My love, leave yourself behind

Beat inside me, leave you blind

My love, you have found peace

You were searching for release

"Damon, Damon! Don't do this, don't leave me.. Damon, look at me!" Elena's voice rang through his ears as soft echoes as she held his body that was soon going limp within' her grasp. "-Damon, I love you, I need you, I can't lose you.. Stay with me, please.." Speaking through her tears, her doe eyes were piercing down into his icy blue orbs that were soon lifeless as his body went limp in her arms.

Her eyes were glassy with the tears that indicated her pain, all the pain that she was feeling in that moment. Damon Salvatore, the man that she loves was dead in her arms but she didn't feel anything in that moment that she held him. She was numb, Elena Gilbert was numb.

Another person that she loves and cherishes was gone and it was her fault, she couldn't help but blame herself for what had just occurred in front of her eyes. Body shaking as her arms wrapped around his limp body even tighter feeling the pain rushing to her chest as her sobs broke out.

"-Come back to me.. Please.. I love you.." Her words were scratchy as her voice broke with pain. Bringing her hand up to his cold face, her fingers traced his sculpted jawline, her thumb glided across his cheekbone before her fingers reached his eyes, touching them softly closing them shut indicating that Damon Salvatore was no longer here with her. He was gone.

Dear Diary,

It's been a week that I've been in hell. Hell. What am I suppose to write? How am I suppose to write? I'm breaking every single day that I wake and he's not here with me. I would wake and his arms would be wrapped around me in a strong hold, pulling me closer when he knew that I was awake. His lips would kiss along the back of my ear where he knew I was most sensitive, -but that's all gone now. I wake up cold without his warmth beside me, I wake up with tear stains along my face from the night before, I wake up without my heart and soul beside me and it kills me each and everyday. I am breaking more and more everyday but how is something that is so broken have the ability to break even more so? I miss Damon Salvatore more than anything, that's my secret. I miss him and I want him back… I NEED him back. I'm going to be selfish because he was- IS my happiness. He is- Ripping out the paper from the journal, crumbling it within' her small shaky hands, she throws it towards the garbage can in the corner of her room but as every night, she misses and it adds on to the pile on the ground. Running her fingers through her long medium brown hair, her eyes began to turn glassy as a tear runs down her face. Her doe eyes scan her desk, landing on a picture frame containing a small photo of her and Damon. Them smiling and being their happiness on the dock of the lake house. That day comes back to her head, it was a day that she'll never forget.

"Damon, don't you dare! -Damon Salvato-" Elena screams as he tips her over the dock pretending to drop her in the water but his hold on her keeps her in her place as small snickers release from his mouth.

"Aw, come on, Elena, it's water. -If an alligator comes, use your little vampire super powers and punch it."

Pulling her back to his chest, his arms wrapped around her waist watching as she turned within' his hold a small pout was upon her lips as her doe eyes met his blue orbs, the sun hitting them both perfectly as the breeze blew against them."Aww, come on, pouty."

The famous smirk came upon his lips as a small smile rose upon her own lips as she leaned up and pressed her lips against his, they shared a simple soft kiss but it was filled with more love than the ones before.

"One picture, please?! You almost dropped me in the lake, Damon, I deserve a picture with you!"

Watching as he rolled his eyes, he gave in. It was rare if he ever said no to Elena, it was impossible to say no to such a perfect being. Pulling her close in his arms, Elena held up the small digital device, smiling as he did the same. Pushing the button, capturing the moment forever.

"I love you, Damon.."

"And I love you, Elena."

Sitting upon her bed, her tears streamed down her face as she eyed the photo that was now within' her hands. "I miss you so much.." Speaking softly, her thumb rubbed the glass on the frame just over his face.

"And you have no idea how much I miss you.." Damon spoke out softly, returning the saying but it went ignored. Elena wasn't the Gilbert that was gifted with seeing the dead, that was all Jeremy's doing. It pained Damon, even as a ghost, to see her so hurt and down because of him, because of his death. Watching from across the room, he wished to be there with her, to make her happy again, to see that smile because he knew he wouldn't see it again.

"-I wish you were here…I love you, Damon.." Her voice broke as it filled the quiet room, her tears streamed down her face placing the frame upon her side table. Looking at the clock, it read 12:53AM, time sure does pass on by when you're broken and depressed inside. Leaning over, she turned off her lamp and wrapped herself under her blankets.

Closing her eyes, all she saw was Damon dead in her arms, it was all she saw every night. At first, it frightened her and she wouldn't sleep but she had gotten use to it after a while, trying to think of happy memories of them two together and it would work most of the time but tonight was one of those night.

One of those nights that it would be another night of restlessness.