I dont own Jericho or any of the characters of the series. I dont get any money for my writings and dont want to. Its all fiction.
Do I still love him?
He's back...
I really dont know if i should jump into the air and be happy or cry being angry.
Maybe it would be better he hadn't returned like this! Without saying a word! After 5 Years... 5 Years not knowing where he's been or what he's done...
I didnt forgive him what happened to my brother.
What was he thinking? Showing up in Jericho after 5 Years pretending it doesnt matter that he left this town!
Like it was no big deal coming back...Like it was no big deal that he left US!
I was on the Phone with Roger as i saw him... him who left me here, 5 Years ago without saying a word. We hugged each other, had a little chat. I told him about Roger and he wished me luck and gratulated me...
It looked like the whole Town had changed with the appearance of him. Why now? Why couldnt he show up after my wedding? I love Roger and i will marry him but... not when he is still in Jericho. I dont know what makes me think so. This somehow doesnt make sence...
I loved him! My first and only big love. We were like Bonny and Clyde, did stupid things all the time... hangin' around, joked around to get married some day... yeah its WERE. And then all of a sudden, he left Jericho and me without saying anything. I didnt understood it, even now I dont understand it. No sign that he's still alive, no Phonecall at his parents house. He didnt thought it was necessary... oh yeah thats how he is.
The last 5 Years i didnt really thought of him.
I think that engagement with Roger wasnt just because I love Roger, no, it was also because I wanted to show myself that I could live without that Person who left and hurt me, and that things can go on without him!
And now, since he's back, i have to consider that I care for him. And he means to me more than just a good friend would mean or an Teenage realationship. I m not even sure if i want to do this, to be stuck in the past... Before he returned I wanted to marry Roger but now things have changed...
I have Feelings for him, Feelings that never really had been gone. He is the one I trust the most... even this unforgiveable thing happened. Maybe, sometimes I m able to forgive him.
One thing i know now for sure: it doesnt matter how many days or Years a Person you truly love is gone, you cant hide your feelings or push a button to turn them out. Its weird to think of it, ist even weird to say it... but I still love him, after 5 Years.
Some Things in live never gonna change.
I love you Jake, i really love you!
Writers Note: I was just wondering what could emily had thought when she saw that Jake was back in Jericho and what her feelings could be. I mean ok yeah... they were together and he still loves her but what about her? So ... thats what came out... my ficcie! Its not the best thing i ever wrote but... I am so in love with that whole Jake thing g okay... i love Skeet Ulrich !!!! Dont blame me . I m a little bit crazy g So please let me know what you think and if i should write another one with Jake's thoughts about both.. her or heather. Please leave some comments its really important to me :
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