Disclaimer: Nope. No Jimmy Neutron for me. Doesn't belong to me, I understand clearly…
Chapter one: Loosing you was painful- A prologue.
I can't say losing him was painless. Because it wasn't, it never was. It will always and forever haunt me. Seeing his face that night as desperate as it was, it nearly killed me. Reality though, had to set in. With reality, there was no him, just a dark void in my heart where he used to be. I curse that day I re-met him, and the day we fell in love again. My job is too important though, something I could not risk. No matter though, he's gone, I shouldn't have to worry. Love is always like this, few people are lucky enough to keep their love. I know now that I'm not that lucky. Just once I thought, maybe things would be ok. But even now I was wrong.
I still wake up every night, turning over to check and see if he's there. I never see him though. He's never there, and my heart breaks every time. I didn't mean to meet him again; I had never planned on it. We knew each other our whole lives but yet, after senior year of high school, it was as if the past nine years hadn't matter. I moved on, went on to pursue a career that had come up months before my graduation. I just disappeared from everyone's lives. It never occurred to me that maybe some how he had the same option. He was a genius after all, why wouldn't the government want him, what with his past and all. It never occurred to me, that one day we'd butt heads again, and go back to what we felt before. Someone somewhere, whoever controls destiny, wanted to play this dirty trick on us. Well they won. We didn't give in without a fight though, I still had something to remember him.
I can close my eyes, and try to force myself not to remember, but what good would that do? I've been trying to do that for five years now, five long, crazy years. I still do my job, even though I still fear that he'll show up somehow. I know it's impossible, I saw him disappear. He left me alone, I can't blame him though. I know he wasn't going on purpose. I just can't believe… "Mommy…" a tiny voice said. I looked over, glancing at my five year old son. I can't help but feel my heart break again.
"What's wrong Jamie?" I said softly, pulling the covers up so that he could come join me in bed.
"I can't sleep. Can you scuddle with me?" he said innocently. He looked so much like his father. Every aspect of him was exactly like his father, he already had shown proof of inheriting being a genius. His face was shaped the same way, his hair was the same milky chocolate. The only difference between being his father and being him was he had my face, same eyes, same nose, same lips. It was heart braking looking at him.
"Sure baby."I said softly. He looked up at me thoughtfully, then grinned up at me. My heart melted at that moment. His smile vanished though as he looked up at me. I could tell he was diffidently thinking again. The past couple weeks he had been coming home asking about his dad. All I would do was shrugged it off and tell him that one day I would tell him. I'm writing it to him though. I can't tell him everything exactly, its too painful.
The two of us laid in my bed. Jamie was breathing in and out deeply. He hadn't asked again, he just looked at me for awhile. I sighed, staring at the ceiling. Why now? Why think about Jimmy now? He was out there somewhere. I'd find him one day. For now though, all I had was to relieve that year over and over again.
A/N: Hey guys, this is a new start! I really hope this story goes well, I'm just as excited to write this story as I am to write Love Last. This was sort of like a prologue to everything. The next chapter really starts six years before. It's a short start, but that's because I ran out of ideas to start with, otherwise I would've been starting the flashbacks, and that would ruin my hopes for the first chapter. Well I hope you guys like it. I was originally going to keep it offline, but I like having people read my work, even if there's no way I can use the story plot later in life. Jamie by the way, is James. Cindy, even though I didn't clearly state it, is the main character of all this, and most of the story will remain in her point of view. Jamie is almost six years old in this chapter thing. He was born before the Jimmy drama started in my story, so Jamie will come back in every now and then. Enjoy guys, review this and Love Last, and new chapters will come soonish.