's a question that doesn't even need an answer, you just look at those people and think - without thoughts of how we got to be where we were – that we didn't want this life, we didn't chose this.
You think we pretend not enjoying it, to be like this, but it's pure hell. I never wanted this to happen. Just remembering the dreams I had as a child... being a pretty little princess, living in a castle, eating anything I wanted. But I'm not that naive little child anymore. Open your eyes! Open them! See what's around you! Don't look at what people wear or do, look at what kind of people they where, are, will be.
So let me open your eyes to the real world, filled with the things you couldn't even imagine. Our world that you love so much, that I hate so much.
So I dare you to see the darkness, fear, anger that fills every single second of our lives. I dare you to see the things I saw and see every second of my life since my birth.
I Dare You! Turn the page, see what lies in front of you, that you all have seen, but ignored. Read about those lives that some of you deemed unworthy to live. Imagine what you could have become with a slight change in your life.
So I write to you again. I dare you. Turn that page, read about the real world, the dark world, not the fairytale that almost all of you grew up with.
I Dare You!
"We all live in a house on fire, no fire department to call; no way out." Tennessee Williams
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