And with that comment I knew Ron was never going to understand me. "You're actually disappointed?" Of course I'm disappointed, for God's sake. Does he forget I'm the girl who meddled with time just so she could sit all the classes? The one who studies everything, taught him tons, read all her textbooks before she came to school and took muggle studies to learn how wizards think. Not that that helped. It's truly terrifying how little these purebloods appreciate the magic gifts they have sometimes. They say they keep magic going, but there's no wonder in it for them. They don't really understand how it is to live in a constant suspension of disbelief. Case in point, DADA instruction. These people have 1 school. Surely they can spare one Auror or something to make sure their own children know how to fight.
For crying out loud, even Harry got an O in DADA. I mean, I know he's good and talented and all, but its not like he really works for it. If it was me with some lovely destiny to go and kill the Dark lord, I'd be learning everything I could. In this case, I still am, learning it and teaching it to him, with not much thanks. I looked up all the spells for the Triwizard and most for the DA, and yet still I am looked on as nothing but Gryffindor's Brain. Not even a proper girl to Mr. I'd rather mope about the weepy bitch then notice my best friend is female and able to dance quite well, thank you very much. Not that I fancy either of them, its just nice to be noticed sometimes.
My identity revolves around knowledge, not that they understand it. I need to know things in order to be able to survive in this new world, to prove everyone who's ever called me a mudblood wrong. I was going to be one of the few students ever with a perfect academic record, but no. Theres an E. 1 sodding E, but I can't exactly complain aloud, not when the others managed one O between the two of them. Honestly, they aren't actually stupid, just lazy. They don't have to strive to be accepted, which I think helps. Though if Ron expects to get his Mirror wish he will have to buckle down a bit. Headboys need good academics as well as leadership skills. And, whilst I'm not sure Ron would make a great head boy, I'd rather work with him than Malfoy. Ah, that's arrogant isn't in, assuming I'll be head girl. Well, the boys are allowed to brag about quidditch, I'll brag in my own head about Academics.
I don't think Harry ever realised how much he hurt me last year when he was yelling at me about not writing to him. (Has he ever tried to sneak a letter around Ron's interfering mother?) Accusing us of making him fight on his own. Nice to know he hasn't even realised that without me he'd have been eaten by the Devils snare back in first year. And the boys always side with each other against me. Oh, and once they make up their fights its like, bye Hermione.
Now, stop it. I am annoyed at myself(and possibly Dumbledore), and there's no need to take it out on them. Time to spend a day in the sun. I can imagine my parents' disappointment tomorrow.
A/N. Well, that was cathartic. Which probably tells you far too much about me. Written for Achieve that Outstanding and Animal challenges.