The Last Moments
"I just want to that I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I don't…I don't know what's wrong with me, I…please forgive me, please…" I reach for Tris like I am going to touch her, my is face wet with tears. I know in my heart that if she can't forgive me. I will die. I don't know how yet or in what way. "Stay away from me." Tris says quietly. She keeps her voice low "Never come near me again." I fell hurt I fell so hurt she was Abnegation she should be able to forgive me but I was wrong Dauntless has changed her too much. Christina and Will staring at me like I was some kind of criminal but maybe if they understood what I have been through the last few days I am sure they would understand. Than it hits me that no one would understand no one else here still misses their family. No one else here is still unsure if the choice they made was right. Everyone here was now Dauntless but I still felt like I was Candor. I just wanted to die. Tris's eyes meet mine and she says "If you do, I swear to God I will kill you." She than says "You coward." That was the last straw I was now sure I wanted to die but I just lay down in my bed sobbing and in the middle of the night I could take it no more. I quietly getting out of my bed and walked to the Pit. I now knew now that I was going to die. I just keep walking until I reached the chasm. The only place I know that I can be brave but still die. I step over the railing that keeps people from just falling into the chasm. I hold on tight to the railing as I look into the water. Am I sure this is what I want to do. If I do it, it will mean death. I can't back out now and this is much better than being faction less. I let one hand drop from the railing and tell myself "On the count of ten you jump. Ten." I start counting backward "Nine" Tears start to fill my eyes and I think about all the moments I had spent here "Eight" None of them matter now my life will be done soon. "Seven" Tears start to roll from my eyes. "Six" I think of my mom and dad who always wanted me to be Dauntless they said they wanted me to be brave and face my fears but they have no idea that I just can't do that. "Five" I start to remember the good moments in my live like how I got my first tattoo of that spider and how I carried Tris on my back." Four" I this really what I want to be dead and not be able to have any more good moments. "Three" I start to lose my grip on the railing. "Two" Maybe one day Tris will be able to forgive me. "One" The water from the chasm splashes my hand just as I decide to climb back over my hand slips from the railing and I fall. I fall fifteen feet. Than nothing I fell nothing. Nothingness just death.
Okay I know what you are thinking "How could I do that to Al." Well that is just how I thought his last moments went you also might be saying something like "But why did you kill him?" I will tell you this only once. He died in the book and that was how I thought he died so please don't hate on me. This is just how I thought it went.